Agony

How's it that I long for things

That I try to break away from

Why does sorrow engulf regret

Like a thunder on a stormy night.

Life now makes me wonder

If guilt, remorse, grief and despair

Is all that exists for my pleasure

Do I take these away from air?

All those pages that I read

And those which I scribbled in

Deep inside they fall apart

Tearing up through bare skin.

This agony must soon pass

The old convincing lie!

It never passed; to the wry

You either adjust or succumb.

But, watch the kids, they smile

Not having learnt to see the dark

Need to be the same for a while

Incapable, makes me grieve again.

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