Namjoon's POV

(Hours before Jimin's breakdown)

I'd gone to get myself water, but as soon as I'd gone down I saw Taehyung and Jin laying on the couch together. Jin was cuddled up into him. He typically was really sub like outside of bed, but once we got in he was the top.

I sighed and tried to not pay them much attention. I could feel their eyes burning holes into my side. It's ok. They can look all they'd like. I still believe I'm the victim in this case.

Sure, I liked her, but as soon as Jin became a part of my life I began to blow her off. It was easy since she traveled so often. Our parents thought it would be good to set us up when she couldn't even bother to be around often enough. How did they expect me to fall when she wasn't around enough.

Still, I stayed with her for a year after Jin and I had gotten together. Admittedly, it probably wasn't a good idea. However, I didn't know how to bring it up. I still enjoyed her when she was around and when those letters did come in, but once times were silent and she wasn't there she was out of mind.

Jin and I'd met at school days after she'd officially moved to England. He was really nice and flirty from the start. Girls and guys stared him down and he only smiled and acted fine about it. Sure it was middle school, but even as a 14 year old he knew he was perfect.

We became friends instantly. I don't really remember how, it was a bit sudden. Then in no time we were hanging out daily. He liked to audition for plays, and he'd gotten the male lead in one. He was so handsome in his role, I was completely stolen. My liking for Lisa flew out the door. I didn't mind that he was a guy either. Sure, I'd known myself to be straight, but I really couldn't be weirded out by it. I support the LGBT community and believe myself to be straight, but if I fall for a dude then hey, I fell for a dude. And damn had I fallen for a dude. Kim Seokjin stole my heart that opening night.

We were together really fast as well. By then Lisa had planned to come to Seoul to visit me. I liked her so much still- at least I realized that when she came by. I figured since I only liked her and didn't love her then its ok.

I made my way back up the stairs after having my water. I approached my door and as I did I could her faint groaning. I sighed heavily as I opened the bedroom door to see Jungkook beating his meat with his eyes screwed shut and bits of hair pasted to his sweaty forehead.

"Fuck J-Jim-ah!" He moaned out.

He didn't even realize I'd walked in. I sipped my water just before slamming the door shut. I watchec him jump up at the noise.

"Can you stop?" I asked.

Just as I said that, he busted his nut on his shirt and sighed.

"Sorry, didn't realize you came in" He said with a shrug.

He didnt bother cleaning himself up. He just zipped himself away. Pulling off his too before wiping his hand off with it. I rolled my eyes. He got another top after tossing that one in his dirty laundry pile.

"So you really did cheat on jin?" He questioned.

I scoffed. I really didn't. Jin fell for Taehyung. I never fell for Lisa. I never fell for anyone else.

"Well it's only cheating if I loved the other right?" I questioned back.

"I mean, I don't know. My aunt divorced my uncle for only having a text relationship with someone in canada so probably not" he shrugged.

His aunts just weak then. If it was long distance and only text, then it clearly wasn't love. She had no reason to stress it. It's not like he was going to leave him just before he was thinking about some other chicks tits.

Then again, I guess I can see where it would be wrong. The person you're with is supposed to just be with you. I don't know though. I still think that as long as the one you really want to be with is your partner, then it's ok.

"I see..." I sighed.

There was one time when Jin's cousin kept flirting with me so we made out. We didn't go farther than some tongue. I only thought about Jin though. I only loved him.

"But I mean.. if your hearts still set on the one you're with, then its ok. Right?" I tried to justify it.

He shot me a disgusted look. I felt a bit awkward under his glare. Then again, what does he know. He's like 12 or something.

"Whatever. Don't ask me. Im having enough trouble deciding how to cope with caring about someone who might actually like me back as it is" he pulled his covers over himself and turned away from me.

"Ok but i'm just confused!" I didn't want to vent to him, but I can't help it. How could Jin go for a horny sixteen year old? Ah? "Is what I did all that wrong? Jin's screwing a 16 year old! He actually thinks he loves the kid... Psh! Nobody could possibly fall for a 16 year old. They're annoying as shit and overly hormonal. It's practically babysitting anyways. Anyone willing to put up with that must be stup-"

Jungkook sat up again. Shooting me his ultimate death glare. He spoke before I could even finish my last word.

"i'm so close to just punching your teeth out you fucking idiot!" His face was red with anger.

He got out of bed then. Walking out of the room and slamming the door behind him. I felt the room shake he'd closed it so hard.

I only cleared my throat and took another sip of my water.

What the hell?