This dinner was going amazing. Jokes were going around , just the fact that my momma and Mya were getting closer and growing a bond had me jumping on the inside. By now we were done with our food but we were so into the conversation nobody got up to put away their plate.

"Girl when August was small he never liked pampers , this boy would rip em right off and run around the house butt naked" i groaned as Mya began laughing . My momma was goin back in time with Mya. Ofcourse she couldn't show her pictures so she decided to talk about it instead.

"He would run with his package flying all over yellin i'm freee" Hell i'm being embarrassed. "You was a hot boy back then tooo august" Mya said laughin " Man hush" i gave her the hand to talk to.

"Ooooh" my momma squealed"He used to love it when we spank his little bottom, he use to giggle and laugh and cover his bottom" That had Mya bent over laughing tears in her eyes and all.

"That was violation" i mumbled. My momma looked at me funny " You know how it feel to have your bottom being hit and it jiggles" Everybody was dead laughin i was tryin to be serious but because everyone was laughing it made it harder for me. 

"Ya'll stripped me of my dignity" My voice cracked. I got up takin our plates , because if i didn't do it nobody will. I put the plates in the sink ready to wash them when my momma came in the kitchen.

"Nah baby is okay i got this go hang out with ya girl" She smiled at me and rubbed my back. I smiled back at ha . As i was about to turn and go to mya my momma called me back "Ya momma" 

"Take care of her , she a  good one don't do no stupidness aight i like her " I smiled  and nodded at my momma befo goin back to Mya. I pulled her "C'mon lets go outside" 

Now my back yard aint all that but it's something. I made sure this place had grass growin properly cause i like to come outside and just chill.

We lied down on the grass next to each other. "So you never like pampers huh " how i know she was goin start with this . See what my momma do now. 

"Man hush , them things was restraining my balls from being free " i mugged her as she laughed. "I like when air can pass through"

"When i was a kid i used to put alot of powder in my panty so that when i pull it far back and let go  it looks like smoke comin out of it"

 I started laughing at her " Ion care if you laugh , hell i was popular" she flipped her hair like she is boss. 

"My momma would've whoop my behind" i knew she would my momma don't play. 

"Bruh when i was six i had to go new york to see my family , i was in the shower and i saw the razor and i was like what the hell does this do ? so i grab and i use it as a mic and i'm singing 'true love from romeo and i remembered seein my sister usin it to shave so i was like alright let me pretend to look sexy while pretendin shave my eyebrow, in one flat second my whole eyebrow was gone" I busted out laughing.

"How you walk around with one whole eyebrow ?! "Her story had me dying. My belly was hurtin like hell.

"I cried i swear i did, cause i knew once my momma came home she was gone whoop me, i ran out and i bawled for my sister , she was like 'what the hell did you do ?' while my brother just sat there and laugh like a fool , i could tell my sister wanted to laugh too but she held it in, she picked up my momma eye liner and she tried makin it look real but tha never worked" 

"She used a eye liner ?" she nodded while i continued laughing. "Oh god, i didn't even know you had a brother and sister" i tried coolin down. She nodded " Yea my brother went away to college just like my sister"

"What you wanna be when you grow up ?" i asked her. 

"Boyy i really wanna do music, i could express myself you know ? and better yet spread the good news, give people hope and stuff, i don't like  seeing people doin suicidal things or sayin they wanna give up, it drives me crazy and it makes me wanna help them ,make them stronger than they make themselves out to be" Damn . Momma was right she a good one. I respect what she sayin though. I don't like hearin people talk about suicidal either especially if you love them.

"You really love God huh ?"

"Yaaass booo God hold it down for real for real" I chuckled at her tryna be ratchet. I wish i could love God like her . But God done put a nigga through enough. If God oh so love me he wouldn't put me in such a place as this. 

I lost my brother. We behind on rent. My momma aint gettin paid enough. Plus if we go church people finna judge us when they suppose to be all lovin and all that.

"What God do for you that you love him so much ?" i really wanted to know a nigga was curious. 

"Oooh testimony time" she clapped and sat up straight. "Well when i was a kid like every other child we had to go church even though half of us don't pay attention" i chuckled at that , that was me very sunday, all these old women use to come up pinchin my damn cheeks bout oh how i soo handsome.

"Well yea i grew up goin every sunday learning absolutely nothing, it's only when stuff got real, i had no other choice but to believe in him" she looked down. She got all sad and stuff. Now i feel bad for asking.

