I woke up in fluffy soft mattress and the softest blanket I have ever used, and after snuggling further into the blankets I registered that this is not my bed. Bolting up I looked around the room wide-eyed to see that it was the Master room at the cottage.

I don't remember walking upstairs, so that would mean that Ted had carried me up.

I plunk back down on the bed and scream into the pillows. stay that way for some time before taking a deep breath and braving the day.

Getting out of the bed I notice that there are fresh clothes, my fresh clothes, and new toiletries all laid down neatly on the console table in the corner of the room. shaking my head and taking all that was provided so conveniently by the host I went ahead to the loo.

After freshening up I sat on the bed cross-legged for ten minutes, deciding on what would be better sneaking out the house like a thief or going down and talking to Ted like an adult. I almost decided on the first option before remembering the protective wards around the house which would surely alert Ted. So being an adult it was.

Going down to the main hall I could smell the breakfast of rather the late brunch made by Teddy. Every step down the stairs increased my heartbeat.

Finally reaching the last step I peeked in the main hall, and I could hear the paper being read in the kitchen area. Walking further downright, I came upon the kitchen and the island in the kitchen which was filled with food, well food I like to be specific and a certain half-werewolf was also seated, with what I am sure was black coffee in one hand and The Prophet in the other.

I swallowed and took a step forward into the kitchen. Ted looked at me from behind the Paper and kept it down.

"Morning," he said with a very Teddy smile on his face and I internally let out a sigh of relief.

"Morning," I said with a smile of my own. Coming up to the Island I saw the array of dishes, and immediately went to the chocolate chip waffles and honey. Ted floated over a kettle of tea and a cup. and kettle poured my favourite Tea with lemon and ginger in it.

"So, I came back home and found you sleeping on the lounge chair, I think I told you not to wait up," Ted said looking at me expectedly

" Yes well, ted, when have you known me to follow what you said," I asked without missing a beat.

Ted gave the infamous Lupin look, as Harry called it, I poked my tongue at him in reply.

Shaking his head and smiling a little at my, very mature, antics he went back to his black as the night coffee. I also went back to eating.

After we were both done and the dishes were washing themselves in the basin, Ted and I moved to the main hall again, with another cuppa in our hands.

"I was a very clever thing to do yesterday, you know, stopping the panic attack like that, but next time just gives me heads up," Ted said casually as if he had not just started the talk of the century.

"If I gave you a heads up for the kiss, your mind would not be focusing on it, the whole thing worked because there was an element of surprise to the kiss," I said as if it was the stupidest thing to say because it was the kiss would not work if I had told him.

Ted looked up from his cuppa and looked at me, right at me. Oh boy, his eyes were grey again.

"And well you know, I did try the whole deep breathing and counting with every breath thing but it was not working, Skin to skin contact was not working, and then I remembered showing you the episode with styles and Lydia kissing for the first time," I started off my rambling. I told you I ramble when I am nervous.

"and it worked for them, and sure I gave up my first kiss but that's all fine you were dying and I " I was going to continue to rant but Ted splurting out his tea stopped me.

"It was your first kiss?" he asked incredulously.

I nodded in reply not believing myself for saying that out loud to him. Just, I need a filter for my words.

Ted looked at me I looked at him, with like a mini staring contest going on. Before he swore some very colourful words which left even me gasping, at him.

He got up from his seat on the sofa and came towards me, held his hand out to me, when I just stared at his hand and then him like an idiot, like seriously who put me in Ravenclaw, he took the cup out of my hand placed it on the side coffee table and held my hands to make me stand.

I looked at him eyebrows furrowed what was he trying to do. I was about to ask that question when he brought his hand up to to my cheek but before I could even form the words in my mind, my mind and heart stopped working.

Why, you ask?

Teddy had his lips on mine that's why.

I was being kissed by Edward Remus Lupin for a second time in 48 hours.

His lips worked mine, coaxing a kiss out of them which were frozen initially but then gave in on their own according. My heart had stopped and then started beating again at full speed. My mind was blank.

My hands some hand found his neck on there on without me registering just as his other hand had found his way onto my waist.

The mellow kiss was starting to heat up now especially when his tongue entered my mouth. Let me tell Edward Remus Lupin Tastes divine, like bitter coffee but sweet like honey.

It was electrifying really every never ending of my body was electrified and every atom was on high alert. Yet at the same time, all I could feel was Edward. His smell, his hands, his touch. He was the electric current really. He was in my very being.

I have never felt what i felt then, it felt as if there was a gape in my soul before this, a gape which made me restless, made me feel like an outsider, a bystander to the world pacing by me. But when he kissed me like this, like he needed me more than he needed oxygen, it was then that I felt complete, like the whole fucking cosmoic universes was waiting for this moment.

Like this is what the stars had been falling for from the sky, to fulfil this very moment, this very kiss.

Several times before I have felt tiny fractions of this wholeness, but it was nothing compared to the feeling of this. It was like my soul was alive and living, life suddenly every colour in the world made sense, and every music piece ever made was true.

I never wanted this feeling to end.

I moved my hands onto the nape of his neck and pulled on the hair slightly scratching the soft scalp there with my nails. This had him pulling me closer to him if that was even possible.

The kiss went on for how long I have no idea because to me it felt like an eternity, like and infinity loop, never ending. This was a kiss! not what I did yesterday.

He pulled away first and kept his forehead on mine. I was on my tiptoes, only ted's hold on my was holding upright. We were both breathing heavily, indicating just how heavy the kiss had been.

I had kept my eyes closed lest this moment be a dream.

"That was the first kiss you deserve," Ted said his voice sounded breathless and husky. He took his forehead away from me and moved his head slightly as to look at me, and he did look, for a few silent minutes we stood just like that, and could feel him looking at me, drinking me in.

I did not have it in me to look at him though. I did not want this moment to break.

" But do me a favour Elle, never let any other person, kiss you like that to witness this look on your face, let this look be mine, just this look of wonder,let this wonder be mine and only mine" Ted said in a whisper, brushing my cheek, with his fingers.

He moved away though, his hand left my waist, leaving me alone. I opened my eyes to look at him,and what I saw left me breathless for totally different reasons. He had a look in his onyx grey eyes. A look that i never thought would be directed at me.

He had the look James had when had when Lily looked his way in a picture, dad had taken of them.

He was looking at me like my Father looked at my mum, in the photos, when she was looking at the camera, before they even got together. It was a polaroid that mum had taken, to celebrate dad making it alive in azkaban for so long.

He had a look on his face which his father had while watching his mother in one of the few candids from after the order meetings. Dora was talking with Charlie in the moving picture while Remus looked at Dora's changing hair color. Taken by my dad.

All these pictures were left with my dad and all of them had been left for me by him, with my mum just incase. They all had a note with them.

"If you ever want to know when a man fell in love with you, the exact moment he fell in love, then these should help"

Edward and I just stood staring at each other, living a thousand lifetimes in that moment.I barely registered the front door opening and people entering. I barely registered Ginny calling out to Edward. I just kept looking at him, and thinking about Dad's words.

The Potters entered the Main hall and the spell woven between us was broken, so was our eyes stare, but Nothing would change the moment. Nothing could easare from my memory that look on Edwards face.

They all shouted "Merry Christman".