The worst feeling to ever experience is a feeling of total confusion.

One point in my life I'm totally happy and then the next a sadness beyond my control suddenly takes root inside of me and begins to fester. Now, no matter how hard I try to be the person that I was; a fun, happy, joyous person... I can't.

I just walk around with a fake smile on my face and a laughter that doesn't quite come from within. And every time my friends ask if I'm okay, my response is always the same.

However, the turmoil is so great inside me that I'm left defeated and just to wake up in the morning demands great explanation, great convincing. Will there ever come a point in my life where happiness can ever find me? Can I go back to that point in my life where I can rediscover peace of mind or am I stuck in isolation? Forever lost to the darkness that is my world.