~Y/N POV~

"My god the food out here is so much better than back home!!" Jungkook

I watched him amusingly devour a bag of BBQ flavoured chips. I couldn't stop smiling that he snuck into my room again a week after seeing them all again. He stated he had to come see me again and something about Taehyung making it possible when he takes off that headband at nights.

Jungkook was sitting beside me on my bed, stuffing his face and watching the tv that was blaring nothing but news. The news is boring but he seems to be invested in learning about what's happening in the world.

"How is this all new to you? Don't you eat on your missions and pay attention to the worlds headlines?"

He just shook his head and glanced to me, stuffing his hand into the plastic bag again.

"No. You know we can survive without food and water for two weeks Y/n and our missions never last longer than five days. We get the job done." Jungkook

My smile dropped and I shuffled closer to him but used my elbow to prop against the headboard we're both using to lean against.

"What are your missions again? I don't think you mentioned it."

Jungkook did a double take when he noticed my sudden change of behaviour and sighs. Placing the half eaten bag of chips on the bedside table and wiped his hands off his thighs.

"Y/n you have to understand that we never had a choice." Jungkook

"I do understand that but what were they?"

"Assassinations and hacking into government databases which would require us to be in the chosen country so it would be known that it was someone back home. Usually they would use Taehyung or Namjoon for that kind of stuff." Jungkook

I nod and turn away from him, biting my lower lip. I'm not surprised even in the slightest. I just wonder what they would want me to do if I was still there. All I can do is heal people and animals.

"Y/n we don't have a choice when it comes to this stuff. I mean a few years ago I was ordered by Dr Choi to kill you but he never told me it was you until I saw you." Jungkook

A gasp left my lips and I whipped my head back around to face Jungkook again, showing him the pure shock on my face.

"What? When?"

"Two years ago. I reported back to him that you were dead and that I completed my mission so he wouldnt send one of us to kill you again." Jungkook

As mad as I was that he didn't come to me two years ago when he found me, I just couldn't stay mad because I know he was thinking about my safety first.

"I'm not mad."

His eyes widen and he sits up straight.

"Really? You're not?" Jungkook

"Nope. You clearly didn't kill me and you didn't attempt to assault me either. I mean you even lied to Dr Choi so, I'm not mad."

The relief washed across his face as he sighs softly and sinks back into the bed and again leans against the headboard.

"Thank god you're not mad. That's the last thing I need right now." Jungkook

I watched him carefully and had this feeling that he's keeping something from me. I can just tell by the way he wont look at me in the eyes when he speaks or the way his hands would twitch every now and then as if he cant sit still.

Something is on his mind.

And judging by the way he keeps side eyeing me while he taps his stomach with his fingers trying to avoid eye contact with me, gives it all away.

"Jungkook, is there something you want to tell me?"

"Nope. Nothing." Jungkook

He turned his head away from me to his right so I couldn't see his face. I bet his cheeks are burning pink right now and he doesn't want me to see.

"Jungkook?!"

The man next to me flinched and spun his head back around and made instant eye contact with me.

"I'm jealous and I'm having a hard time knowing Taehyung got you pregnant first." Jungkook

I stared at him with wide eyes, shocked by his confession. I thought it would be something serious, not something like this. Jungkook curses under his breath, scrunching up his nose as he looks down to his lap.

"Sorry, I shouldn't of said that. It's none of my business." Jungkook

"I guess we need to talk about it at some point."

He nods and begins to fiddle with his fingers on his lap.

"I guess." Jungkook

He mumbles still not able to look at me. Right now he just reminds me of a small boy about to be scolded.

"Jungkook I'm not keeping the baby. As much as I want to, it's not safe to and on top of that I'm not in the place I need to be to raise a baby."

"So you want to keep it because it's Taehyung's?" Jungkook

His eyes met mine, flickering in anger but I shook my head angrily that he would even suggest such a thing.

"No that's not my reason. Where the hell did that come from? I wanted to keep this baby before even knowing the truth and don't try that 'oh you know it was Taehyung to begin with' crap because I didn't. He must of used his power on me or something."

I waved my hand off and slumped down to lay down and rest the back of my head on my pillow. Jungkook's eyes lingered on me before he sighed softly and laid down on his side and propped up his head using his hand.

"He didn't you know." Jungkook

"Huh?"

Again he sighed and pinched at my floral sheets.

"Tae didn't use his power on you. He said you were both drunk." Jungkook

"What else did he say?"

He shrugged and pouted his lips.

"That's all he would say. He refuses to tell us anything more and I don't want to." Jungkook

The pout on his lips grew as he twisted his finger into sheets even more.

In silence I watched him and noticed the black veins from his knuckles that travelled up his arm. They were vibrate black which surprises me that I only noticed now that he has black veins too. I have some but they aren't as bad as this even if they have grown bigger and darker. I even have a few more around my thighs and stomach.

"I have them too."

I point to his veins but ended up brushing my finger against his knuckle and slowly up his right arm before the vein disappears until his short black sleeve.

"So you have them too?" Jungkook

"Yes but I don't know what they mean. I just thought it might be because I was away from all of you. It can be painful sometimes."

Jungkook nods, biting on his lower lip.

"Yeah, it does. Y/n I'm sorry about bringing all this up. Can we just enjoy another hour before I have to go back?" Jungkook

Entwining my fingers with his I nod and pick up the remote to turn up the volume.

We only have a certain amount of  time before he has to go back but from what he told me earlier, I'll have at least one visitor every night now so we can see each other and I'm looking forward to that.

I just don't know who's going to come knocking at my window tomorrow night.