I don't care about being normal, getting approval or fitting in with the crowd. I do my own thing and follow my own path. Some people like me, some don't and I am okay with that.

Recap: Abhiram proposing Meenakshi.

After that night Abhiram and Meenakshi again became friends forgetting all the problems that was existing between them. She was so happy that she got her superman friend back. Many nights they spent time together at the river sides, bridge, park, road etc as earlier as they are. He was enjoying all so as she. He didn't ask for anything from her making sure that he is giving the much required time and space for her to think well. On the other side he was the same Ram who used to support all her actions. He was making her assure that in case she don't want to live with him, she won't miss her best friend. That was a big relief for Meenakshi. He didn't say her anything regarding her diary too. She was wondering how much nice a person can be through Ram. A week passed with Meenakshi and Ram sharing the same equation that was between them earlier. And both were happy in each other's company. Love or anything didn't affect their friendship eventhough it's still in their mind. She was thinking well about that while he was giving her time to realize what she wants.

Meenakshi's PoV

Am I mad? That is the question that I heard most in my life. From unlimited number of people. Uncountable times. I always laugh hearing it. Because what others think about me is least concern for me. What I think about myself is the only priority for me. Because I don't want to disappoint when I look back to my life after many years, may be when I am old. That time I want to cherish all memories that I lived as Meenakshi. Yes I lived. I was living my life. That's why I always laugh when people ask me whether I am mad. I am living the life what most girls in this world can only dream. And I am neither guilty nor regretting. Never ever. And of course I don't have any intention to change or live the life that others designing for me. Or may be the world designed for every girl born here. I didn't want to be an ordinary one since I know I am little bit more.

Meenalakshmi had a lot of dreams and thoughts about life. But she was incapable of doing anything. Her wings were cut and she was confined to a single room because people around her were afraid of her. They knew that if she starts flying, it will be their end. 10 years of loneliness couldn't kill the fighter in her. Because she was not alone. Her father and mother were with her as her invisible strength. They gave her the power to fight, courage to survive and above all the belief in herself.

Meenakshi have everything that Meenalakshmi wanted to have. The journey from Meenalakshmi to Meenakshi was not easy. 10 years of patience, courage, self belief, and above all survival. But Meenakshi is happy because she is not caged and free.

Yes Meenakshi; I living the life my past have forbidden from me. I love me. My Dadu and Malu is my world. Both of them knows that we are not family by blood relationship. But we didn't feel that even for once. The truth is our past was not an issue for us and we didn't even talk about it anytime. Till our last breathe we will be like this. I was happily living with them when suddenly a new person entered into my life; Ram.

That night I didn't know why I saved him. When he was walking into the sea, someone from inside insisted me to go and stop him from death. May be the sleeping Meenalakshmi inside me did that. Or may be my parents' soul. When he fighted with me to get rid of me so that he can try to commit suicide once again, I wanted to shout at him and also wanted to slap him for his stupidity. When he argued more and more, I even had the thought of dipping him into the sea until he agrees to live. I felt pity for him for not realizing the value of our precious life that god has given us. The fact that he is not able to fight and find the happiness that inspires him to live eventhough he is a man made me sympathize with him. As a woman what I survived made me angry seeing him giving up so easily. I didn't explain him anything since I knew he needs some time to understand everything. I was sure that I can change him if he agrees to give me a chance. So I brought him to my home using so many tricks. He met Dadu and Malu but was angry at me. When he again wanted to leave, I pushed him inside the room and locked. That was the only way remained for me to stop him from death. I didnt want him to die. Instead I wanted him to live from the first moment when I saw him.

I motivated him using all my ways except telling him my past. He told his story to us. I felt to push him into the sea that time. Seriously? Dying for a girl? But when I understood his true love for Rohini, I realized that he is a true gentle man. He promised us that he won't try to die again and I saw honesty in his eyes. So we agreed him to go. When he left after dropping me at my office, I was sure that he will definitely come back to me. Dont know why. I felt like that and it was exactly what happened. I had a feeling that he is not someone meant to be go away from me.

Next few months, the most beautiful days of my life. We started living in same house and it was like we got another member to our family. He became an unavoidable part of our family and me. I used to irritate him because I felt like I owns him. We fighted a lot these days. But slowly we started adjusting with each other and became best friends.

A male company made me more strong and I was enjoying it since he was always a protective shield for me. I troubled and made him embarrass a lot. And the beauty of that is he was shying around me like a cute girl. I was enjoying that. He was slowly changing my perceptions about a man. Earlier I had a thought that all men will have a certain sort of ego that prevents them from completely understanding opposite gender and their visions. That is the main barrier in all relationships according to my view. I believed that no man can completely realize the feelings of a girl like the way she thinks. But he was different. He supported me each and every time. Poor man,there is no count how many times I troubled him. He initially used to get annoyed for my actions. But then he started enjoying it and became my partner in all my craziness. Sometimes he got angry at me. But it was because he wanted me to be safe always. Instead of forcing me to change myself and be normal, he asked me to take care of myself along with being the same Meenakshi. And that was the best about Ram. He didn't even advice me for a single time. May be he is the only one who didn't do that with me. He liked the way I am. Most importantly he didn't judge me for my actions. Most of the people who I met in my life had a thought that I am a bad girl only because I am just crazy. I can't blame them because they don't know the real me. Only people close to us can measure the values in us and Ram was one among them who showed the patience to understand the real Meenakshi.

