I just got a rush of sadness again. So many things have been hurting me, so many things. I really want to be told everything's going to be okay, and I want things to be okay. But god it hurts so much. I'm nervous, and I'm scared. I feel like I could be let go any second, and that I'd just fall and break. My hands have been shaking for two hours, and I'm honestly trying not to cry.  I feel like I'll puke any second and just collapse. I've told my therapist something so personal, something that hurts me so much. And my hearts so broken