Everything's been really hard. I just really hope that everything turns out fine, I've been doubting myself so much recently. I just feel like I'm going to throw up, and I don't want that. I'm honestly barely able to write this even, it takes so much time and energy to do everything. Why? Why does everything have to end? Why does everyone have to go? Why do I have to go? Nothing makes any sense in my mind and I just need a shoulder to cry on right now