Yoongi

It's been weeks since the shower incident. We went on like normal, as if i didnt ditch him in the shower. He still flirted with everyone, still came onto me, but only occasionally. I'll never be sure why he flirts with me less than the others. The others only want to mess around. I want him to be mine. Im not sure why really, but i like him.

I knew i was gay when i was in middle school. I had to go to the locker room 3rd period. I never cared before about being with anyone, but then I was put into a room full of half dressed boys. It opened my eyes, and shattered my mom's hopes of having a granddaughter one day.

I wrote in a journal then, so i didnt have to break my friends and families heart and tell them my sexuality. So when a pretty girl moved to my school, id pretend to be excited about it, then later go home and write about how i wish i was straight. How I became shut down, seemingly cold and reserved, when really i was just afraid to get close to people. Knowing I couldnt hide forever, i didnt want to disappoint anyone.

I'd never had a crush before. My journal wasn't for boasting about the boys i liked, but rather to mourn my lack of interest in girls that people around me that people liked or encouraged me to like. I've written about a friend once though, he was handsome, but straight. Thats all i wrote of him before talking about the rest of my day.

Jimin is the first person i've been embarrassed to be around. The first boy to comfort me here and the first to comfort my sexuality. The first boy I laid eyes that had been so beautiful, he made looking at anything else dull. I just want Jimin to be mine to hold and love.

Fuck. This is insane. This gay house is making me insane.

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Filler really because i cant find my notes for this fic skdjsjdjj
Also i want to update minnie skirt, but im not sure how to connect whats happened to the next chapter and im just being straight up lazy fr. Like i dont actually put effort into this fic so its easy to just pull out of nowhere (omf im sorry that sounds bad like i put effort into the plot and jokes but not into the actual writing of it... idk how to make that sound better).... but with other fics i put slightly more effort. Ugh except pizza boy is the same as this fic with effort BUT EVERYTHING ugh that fics hard for me to update nejdjdj *why i havent in literally a year now oops*

And like also thank you for those of you who always leave encouraging messages on this fic/my others. It makes my day knowing you like what ive created wndjjwfj

Also im just curious... who in the fic would you like to see more of? Ships youd like to see and stuff. Like i have notes for this fic with whats going to happen in each chapter,,, so i already know the ships i'll be using, but who knows i might squeeze in some ships if i dont already have them. (But please dont be upset if i dont use the ship for sure, i may not have been able to find a place to put it.. ill give them a moment for sure tho even if its just sassing each other)