The night of the dance had rolled around and Sawyer hadn't heard from Ashtray at all. She texted a few times but she didn't want to be annoying so she just left it alone.

More than anything she was embarrassed because a piece of her knew the idea of them being together was too good to be true.

Sawyer got ready at home but decided to go with Rue to Jules house after, since Leslie was going there anyways.

Sawyer sat on the couch beside her mother, partly listening to the small talk between Leslie and Jules father, John. She learned that he was a single dad and Jules mother left when she was young.

Sawyer was wearing a black glittery dress with gold jewelry, her hair half up half down with some curls hanging, and she had on flats that showed off her fresh pedicure.

Sawyers phone went off and it was Brianna.

Bri🎀

Heyyyy
are you still coming to the dance?

yeah i am
im just waiting for Jules and rue

Oh okayyy
Do you need a ride?
We're about to head out right now

sure thank you
im at Jules house

Okayyy
We're on the way
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     Rue and Jules walked down the stairs grabbing the attention of everyone. Sawyer widened her eyes at Rues new look.

"Are you guys drinking wine?" Jules asked as she looked mainly at her father.

"Barley." Leslie giggled, smirking. She then shifting her attention back to John.

"We were waiting for you to leave so we could get into the hard stuff." John chuckled, playfully easing his eyebrows at the girls.

Leslie and Sawyer quickly looked at Rue who chuckled, "it's cool. I'm not triggered or anything." She brought her wrist to her chest and opened her mouth pretending to cut her self.

"Oh my-" sawyer placed her hand on her forehead.

Jules placed her hand on her mouth and looking away from Rue.

"Okay let's take some pictures, come on" Leslie stood up as Rue and Jules sat on the stairs.

She took a couple of pictures of the two with her Polaroid camera as they did different poses.

Rue looked at her younger sister, "come on" she
Opened her arm and patted the spot next to her.

Sawyer got up from the couch and sat next to Rue, smiling with her eyes closed.

Leslie took some more photos.

"Aw you guys look so cute." Leslie cheesed at the girls.

Sawyer grabbed one of the photos after it developed. Rue stood behind her, peeping down at it.

Sawyer lifted her head up from the photo and looked at Rue.

"I love you." Rue muttered, smiling.

"I'm glad you're happy." Sawyer replied, referring to Rue and Jules.

Jules stood watching the interaction and smiled at Sawyers comment.

Sawyers phone went off and she quickly grabbed it hoping it was Ashtray but it was just Brianna letting her know they were there.

Sawyer quickly slipped the Polaroid photo in the back of her phone case. "Um mom, Cassie's driving me." Sawyer looked up from her phone and at her mother.

Leslie slightly frowned, "oh, okay. Enjoy tonight as best as you can, i love you."

Sawyer nodded, smiling at everyone one last time, and made her way to the door.

Sawyer put her phone in her mini hand bag that had her gum, lip gloss, wallet, and mascara. She then made her way to the car.

     Sawyer smiled with her mouth closed as she buckled herself in. Everyone figured something happened.

"Boys are dicks." Maddy broke the silence. She
was seated next to sawyer.

"Yeah let's enjoy tonight as a girls night." Brianna pitched in. she started drinking from the Gatorade bottle.

Sawyer just nodded her head in agreement. She was trying to keep a positive mindset, but all she could think about was why. Why wasn't he answering? Why did he do all that to ask her just for him not to go? Why couldn't he just be honest?

Sawyer was deep in her thoughts and Brianna shoved the Gatorade in her face, "Here."

"Thank you." Sawyer simply let out and began to drink the alcohol.

Maddy stood up and reached her body over the cent consul, turning up the radio, and sat back down.

Lexie looked back from the passengers seat and smiled at Sawyer.

Sawyer smiled back at her. She really liked Lexie. They weren't that close but she knew Lexie was a sweetheart.

Maddy handed the Gatorade bottle to Lexie.

"What is it?" Lexie asked.

"Gatorade and everclear." Maddy softly let out and leaned back into her seat.

Lexie shrugged and took a sip. She frowned bringing her hand to her mouth because of the foul sour taste.

      The girls all sat at a table keeping up small talk when Kat sat down. Sawyer glanced at Maddy who surprisingly didn't give much of a reaction.

"What if these are like the big moments in life.. like my mom always talks about how high school was like this big monumental part of her life. I cannot image being forty and looking back at this like wow." Cassie broke the silence.

"Yeah that's because most people peaked in high school." Maddy giggled.

"I definitely haven't peaked so." Kat sat back in her chair fidgeting with her fingers.

"I feel like im not even a person yet." Lexie looked at the girls.

