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I'm sorry for late update. I ain't keeping well but finally I could muster up some strength to write
It's a short update but I hope you all like it !!!!
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They were deeply engrossed into their soulful moment under a Rainy Sky cherishing & feeling each other Shehnaaz deepened the kiss as she was running high on emotions

A shrill sound of lightening halted their moment. And slowly Realization dawned upon Sidharth as reality hit him hard. He quickly pulled himself away & jerked back at once making Shehnaaz flinch & bewildered at the sametime. She was embarrassed & hurt at the sametime

A Pin Drop Silence engulfed them and both cursed themselves for getting carried away but none of them regretted for sure

Sid : (cursing) Fuck' !!!!!! I'm sorry....I shouldn't have......we shouldn't have....(looking away)

This hurt Sana beyond extent.

He regrets it??? She thought

Sid ran his fingers over his hair cursing himself for losing control.

They both stood awkward but Sana broke the ice but only to be cut by Sid

Sana : Sidh......

Sid : Leave Shehnaaz !!!!!!

He replied curtly unaware that he was hurting her.

Sana : Listen Sidharth it's not just.....

(He again interrupted her in between screaming)

Sid : DAMN IT SHEHNAAZ !!!!!!!! Which Part of Leave do you not understand?

He yelled too loud making her flinch. She was trying hard to fight her tears back

Sid immediately regretted, he wasn't in a right frame of mind to think straight. Hence he wanted her to go away so that he doesn't hurt her

Mustering up her strength she wiped her tear & responded equally stern

Sana : (stern) Sidharth Mathur we can go on with this conversation as long as you want. But my decision stands firm. I am not leaving until you talk to me

Sidharth was losing his patience now. She was making it difficult for him. He immediately clenched his fist to calm himself down

Sana's eyes softened a little because she knew he was suffering inside so much. He was in an extremely vulnerable state right now

Sana : (soft) I've hurt you enough in the past Sidharth. I regret it, and a mere sorry is not going to be enough.
Please let me make things right Sidharth. Let me mend it. I understand what you're going through. Main samajti woh feeling jab koi.............

Sidharth pulled her with an extreme force grabbing her arms tightly. His eyes were burning fire

Sid (raging) : You wanna make this right HMMMM?? HOW????COME ON.... Tell Me ???
What do you know ???

Sana was scared by his anger yet she didn't lose her composure

Sana : Sidharth you're hurting me !!!!

Sana whimpered in pain but Sid didn't budge

Sid : Samajti ho tum...HUH?????
KYA PATA HAIN MERE BAARE MEIN TUMHE?
KYA PATA HAIN MERI ZINDAGI K BAARE MEIN.... BOLO???
KYA KYA HUA HAIN MERE SAATH???
TELL ME?????
SAMAJTI HO NA TUM?? TOH SAMJHAO MUJHE......
Janti ho kaisa lagta jab baar baar sab log kehte hain ki woh samajte hain....Par koi kuch nahi samajta !!!!!

(He yelled like an Angry Lion gazing coldly into her eyes)

Shehnaaz just stood their unable to react. She let him release his angst & Pain

Sidharth laughed sarcastically at her while his expressions changed into painful one again

Sid : Nahi samajti tu tum !!!!!!!
Koi nahin samajta. Bas jhooti humdardi dikhate hain

Shehnaaz looked into his brimming eyes unknowingly tears formed in her eyes too. Though his tight grip was hurting her yet it felt nothing compared to the pain she was feeling seeing him in that state

Sidharth noticed her expression he knew he was hurting her !!!!!

Sid : (broken expression) See...this is all I'm capable of..... Hurting people and destroying them.
(He took a long pause)

I'm ill-fated .......A Bad Omen
My Sister lost her life because of Me
My Mother Died because of Me !!!!!!!
My Best friend....she died because of Me....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY ALL GOT KILLED !!!!!!!!!
MY ILL FATE KILLED THEM !!!!!!!!!!
And the only person who I thought was my family..... also left me to die & rot in Hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sidharth yelped while his body shivered. He was sobbing weeping & crying like a child

Shehnaaz's eyes were wide opened. She was absolutely numb after his revelations. She didn't know what to say or how to react to all this.
Here she thought that only her life was full of miseries but what Sidharth had been through was incomparable & unimaginable. Her insides shook knowing the intensity of his Pain

Sid : (helpless) See !!!! Now I'm causing you pain too. I'm hurting you.. hain na???