But I realized his real importance in my life only on that day when he fought with my supervisor for me. He made me surprise that day. I used to fight with men earlier for the same reason. But no one came to support me since I am crazy. Everyone found the fault in me each time I complains. I was fed up with that. But Ram was different. He was ready to do anything for me. When Malu was hospitalized, I became completely weak. That time he was the supporting pillar for Dadu and me. He used to crack jokes to make us laugh, tried to do some crazy actions so that I will be back to my normal self. Above all he gave me confidence that Malu will be alright. I still remember how supportive he was that time. He was the one who donated blood too for Malu during the surgery time. Only because of his company Malu came back to normal life much earlier than we expected.

Eventhough I am crazy I was well aware that I am also a girl. But no one could actually understand it and most of them treated me like I am some alien. And then Ram found out the girlish side of me. Only he could. I don't know when he starts falling for me but I was completely unaware about it. Someone falling for this crazy girl is the last thing I can imagine in my life. I treated him as best friend while he was always making me special with his actions and concern for me. When he messed up my marriage proposal, I laughed a lot again and again thinking about it. But like Dadu I was also scared at a point that whether someone will accept me. If not, what about my 20 kids?? Little did I know that here is this man who already decided to make me his.

When my Burger Boss asked me about my feelings towards Ram, I was confused. I didn't want to mess up my good friendship with Ram by mixing love in it. But later burger boss gave me a suggestion that if I can marry my best friend, life will be smooth especially when he is supportive for all my weird behavior. I wanted to smack his head that time. But the truth is I also wanted someone like Ram as my husband or according to my view my crazy partner.

Things went out of my hands when I decided to play a prank on Ram. I was just joking when I asked him to marry me. I didn't think that he would take it serious. How can I guess when I am not aware about his love? He reacted bad and I became sad. I felt guilty for hurting his feelings. He started ignoring me cruelly and started showing his anger on me in various ways. I got irritated sometimes and shouted at him whenever I got a chance. But that made matters worse. He even said to not expect him to support me anymore. I felt so lost hearing it from him whom I admired a lot for his broad minded nature.

I thought I lost my friend Ram. And then he again came with his lovely words. That night was so special. When he angrily said that he will kill me if I change, I was so shocked and surprised. He confessed why he loved me. I don't know why he changed suddenly but I was liking it when he asked me whether he can be the father of my 20 kids. When he said that my craziness and different personality was the only reason why he falls for me, my heart fluttered for the first time in my life. I stood like a statue couldn't processing his words. It was a dream proposal for any girl. I felt a weight moving from my heart when he assured me that he will be always with me as a best friend despite of whatever my decision would be. May be that was the moment I really fall for him.

I was missing him badly for the past many days, so I wanted to hug him. But my body was not moving. From these days I understood that he became an important part of my life such that it's difficult to live without him. So I knew that its time to give him a post in my life so that I won't miss him anymore. And his words made me realize that I am so special for him. Last week he didn't talk about anything that confuses or disturb me. He was the same Ram who used to enjoy my company and loves to spent time with me. The way he is making me assure that whatever he said that night were honest and true from his heart made me fall for him more and more.

Adding to all these, one day Dadu mentioned me that he is thinking about getting Ram married so that he will get a company that he really needs in his life now to escape from all the tragedies of his life. I was shocked and suddenly I felt an urge to argue with Dadu and I did exactly what I didn't want. I argued him with many points that no girl can adjust with such a sensitive Ram and I even said Ram wants someone who can make him happy like me. That stupid old man didn't get what I wanted to convey. But it was a realization time for me. I was slowly understanding that I am jealous and I won't hesitate to play a prank on that girl who wants to be with my Ram that may even cost her life; if it's not me.

Eventhough it's a time taking process I am now well aware about my feelings for him. I love him. I love Ram. May be I am late or may be I am too early, but I finally decided to confess my love for him. I don't want to make him wait anymore and I can imagine his surprised brightened face when I say this to him.

But the problem is can I be a good wife or lover for him? I am little different from all other girls and how long he can tolerate me. What if he gets fed up of me after started living with me? That will break my heart. What if I can't be like Rohini who loved him so much that her death even made him take such a drastic step in his life. I am well aware about what I am and what people around me feels about me. Eventhough Ram didn't show anything to me, I am scared especially after deciding to share my life with him. I don't want to be a bad wife for such a good man.

Yes, I should speak to him about all my worries and ofcourse about our life together. No one can understand me like the way he does. I need to know whether my craziness becomes a disturbance for him one day. I can't even imagine that. Above all, I have something very important to inform him. About my past. He needs to know that before taking the final decision. Hope everything goes well.
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Precap: Ram out of Meenakshi's house.

So here is the first chapter from Meenakshi's Point of View.
Do let me know about your suggestions and opinions regarding this chapter if you are willing to do.