Jm.

Hoseok was downstairs taking the HGT. Right after him would be Namjoon. As soon as we'd gone up stairs after breakfast, I went to my room and straightened up.

Placing things neatly and perfectly. I was just finishing up when I heard the door open. Turning to see who it was, I saw none other than Jungkook.

I was planning to go get him after I was done. He beat me to it so it seems.

It's been about a week since the rejection. Jungkook and I haven't spoken since then. Only Once. I was yelling at him because he'd given Tae a black eye. Tae doesn't seem to mind at all though, for some reason. He actually thinks fondly of it. It's a bit strange since the Tae I've come to know would definitely be in at least some state of bitterness and judgement towards Jungkook. I think he may just be hiding it well enough.

"I was just going to get you. We need to talk" I spoke seriously.

Jungkook only nodded cutely and smiled a little.

"Exactly. Jimin, I think whatever this problem is should die down. I want to start over with you since I lo-"

"I think you should apologize to me and Taehyung because we're both suffering a lot"

We spoke at the same time, but he eventually completely shut up. His smile faded instantly as a new expression took over his face.

"What?"

His expression wasn't angry despite his tone. His expression was confused and hurt. It could make me break, so I was quick to look off to the side.

"You heard me so lets hear it" I crossed my arm's and spoke with confidence.

"You rejected me" he shot back. "A-and broke my heart." His voice cracked a bit. "You gave me you and I thought someone was really going to be there in my life and really going to try and understand me but instead you made me feel worse than anyone else and then let Tae kiss all over you in front of me just to flaunt it in my face that you dont give a shit about me."

As the words flowed out if his mouth I brought myself to look at him again. He opened up.

"So no, I refuse. If anything jimin, sorry for thinking you were someone special. I was wrong." And with that, Jungkook turned to leave.

Infuriated. This was the first time in my life I've ever felt such a way.

"Y-you cant play that with me jungkook!" I wanted to scream, but maintained my cool somewhat.

He came to a halt right in fromt of the door.

"You... you're the one that always was so rude to me, but then screwed me all night! Then you got mad because I told you to ask me out for real and not just assume things and instead of doing that you gave up and then Tae tried comforting me so you punched him! It's not my fault you can't make up what you want" I huffed in the end. Out of breathe from defending myself.

"I-its never been easy for me to open up to anyone because nobody has ever liked me." He began with. Turning slowly to face me. His gaze was sharp and his face was a bit flushed. "I showed you myself and you turned me down like everyone else. I wanted you and I've only ever wanted you. I know im shitty and i know i deserve to be treated like crap... but i just thought that maybe at least i could have you if i finally let my walls down. So fine, Jimin, im sorry im the worst... i just lo-like you and im not used to this feeling. And sorry i expected more than i deserve." His chest was rising and falling quickly and his eyes looked like they could well up any second. "P-please dont.. please dont talk to me ever again." His strong tone finally fell apart. "Im sick of acting tough all the time. Im tired of trying to pretend nothing affects me. Im really just sick and tired." And with that tears streamed down Jungkooks face as he quickly ran off to his room.

Right then, you could really see just how young and immature Jungkook really was after all.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel horrible right now. I understand a bit now. I can see why he might be how he is.

Jungkook wasnt being an ass to pick on me. Jungkook was being an ass because he has no clue how to act around people, and because he's given up on trying.

I felt like I'd just ran a mile. All the air had left my body and my breathes were uneven. Taking a seat on my bed as I let the tears run down m face, I cried for him.

All this time Jungkook only picked on me and was so rude to us all was because all this time he's been nothing but sad and insecure. He just put up a front. And he was willing to drop that front for me, but instead I took it head on and smashed it to the ground. Leaving him nothing but vulnerable.

I got up. Walking across the hall to talk it out once more. To finally listen to what he came to the room to talk to me about. To face this quickly and bury it away.

Situations like this are best fixed quickly, so that it cant be left to manifest in either of us. It's easier to be happy- or at least coexist together.

And Just as I'd reached his door you could hear the sad boy crying his heart out.

"stupid stupid stupid. Im so stupid" he cried behind the door.

Breaking My heart just a little more.

I wanted to knock, but I couldn't bring myself to do so. I stood there the entire time he cried. Frozen.

And one very, very pittiful deep sigh later, his cries stopped.

"I hate myself... and so does everyone else"

And with that, I let my face fall into my hands as I turned and went back to my room. Completely unable to make amends.

Is it better off this way?

-

Um yeah. She's kind of angsty and spicy now. But like not the good flavorful spice. Like... just spice. Like you wanna cut your tongue off kind of spice.

And um anyways

This is gonna be my messiest and bluntest statement ever but

I aready know like none of you are here for jikook.
I know most of you are like living for that Yoonmin and like thats wonderful bc wow love that she's thriving a little
But like I am a hard Jikook stan and like I'm a hard Taejin stan and I'm a decently sized Yoonseok stan. Like that lineups my best friend. But since I cAnT hAvE tHaT
I'm gonna make one of them canon
And like donT gET pReSsEd ItS NoT JiKOok
It's taejin. Woops like sorry
But its spicy and like iF I cAnT HaVe My mAiN tHen liKe ImMa hAvE mY SecOnd
So uHm thATs ThaT
Like ik i shouldnt just conform to what everyone else prefers
But i mean LikE WhAtEveR

And sorry I sound rude and I've gone like insane??
BUt im stressed as heck??? And like just smtkskdkak already a bitch and then now that I'm stressed its showing more so SORRY
Like my bEsT fRienD aNd PeT mInNIe has passed away. Like I really just miss and love her and I kEeP cRyIng anD lIke ShE was jUsT A RaT LiKe IdK WhY iM hYsTeriCaL oVEr ThIs. Anyways I lost all my notes for this story and all my others so i just dont even know what im doing anymore like hows it gonna be a crack fic when like my notes are gone like the only crack thing about this story anymore is me bc like wow shes just sOoO tragic GOSH and like I'm a senior in high school??? but it hasnt even started bc my teachers are basically STRIKING so like now I caNT MAKE UP MY SATS THAT MY EX-FRIEND SCREWED ME OVER WITH and like im broken out and ugly and missed my glow up so thats tragic and like idk if i have a job? Like i was told I had a job? But like its sketchy idk. Then like im turning 18 so I have all these disgusting responsibilities. Im going to be in drivers ed in a few days. ALL MY HAIR IS FALLING OUT AND IM FAT RN and I really just like. Idk I want a sugar daddy and like I want someone to hold me so I can just flip out and cry then fall asleep and then i wanna wake up to taco bell but like idk thats that. my melodramatic ass will calm down now. like idek why?? Im telling you guys all of this??? Hopefully none of you are reading it bc im ridiculous.
Anyways thats my tedtalk. Gtg.

Anyways here's Jeongseung from D-Crunch. Stan them.