"Yeah im definitely at like twenty five percent Preakness." Cassie agreed.

"I'm like ten percent i have a lot more growing to do." Sawyer added.

"I feel like im at a hundred." Jules happily stated and took a sip from the Gatorade bottle, "but i can definitely get to one fifty." She closed it and sat it on the table.

"Honestly I never thought I'd make it this far." Rue pitched causing sawyer to frown at her.

"What do you mean?" Cassie asked concerned.

"I don't know. I just always had, like, this overwhelming anxiety that something bad would happen."

"In all fairness, last summer there were, like, three weeks where I thought you were dead." Maddy honestly admitted.

"Okay but she's been sober for like three months." Jules defended rue. She felt maddy's attitude.

"Weren't you in rehab, like, six months ago?" Maddy furrowed her eye brows.

Kat and Lexie shared a look.

"Uh, yeah." Rue awkwardly chuckled at Maddy.

Cassie began to ramble about how nostalgic highschool is and Sawyer stood up from her seat.

"Excuse me. Ladies room." She glanced between all the girls and made her way to the restroom.

Honestly all the commentary was making her uncomfortable and just being at the dance she was uncomfortable.

Sawyer stood in front of the mirror with both hands on the counter. She tried her best to ignore all the sounds of people either fucking or vomiting. Her palms were getting sweaty and shaky. She took deep breaths trying to regulate her breathing patterns.

The door opened and Jules walked in. She stopped and looked at Sawyer, "You okay?"

Sawyer looked at Jules through the mirror, "Yeah."

Jules nodded and continued walking to a stall.

Sawyer was embarrassed and didn't want anyone to bother her about what was wrong.

Just as she was about to leave rue walked in.

Great.

The sisters exchanged small fake smiles before parting ways.

Sawyer walked back to the table and almost everyone was gone.

She grabbed the Gatorade bottle and finished it off before Harshly slamming it back on the table.

"Jeez someone's eager." Kat was taken back at Sawyers actions.

Sawyer looked down at Kat, with a smug look on her face shrugging. "Someone's eye fucking you." She pointed at Ethan.

Kat looked at him, she contemplated for a second before making her way towards him without saying another word.

Sawyer felt all the alcohol she consumed throughout the night hit her all at once.

Sawyer stood staring looking like she was in a trance, shaking her head every few seconds deep in thought.

"What are you thinking about?" Lexie asked sawyer curiously. She was also feeling all the alcohol.

Sawyer snapped her attention to Lexie, "that stupid b-bitch. I can't believe him." She spoke with anger laced in her tone. Lexie nodded her head understandably.

Just as Sawyer was about to sit down Troy came and grabbed Sawyers hand, dragging her to a sacluted area.

"Troy what the hell." Sawyer pulled herself out of his grip.

"You look really beautiful tonight. Let me get one dance." Troy looked down at sawyer who didn't respond, "Please."

"If I say yes will you leave me alone."

Troy nodded his head, "Ok. One dance that's it." She warned and started walking towards the dance floor, he trailed behind her.

The song that was playing was a slow song.

Troy placed his hands on Sawyers waist and she placed hers on his shoulders. "Stop looking at me like that." Sawyer gave Troy a dirty look.

"I really miss you."

"I bet you do Troy." Sawyer sarcastically laughed.

Sawyer was surprised that she wasn't feeling Troy anymore. The old her would've lived for a moment like this with Troy. But now? She really couldn't wait for it to be over.

Troy brought his face down closer to sawyers. Sawyer moved her face away but Troy connected his lips onto hers.

Sawyer didn't kiss back she tried to pull her face away but Troy had both of his hands on the back of her head.

After a few moments Troy finally stoped and pulled away.

Sawyer wiped her mouth and looked at Troy disgusted.

Before Troy could say anything sawyer was gone.

       Sawyer made her way outside to get fresh air, Just to see Rue and Nate talking. As she got closer she heard them better.

She stood on the side of the building so they couldn't see her but she was close enough to hear them.

"Cause I personally have no problem walking into any police station and telling them Nate Jacobs daddy, likes to fuck lil kids." Rue didn't take her eyes off Nate.

Sawyer widened her eyes, "What the fuck?" She quickly placed her hand on her mouth.

Nate and Rue both snapped their heads,
Looking at Sawyer.

Nate glanced between the sisters, "You guys look pretty tonight." His cold but calm demeanor scared sawyer. He glanced back down at Rue, "Are you sure that Jules told you everything?"

Instead of listening to whatever Nate was going to say Sawyer ran. She just ran. She had no idea where she was going.

She couldn't process what she just heard but she began putting pieces together in her head of what the hell Rue could've been talking about.