Yehi karna aata hain mujhe. Yehi kar sakta hu main. AUR.......Isse pehle tumhe bhi barbaad kardu. Jao yaha se Shehnaaz.....Mujhse bohot dur !!!! JUST GO AWAY.

He yelped defeated with an agonized look on his face

Sana felt herself falling for him more & more. She decided to not hold back her feelings anymore. She won't let her inhibitions come in the way of her happiness now

Sana : (emotional) What if I say I don't want to go away?
What if I tell you despite of knowing your past I still want to be with you more than ever?
(Pause)

What if I say you've become too important for me Sidharth that I fear losing you?
Please don't push me away !!!!!

Shehnaaz stood by his side trying to hold him but he backed off. Regaining his composure he wiped his tears and smiled at her with a heavy heart

Sidharth: Do you really mean it ??

Sana: Off course I do Sidharth!! Try Me, if you will !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(She spoke confident & determined)

Sid : Fine!!!! Promise me you would do whatever I say ??

He observed her & her face immediately lit up thinking that Sid was giving her a chance

Sana : Whatever you say....I promise

Sid : Think Again !!!!!

Sana : I don't need to !!!!!!!

Sid : (dangerously cold) Let Me Leave !!!!!!!! I want you to stay away from me
If you've ever considered me important then you will not stop me.

I don't want you Shehnaaz. I don't need you. You want to make things right but your presence in my life will only make things worst. It will only feel suffocate me. If you wish to see me happy then either of one has to go away. I've had enough already. Now no more !!!! Tell me do you promise ???

Sidharth spoke each word without any traces of emotions looking straight in her eye while Shehnaaz felt as if someone pierced daggers deep inside her heart.

She stepped back wiping her tears she let out a painful chuckle

Sana : (smiling) Aaj tak tumne sirf diya hain Sidharth.. par pehli baar kuch maanga hain, toh main kaise mana karsakti hu........
whatever you wish Sidharth!!!
Whatever you wish !!!!!! Don't worry I or my presence will never suffocate you anymore !!!!!

Sidharth just wanted to run away & scream his lungs out but smiled nonetheless & forwarded his hand for a handshake

Sid : (heavy heart) This is it then !!!!!
It was pleasure knowing you Miss Gill !!!!!!

Shehnaaz felt like her world was falling apart yet she gave in to his promise. If staying away from her is what he wishes then she will grant it. His happiness was her priority even if that meant taking away her own happiness

She shook hands with him while both looked intently at each other holding back their tears. How they wished to stay close to eachother but their fate could never get enough of testing them

Sana : (glistening eyes) It was nice meeting you Sidharth Mathur. Thank you for everything. And I wish you you the best.

As their grip loosened their heart started thumping abnormally faster against their chest. Neither of them imagined the separation was going to be unbearably painful

Sid : Goodbye Miss Gill !!!!!!

Unable to hold himself back as he knew this might their last moment together that will never last longer. He inched closer with all the love in his eyes he pressed his lips on her forehead

Shehnaaz immediately closed her eyes relishing their last moment together. A lone tear escaped her eyes.

It was impossible for Shehnaaz to stand their any longer as she was on the verge of breaking down. She pulled her hand quickly & ran away without looking back. while Sidharth stood their letting his tears flow uncontrollably looking at her retreating figure.

Sid : (hurting & sobbing) I'm sorry Shehnaaz !!! I'm sorry for hurting you.
I lost everyone I loved the most. But I can't lose you. I can't !!!!

I Love You Shehnaaz !!!!!!!!!
I Love You !!!!!!

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