Sometimes it's better to confess to someone. To go up to someone and say, "Damn, I really like you" and wait for their response. But that's not always the answer.

Sometimes confessing is the breakdown; the destruction of the relationship by itself. Someone saying "This won't work between us" and walking away. But that's not always a bad thing.

Sometimes it's better to love someone with a space between you, hoping for better from afar. Saying "I love you" but only from a distance.

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There he is, sitting at the front of the class, buried in a book as usual. A soft smile plays on his lips as he turns the page, completely immersed in the story. I take a deep breath and walk past him to my seat. Personally, I felt that I had the best view in the class.

Looking to my right, I was able to see his side profile, and I was able to sneak glances at him without anyone noticing. We were physically close enough for me to talk to him if I wanted, but I never did. It's been a few months since I've started to have a thing for him, but I doubt he even knows I sit next to him. Not as a personal thing. He just isn't the most social person. Sure, he's kind and thoughtful, but he doesn't make an effort to be friendly. It's just not who he is.

A boy burst through the door, calling out his name. "Seungmin!" He stops in front of him, a smile growing on his face.

I'd never seen this boy before. I didn't even know his name. Where was he from?

"You will not believe what happened, okay? There is this girl in my class who-" the boy looks around and bends down, stage whispering, "likes you." He pulls back and looks at Seungmin expectedly. Seungmin just looks at him before shrugging.

"Okayyy," he says, dragging the syllables out. "So what, Jinnie? I don't like her." He says this matter-of-factly, as he does most things. If there is one Seungmin is, it's bluntly honest. The boy, Jinnie, gives him an annoyed look.

"You don't even know which girl it is! How can you say you don't like her when-" Seungmin cuts him off.

"Yah, Jinnie, I don't like anyone, okay? I'm not into anybody and I don't want to be. There's not anyone who really draws my attention, I guess." Seungmin looks irritated, like they've had this conversation multiple times.

Jinnie looks around before making eye contact with me. I feel my face burn and I quickly look down, pretending I hadn't been staring. I hear the boy sigh.

"Okay, Minnie. But you're gonna want a partner eventually." I don't look up again, mostly to avoid making eye contact with Seungmin's friend. He walks away, leaving Seungmin alone. Sneaking a glance in his direction, I see him burying his head in his hands, back hunched. I want to hug him so badly, but I refrain from it

Seungmin stays in that position before sitting up. The bell rings right at that time and our teacher comes in, a bright smile in place. I turn my head and prepare to pretend to pay attention. Meanwhile, I'm really thinking if Seungmin meant what he said. Is there really not a single person who he wants? Guess it was dumb to have my hopes up, even if it was for a short time.