Tae POV (ik my taejin chapters are always his pov but it's bc i dont want you in jins mind because his mind would reveal too much)

Jin had just dragged me up to my room. Typically he always eats faster than the cookie monster, but this time he paced himself. As the others were finishing up, so was I. Until he kicked me hard and eyed my last spoonful of rice. It left me to sigh before picking up only a grain or two at a time. After the others had all gone upstairs, he finally ate as fast as he usually does. Not long after taking us to where we are now. My room.

"So yoongi and hoseok are locked in my room. Counselor nims not doing checks today because its hoseoks last day and he wants to give us space. Namjoons not giving me attention, as usual. I think jikook had another fight, but are having a heavy makeout session in jimins room so-" he didn't even finish his sentence before shoving me back onto my bed.

He crawled over me and quickly planted a kiss on my lips. Pecking sweetly before finally going in all the way. I grabbed his hands and locked our fingers. He slowly began to grind into me, but that's not what I wanted now.

"Hm-" I pulled my hands from his to hd his hips in place. "Let's just cuddle. I'm really tired today"

Jin smiled happily then. Pecking my lips again before getting up. We got into our positions. Facing each other. With his head buried into my chest. My arms wrapped around him.

"That's ok, i love cuddling." Jin had replied to me.

What I said had brought Namjoon to mind. Jin asked what Namjoon wanted to do today, but he said he was tired and wanted to sleep alone. Emphasizing the alone part. It clearly had a bit of an affect on Jin. It brought him down. I didn't intend to counteract that, but after seeing him light up at me saying just about the opposite of his boyfriend made me feel prideful. Made me feel strong to think "yes, I can make Jin happier than his actual boyfriend can". To know that even thought I'm exhausted today too, I still have the ability to care for the guy I love.

We laid like this for a long time. In complete silence. In a calming state. Usually silence is awkward, but for us it wasn't. If felt comfortable. Safe even. And after a while, our hearts fell in sync. Our breathing patterns played off of each others. My grip on him loosened.

"I love you" I heard him sleepily whisper.

My half asleep state wore off quickly. I felt myself stiffen because of his words. I felt frozen. That anxious feeling that made you feel cold all over.

"Y-you too" I tried to speak.

Jin then let out a breathy laugh. Just before moving up to kiss me, but only getting my chin. He didn't try again though, he simply returned to burying his face in my chest and holding me close.

"I love you so, so much" he said a final time.

At this point I even felt clammy. Sick to my stomach. My eyes were wide open as I stared blankly at my door.

Not because I didn't feel that way too, but because it was my reality check. Jin isn't mine to love endlessly. And as of right now on, we're officially too cozy. Maybe I can't have cozy anymore. Not when it's like this.

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Ok hello. So like I flipped this chapter and the one after. I'm just moreso in the mood for angsty taejin atm sorry

Anyways PLT is super good. Love love love villains ep though. Like actually love it to DEATH

Anyways i'm a bit worried nobody liked the last chapter. Was it bad? Or am I over thinking it?