"My momma and my daddy started fightin alot more than the usual, it was because my momma was doin drugs, One night i heard them and i snuck out because i wanted to see what was goin on, i was peekin from behind the wall and i heard them yellin and throwin things , just then my momma threw a vase at my dad he successfully dodged it , just before my eyes the glass hit me in my face and i was out like a light" I could see a tear drop roll out her eye.

Well damn her situation is kind of - scratch that it way past my current situation. I mean we all have different struggles and we all take them and handle them differently. I just could'nt stop starin at this beautiful girl in front of me.

"Mya its okay i don't nee-" i was cut short. 

"I woke up in the hospital, my head hurt like hell, i had scratches all over my face atleast that's what they told me , everything was dark when i opened my eyes, i blink one to many times before i started crying , doctor said glass got in my eyes and it messed up my vision. i felt horrible i felt like god didn't love me like it was all over. I felt like killin myself , i didn't like the thought of killin myself even though it felt like i should ,i felt worthless , i felt empty , My momma and her endless apologies and my father who tried consoling me as much as he could." 

"After a while my father left. He would come around every weekend and call me we'd talk for hours but then as the years go by he stopped everything , no more calls no more comin over no more nothing, i fell into depression , therapist and stuff were great but it never healed me fully. My family was very supportive. They said give yourself unto him and he will take up all your burdens he would take away your problems he will teach me be stronger, they taught me about how much God loves me" 

"Like he died for me and he didn't even see my face, when i was in the hospital i could've died but i'm alive i survived by the grace of God, God gave me supportive people to hold me up and give me strength, let me tell you when we feel like God aint there it's because he's working, God uses people to help you , he works through people. When i gave myself to him i felt light , like i wasn't carrying any burden i wasn't heavy with tears and allat i was happy i felt renewed, i felt his love and that was an indescribable feeling"

"After that i didnt need my daddy to come back and say baby i love you , i didnt need people to like me i didnt need absolutely nothing but him, ofcourse i want to have a boy friend a best friend but in all reality we dont always need them , we just need God."

"Right now my dad is back so this is a whole new test for me, people always say why do good people suffer the most, but those people come out being the strongest people , half of those people are out there livin in big houses and savin lives with their testimonies about what God has done for them, mine is on its way and so is yours."

"Damn Mya i am literally speechless" I was . I thought she was goin give some small thing like you know her ankle was broken and now its fixed or somethin. Her testimony was mind blowin. Have me thinkin twice about everything.

She laughed. "I am a soldier" she mugged me tryna look like a thug. "You a hella beautiful soldier, you know what i wanna thank God for ?" i took her hand in mines and brought it to my face. "What ?"

I kissed the inside of her palm, "For puttin such a beautiful young lady in my life" The way her was , she was lookin at me in pure love but i was lookin at her in admiration and adoration. She leaned in and hugged me.

"Aight ma let's go turn up" i pulled her up with me "Huh where we goin ?"

"Don't worry bout that " i didnt wanna tell cause i know she was goin say no. "Mama we gone" i yelled until i heard respond and we dipped. "August where we goin ?"

"Dont worry i gotchuuuu"

*******

I pulled up at the house and you can hear the music banging in my ears and we aint even inside yet." No No No!! I told you i wasnt gonna go!"

"Mya i told you i gotchuu" i shrugged "Noooo! i aint gettin out of this car" she huffed. "Oh really ?" i narrowed my eyes at her. "Alright then " i parked the car and got out. I stood there for about thirthy seconds before she started callin my name " I can't believe this fool left me ?! so much for sayin i gotchuu" i chuckled as she complained in the car. I opened her door " You ready na ?" she pouted "Why you leave me ?" she say in her baby voice which i found hella adorable.

"I neva left baby i was always right here" i caressed her chin. "Nigga if i get lost imma beat you up" she mugged me. "C'mon" i grabbed her hand and pulled her in , i could see her covering her nose. The place was ram pack, half the people here was already drunk.

I pulled her close to the dance floor , i could see Rebecca , who was dancin drunkenly over there losin herself. 

The dj stopped the music. "Why you stop the music ?" rebecca yelled . "Is that rebecca ?" mya whispered. "uhuh" 

"The roof-"

"What's wrong with it ?"

"The roof the roof is on fire "

"Whaaatt ?!" rebecca was frantic, her eyes was wide and she was goin crazy, i had to chuckle because this was funny.

"We don't need no water let that mother****** burn" Rebecca came running full speed " You people are crazy- August we're gonna die , the roof is on fire "Rebecca was in tears as she ran off "Tell my momma i love her" she yelled from afar.

"This is why i dont go to parties" Mya said hiding behind me.

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