"You're a terrible liar Char."

After that awkward moment, I rolled out of Hayden's bed, mumbling goodnight. I could hear him sigh even after I closed the lights and got into my bed. My heart was still thumping against my chest as I squeezed my eyes shut, forcing myself to go to sleep.

"Then why is your heart beating so fast?"

I close my eyes even tighter as if that would get rid of my thoughts but it's impossible. Hayden is right across from me, sleeping in the bed beside mine, his soft snoring is the only thing being heard in the room.

"Tell me you feel nothing for him."

From a young age, I wasn't given a lot of attention as most kids, my mother and I are polar opposites and she never knew how to talk to me, so when someone showed me any interest I get attached really quick. That's one of my biggest flaws but I can't help it. Just like how I can't help my feelings for Hayden Holt.

I'm also positive there is no way I am going to act on those feelings. I don't need another relationship right now, even though I've only been in two my whole life-not that you could count Daniel being my fake boyfriend and all- but I'm afraid to try again.

I suck at relationships. And I suck at being alone.

I'm pathetic.

Rolling over on my side, I face Hayden's sleeping figure. He's facing me as well and his features look so innocent from here, he looks so vulnerable when he's asleep. With a smile, I yawn, my eyelids feeling heavy before the sleep welcomes me completely.

...

"There's a party at building C again, you guys have to be there." We're sitting in the cafeteria inside Central West when Daniel asks us this.

University food is on a whole other level, I don't understand why people say high school food is shit, compared to this; I get it now. "No way," I say, munching on my apple.

"I'm definitely down," Hunter shrugs, looking over to Jack expectantly.

"Not missing this one tonight," Jack replies, grinning.

"I have this exam coming up, I wish I was still a freshman," Clark groans, scribbling into her notebook. She is studying dentistry which I would've never expected when I first saw her. A group of sophomores call her over and Clark apologizes before leaving us.

It's weird that Clark's older but she still hangs out with us. All eyes turn to me and Hayden who are silent.

"I can't go," I say again and they groan. I simply look over to Hayden, expecting to hear the same answer.

"You guys know I don't do parties." Was his answer and I can't help but feel relieved. It makes me happy that Hayden also doesn't want to go.

"Losers," Daniel says in a sing-song voice and we roll our eyes.

When lunch finishes, we all go our separate ways. I decide to go back to my dorm and catch up on most of my classes. I get a lot done before I look over to my watch to find it's 7 pm already.

Suddenly, there's a knock on the door.

When I open it I'm surprised to see Alex. And he's wearing his wig and entire costume once again, making him Alexandra today. "What the hell do you want?" I ask him lazily, already over the shock I got from seeing him like this.

"I'm looking for Hayden," Alex says, stepping inside without permission. My eyebrows rise hesitantly when he says this. He's looking for Hayden? Why? "We're supposed to head to the party together," Alex adds as he watches me expectantly.

"Hayden's not going to the party," I say under my breath, I don't realize how quiet I sound. I know Alex realizes too because he starts smirking.

"He is now, since I'll be there."

"What?" I breathe out. "Alex, what are you doing?"

"I'm trying to show you that no one will ever love you as much as me. I was right about Daniel - " he says and I shake my head.

"You know nothing about Hayden," I snap and this just makes his smirk widen.

"Oh, and you do?" Silence. Terrible unwanted silence. I don't know how to respond to that because he was right. I feel like I know Hayden, but do I really?

"I know guys like Hayden," Alex starts and this sounds all too familiar. I don't want to hear this. "He doesn't care about anyone. He's quiet and never shares his thoughts so no one knows what he's really thinking, really feeling. When it comes to girls, he doesn't want anything but one thing from them; that type of guy doesn't do relationships, Char."

"Why are you telling me this?" I ask harshly, glaring his way. "I don't care!"

"You don't?" Alex echoes and for some reason, he looks sad. "I really wish that was true...I'm going to meet him at that party to prove to you."

I shake my head furiously. "Get out."

"Char..." When he doesn't move I repeat myself.

"Get out and go to that stupid party for all I care! I'm so sick of you!" I push him out but he doesn't protest, he just pleads with his eyes before I slam the door shut in his face, breathing heavily. I run a hand through my hair before walking over to sit on the edge of my bed.

My thoughts were eating me away, whispering into my head and trying to make me go crazy.

"I know guys like Hayden."

Shut up.

"Then why is your heart beating so fast?"

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid!

"Tell me you feel nothing for him."

I fall back on my bed with a groan, slapping the pillow over my head as if that would drown out all the noise, all the voices, all my thoughts. I'm not at all tired and there I am trying to fall asleep as if that's going to solve my problems.

I was so relieved when he said he wasn't going to the party. But he gave in so easily all because of Alex? Alex has more game in him than anyone I knew and he isn't even a girl!

With a sigh, I flip onto my side, staring at the vacant bed that belongs to Hayden and just like that I'm over it. If Hayden gave in to Alex that easily then it isn't worth it. Besides, Alex was right, I know absolutely nothing about him.

At least Alex was there to make me realize that mistake before it could happen. Right now I don't need anyone; I need to focus on myself, focus on my studies.

Maybe Alex is right, maybe in the end, I'm only ever good enough for him...

...

Later that night I wake up to the sound of the door slamming shut.

My eyes wide and awake, I find Hayden entering, throwing the keys on the floor before stumbling my way. I stand up to help lead him to his bed but he's falling over me so that he lands on top of me on my bed, his hands on either side of my body.

"Hayden are you drunk?" I ask, worriedly.

"Where were you tonight?" He asks instead, dodging my question completely although it's not like it isn't obvious. He is definitely drunk.

"I told you guys I wasn't coming." I point out but he shakes his head.

"But I heard you were coming, I heard you changed your mind," Hayden says drowsily, his eyes penetrating deep into my gaze so intensely the room felt a little hot.

"I didn't," I assure him, it's a little hard to say anything more with him looking at me like that though. "But I heard you did."

"I thought you were going to be there." When Hayden says this I stop breathing for a second.

"But what about Alex? Didn't you go for Alex?" I ask quickly, my brows furrowed. Hayden leans down more, his eyes now searching my face with seriousness.

"Why would I go for Alex?" I don't have the words to speak at this point; I just continue to stare up at him, amazed. Hayden rests on his elbows so that our chests are now touching and our faces are inches apart as he plays with my hair. "I love your hair."

"T-thank you."

"You're really beautiful, Charlie."

Air! I needed air! I forgot how to breathe at this point. "They told me you came to the party and went off with some guy," he whispers sadly, looking away.

"What? No." I say quickly, making him look back at me with expecting eyes. "I didn't even go; maybe you were a little too drunk, you probably misheard."

Hayden smiles, his dimple showing and making my insides melt. "Maybe."

"Who told you that?" I ask with a frown. Not another one of those rumors, I think with a groan, when will it ever end?

"I don't remember," he says as he looks up with pursed lips, thinking hard, it's really cute seeing him like this. "I was sitting and I heard this girl talking about it, it doesn't matter, I don't know why she lied but I don't care either."

I smile when he says this and he smiles back.

"It's getting late," I start even though I'm enjoying this, I just can't take advantage of him while he's drunk. I don't want him to say something or do something he will most definitely regret in the morning.

"I'm not tired." He says simply before smirking. "Come on," he says getting up and bringing me with him until he's leading me out of the room before picking up his keys from the ground.

"Where are we going?" I ask unsurely, watching him lock the door to our dorm room.

"Anywhere but here."

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