Many of you won't really relate or care. No one's gonna read this anyway-

I don't know why... I don't want to admit it, but I'm starting to miss my older sibs. This morning, we woke up at 4AM to bring them to the airport. Now that my 2 older sibs are gone, I'm left with my older brother. (Oldest Brother, Older Sister, Older brother, Me. That's how my family goes)
I'm afraid I'm not responsible enough. I don't know how to cook, I can't even make my bed, etc.
I don't like this feeling. When my oldest brother left, I didn't feel much pain. But now that both my older sibs are gone, I'm starting to wish I had the ability to feel numb.
It sucks.
Knowing that you'll never see them again until the next school break.
There are so many things that remind me of them.
I'm just being dramatic... I seek Attention... I'm KSP.... Kulang sa Pansin.
I would be lying if I said I didn't cry on the way home.
None of my classmates will understand
None of you will understand.
None of my friends will.
I guess this is normal since I'm the youngest, but I can't help but wish.
Wish that I spent more time with them
Wish I had learned how to be independent while they were here
Hahaha... I'm feeling slightly better...
I'll see them again on December. I hope I do.