"I'm home," I announce, dropping my bag on the table. I hear Felix call from the living room, so I make my way to him. He's sitting on the couch, his phone in his hand. Looking up at me, he flashes a bright smile, putting his phone down and stretching his hands above his head.

"Hey," Felix calls out, standing to come hug me. "How was it?" 

Shrugging, I make my way to him and wrap my arms around him, soaking in his warmth.

"I don't know what to do," I whisper into his chest. I said it quietly enough that I doubted Felix heard it, and he didn't say anything that made me think he did.

Felix runs his hand over the top of my head, petting my hair softly. We stand like that until Felix's phone rings out into the silence. He pulls away from me, giving me an apologetic smile before taking the call.

"Hello?" He says, running a hand through his hair. His eyes widen when the person on the other line starts talking. "Excuse me, can you give me just a second?" Felix says into the phone. 

He gestures to me, letting me know that he's going to go out of the room to take the call. I nod and sit on the couch, trying to process what happened today.

"I'll wait, no matter how long it takes."

Seungmin's words echo in my head. His monologue loops over and over in my brain; I can't get his words off my thoughts. He seems so sincere, and no matter how loyal I try to stay to Felix, I can't help but be wavered by Seungmin. What if he really means it?

My thoughts are interrupted by Felix coming into the room again, tucking his phone into his pocket. He looks up and smiles at me, the tips of his ears red.

"Hey," I say, a little concerned. "Everything okay?" 

Felix nods, maybe a little too aggressively.

"Yeah, yeah. It's all good." He laughs a little, rubbing the back of his neck. My eyebrows furrow in confusion and I open my mouth to ask again when he cuts me off.

"I think I'm going to go for a walk," Felix says, already grabbing his jacket off one of the chairs. "I'll see you later, okay?" Before I can respond, he's already out the door.

That was weird, I think to myself. Sighing, I rub my hands over my face and close my eyes.

I had really wanted to talk it out with Felix. I wanted to get his input on the situation; I want to know his opinion on what Seungmin said. The way Felix just left was unusual because he's never blunt like that. What could be going on?

I decide to wait for him. He'll come back later, so I'll just ask him then. Scrolling through my phone, I can feel my eyes closing. A few moments of rest won't hurt.

I jerk awake, my eyes opening. I look behind me to see Felix smiling sheepishly. I must've been woken up by him coming back. 

I smile sleepily at him, getting up and wrapping my arms around him. He laughs a little, resting his chin on the top of my head.

"Hi, sunshine," he says. "Did you sleep well?" I nod and pull him closer, closing my eyes and inhaling. Felix smiles and drops a kiss onto the top of my forehead.

"Hey," he says suddenly. "What do you think about marriage?" I jerk up, my eyes widening. What did he just say? Felix looks alarmed by my reaction.

"I mean, yeah," he chuckles awkwardly, stepping back. "Like, would you maybe, want to?" Felix leaves the sentence hanging. "Not right now, of course, but maybe we should talk about it? For the future?" 

I stare at Felix, absolutely speechless. He rubs the back of his neck, looking so unsure of himself.

"I think we should be on the same page," he says, making eye contact with me. "I want to know what you want our future to be."

Our future? I blink at Felix, my mind spinning. When I think of my future, why is Seungmin there? Why isn't it Felix?

When I don't answer, Felix sighs deeply, looking disheartened.

"It's just, we've been together for two years now. I just want to know where you stand, and if you're ready to go there. I don't want to pressure you, but I want to get married. To you." I nod, still at a loss for words.

Felix stares at me, obviously upset. "Is it Seungmin?" he whispers, his eyes narrowing slightly. Looking away from him, I nod. Felix clenches his jaw and folds his arms across his chest. "Do you still love him?"

Do I still love him? Honestly? If I knew the answer, do you think I would be here?

I look up at Felix. His eyes are bright; I know he's trying his hardest to hold back tears. It makes my heart hurt that I can't love him the way he deserves. He deserves the entire world, and I wish I could give it to him, but I can't. Not when my heart still belongs to Seungmin. It's not fair to Felix.

"Felix." 

"Let's break up."