     Sawyer ran all the way to Fezcos complex, not caring about how long it took. The alcohol really made her feel invincible.

Sawyer took a deep breath before knocking on the door. She waited a few seconds. No response.

She took another deep breath before knocking again. This time she got carried away and didn't stop the knocking till the door finally swung open.

Ashtray looked down at Sawyer with a mad expression on his face.

"Whyd you ditch me." Sawyer asked, not picking up on the tension.

"You can't be over here right now."

Sawyer chuckled, shaking her head, "are you serious? Seriously what is wrong with you?"

"Are you fuckin drunk?" Ashtray rolled his eyes. He could smell the liquor in her breath, "Go fuckin home and do not come back here. Got it?"

Sawyer frowned, as her eyes slowly filled with tears. She didn't move a muscle, she just looked up into his eyes.

"This." Ashtray gestured his fingers between himself and Sawyer, "It- It's done." He gulped.

"A-Are you serious." Sawyer could barely even speak.

Ashtray didn't respond he just looked everywhere but Sawyer. It wasn't what he wanted. But he had to.

Sawyer waited for him to say something. Anything. But he didn't. And that was all the response she needed to know he was serious.

She just nodded her head silently. And with that he closed the door.

Now the tears started streaming down sawyers face. Not only was she hurt, mad, confused, but she felt defeated.

Sawyer turned herself around and began her walk home.

       It took sawyer around an hour to finally get home due to the pace she was walking at.

Sawyer opened the front door and quickly closed it behind her.

Leslie stood up from the couch, "Serioulsy? Not a call. A text. Nothing?"

Sawyer ignored her and started walking towards her bedroom.

"It's almost two in the morning and you're just coming home? Who brought you?" Leslie followed her.

Sawyer continued to ignore her and she shut her bedroom door.

Leslie opened it, looking down at Sawyer who was standing In front of her with a blank expression on her face.

"Where have you been? I know you weren't at that dance and you weren't with your sister."

Sawyer opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. She honestly had nothing to say. Or anything that she really wanted to say wasn't very nice.

"Sawyer Leona I am talking to you."

"It doesn't matter. I'm here now." Was all she said as she turned around and walked toward her bed.

Leslie came into the room with her arms crossed just watching as Sawyer threw herself onto the bed.

Leslie sighed realizing her approach wasn't appropriate, "Did something happen Sawyer?" she lowered her voice.

Sawyer lifted just her head and looked at her mom.

That was all the response Leslie needed to understand sawyer was upset.

Leslie shut the door and sat beside sawyer on the bed, rubbing her back.

"Whatever it is, im sorry that I wasn't there to protect you baby."

Sawyer just laid there. She let the tears stream out and onto her blanket.

"I love you. we will talk about this in the morning." Leslie kissed the back of sawyers head and left the room.

Sawyer got up from her bed and walked into Rues bedroom.

Rue looked distraught. But also way out of it.

Sawyer sighed, "Are you fucking serious." She wiped her teary eyes.

Rue was laying on her back, with her head up towards the ceiling.

Sawyer sat beside her sister, "you'll never learn Rue."

Sawyer laid beside rue and hugged her. Rue was too out of it to comprehend what was going on. All she did was lazily smile at Sawyer who closed her eyes at the sight of her sister.

Days had gone by since the dance and Sawyer did what she did best. Bed rot.

She shared with her mom a little bit about what happened but not the full extent so of course her mother let her be.

Well she was also preoccupied with Rue. All they had been doing was fighting, and screaming. Gia too.

Gia defended Rue no matter what. And it saddened Sawyer because Gia didn't know the truth and only saw Rue in a positive light. She saw her in a way that sawyer wished she did.

Sawyer was sick of it so she decided to go sleepover at Maddy's. Brianna came too.

The girls all had faces masks on and were sitting on Maddys bed.

"I over heard some weird shit at the dance." Sawyer admitted, "something Rue said to Nate."

Maddy and Brianna exchanged a look, "Weird, like, how?" Maddy questioned.

"Like Rue saying and I quote, that Nate's daddy likes to fuck little kids."

Brianna widened her eyes but stayed silent. Maddy just nodded and looked down as if she was deep in thought.

"If I show you guys something you promise not to tell a soul?" Maddy looked at Sawyer then Brianna.

Both girls quickly nodded their heads.

Maddy got up and walked over to hear vanity grabbing her laptop and a CD. She sat back on her bed and put the CD in her lap top and let the girls watch the tape.

Sawyer quickly realized what was going on.

It was Nate's dad.

Having sex with Jules.

AN

Longgggg chapter but this was lowkey a filler one I guess????? Idk 🤔let me know your thoughts !

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