I sit in a place that in my mind I want to be but in my heart I crave to be free of. I look around me to the friends I have and some of those I actually consider to be a part of my family and still I feel as though I don't fit in.

I feel alienated and at a loss.

I look again at my surroundings and I see everyone having love. They either love someone or have someone loving them back. I try not to let it bother me but every time I try, I fail.

I try again not to let depression sink in but it just keeps getting closer like a cloud of fog ready to encompass me and I fight like hell to be free, be normal like everyone else and not to let myself become affected by the things in my life that I should not let affect me.

Things that I cannot change.

Things that I have no control over.