The Howard sisters and Sawyer arrived at the carnival and quickly all went their separate ways. Sawyer went on a few rides as she waited for Brianna to answer her but she was MIA.

In the distance sawyer saw what looked like Troy standing against a wall with some girl eating her face with his hand was up her dress.

Sawyer stood and watched the two in disgust. She wasn't surprised at his behavior but she was still a little hurt.

Instead of making herself suffer by watching them she walked off and as far away from them as she could.

A small piece of Saywer wanted Troy to follow after her, and tell her it was all bullshit and try and make things right. But she knew that wasn't the reality of the situation. She just felt sick to her stomach at that point and needed a distraction.

Sawyer rested her head on her Cassie's shoulder as the two sat down moping together. they both just really wanted to go home at that point.

"I'm sorry Cass, that was a dick thing for Christoper to say. Especially after you gave yourself to him." Sawyer tried to make cassie feel better but quickly regretted her choice of words.

Cassie glared down at sawyer frowning, "Gave myself to him? What's that supposed to mean?"

Sawyer clicked her tongue in the roof of her mouth before hesitantly answering, "Not like a bad way. I just meant like sex. Ya know your body's a temple and not just something you give to every guy, and you trusted him with yours."

"Oh.." Cassie slowly nodded her head.

Sawyer lifted up her head and gazed into Cassies eyes before holding her hands in between their laps.

"He's just a douche like his brother anyways. It must be a Mckay thing." Sawyer lightly raised her eyebrows as Cassie chuckled at her comment.

Sawyer took her thumb and rubbed underneath Cassie's smeared eyeliner, "He's not worth the tears. You're beautiful Cass and there's so many guys that would treat you right and that would never be embarrassed of you, so don't even let him fuck with your head."

"Thank you Saw." Cassie broke a small smile, before wrapping her arms around her.

"I need to start taking my own advice." Sawyer giggled as the two let go of each other.

The two sat in a comfortable silence for a bit before Maddy Perez made her way over to the two girls.

"You guys not having fun?" Maddy asked as she exchanged glanced with the girls. They both just simply shook their heads, "Yeah me neither."

"You wanna do molly?" Maddy added as Cassie quickly nodded yes, while Sawyer just nodded her head unsure.

       
          Ashtray stood behind the counter at his food truck as he watched the three girls approach him, "Welcome to Pretzelmania. Can I take your order?" he asked with annoynce laced in his voice.

Maddy handed Ashtray tickets that she had recently got from Fezco, "How many pretzels you want?" he glanced between the girls not even attempting to make eye contact with Sawyer.

"We don't eat carbs." Maddy stated in a duh tone. Cassie glanced back at Sawyer and sighed before looking back up at Ashtray, "Three please."

Ashtray hesitated before answering. He realized that Sawyer was going to be doing the molly with them and he didn't like that. He also didn't understand why Cassie or Maddy was being cool with that.

"That'll be 60."

Cassie and Maddy both pulled money out and handed it to Ashtray. He looked back at Sawyer. "Oh um, it's good guys I didn't bring any money."

Ashtray store dead at her with a serious expression before letting out a sigh, "You good. It's on me." he spoke in a cold tone before walking to the back of the food trunk to get their pretzels ready.

Maddy glanced down at Sawyer as a huge smirk was plastered on her face, "ugh rooting for you and Ashtray!"

"Quiet! No! There is no me and that 5 foot wanna be gangster." Sawyer shushed Maddy as she tried to hide the smile that was forming on her face.

"So you think Nate's cheating on you?" Cassie changed the topic. She thought sawyer was uncomfortable from talking about Ashtray.

"I don't know. He's just been acting super- weird lately." Maddy softly let out, not really showing any emotion to the topic.

"Have you gone through his phone?" Cassie asked, "I've never not gone through someone's phone." she added.

"Bitch you're my soulmate." A smirk was plastered on Maddy's face as she didn't take her eyes off Cassie.

Sawyer watch the two in awe wishing she had a friendship like that. She had Brianna but something was definitely off.

"Saw!" Cassie called out, as she handed her, her pretzel, "Thanks." Sawyer broke a small smile, snapping out of her thoughts.

The three girls began to walk off, "Yo Lee, come here!" Ashtray yelled causing Sawyer to stop walking and look back at him.

"Yes?" She sighed and looked dead at the boy with no expression.

"The fuck is up with you?" Ashtray questioned.

"What is up with you? One second we're cool then the next you ghost me and now you're giving me free drugs?"

"Fine then. Pay me." Ashtray scoffed at the girl.

Sawyer let out a small chuckle as she walked back up to the front of the food truck.

"So how's your night goin so far?" She asked, causing Ashtray to roll his eyes.

"Not answering that till you answer my question." Ashtray wouldn't drop the topic.

"How do you know something's even wrong with me to begin with?" Sawyer crossed her arms.

"I mean look at you. Your whole spark isn't there." Ashtray honestly spoke. He looked sawyer up and down slowly, which she noticed.

"Wow. Uhm okay." Sawyer down at herself then back up at Ashtray.

"Not in a bad way. I just meant you look good but just sad- but good." Ashtray said with a controlled smile.

The corner of her mouth quirked up, "Well.. I don't think it's something you'd care about." Sawyer looked down at her hands.

"Just tell me." Ashtray touched Sawyers hand, causing her to look up at his face. He stroked the back of her hand with his thumb.

She sighed, "it's really nothing. Troy just moved on and I wasn't expecting it to be so fast."

"Oh." Ashtray made a line with his lips, "not to ruin the mood even more but, told you so." He gave a one-sided shoulder shrug.

Sawyer didn't say anything. She just looked at him not knowing what to say. He kept his hands on hers.

"My bad." Ashtray's demeanor softened.

Sawyer noticed this and quickly spoke up trying to ease the tension, "Oh no it's all good don't even worry."

"Don't let him make you question yourself you're not an ugly girl and he's—" Ashtray began but quickly stopped talking once he saw a costumer standing behind Sawyer.

Sawyer looked behind her then back to Ashtray, she broke a small smile as she began to walk away.

Sawyer walked to a near by trash can and tossed her pretzel in. She walked to an empty space between some food trucks and she opened the tiny baggy that was filled with molly before using her pinky nail to snort the substance. It was her first time but she had seen Maddy and Cassie do it plenty of times.

    Sawyer looked to Rue and quickly looked away, trying to hide her giggles.

Rue frowned, "What is up with you tonight?" She asked her younger sister.

"No-Nothinggggg." Sawyer shook her head as she playfully hit Rue's arm almost loosing her balance. Rue slowly nodded her head not buying a word she said.

"The colors are so beautiful and the smells oh my god! It- It just makes me want to turn into a fucking unicorn and fly around here forever giving zero fucks. All i'd have to do is shit rainbows and eat gold from the pots and the end of the rainbows." Sawyer rambled while Rue held her hand as she searched for Gia, "But only the chocolate gold. Like the one with gold wrappers but not real-"

"Okay sawyer can you just please stop talking." Rue slightly snapped as sawyer was taken back a bit. She widened her eyes and quickly nodded her head yes.

Rue could clearly tell her sister was on something. Not just by the way she was acting but she was also swearing a lot more than usual, and anyone that knew Sawyer knew she wasn't that big of a swearer.

"Sorry. I don't mean to be like this but mom is going to fucking flip if we lose Gia." Rue set her eyes on Sawyer.

Sawyer just kept nodding her head up and down, "No-N Yeah. Yeah, I totally get it. I wouldn't want to be in trouble."

Rue and sawyer continued to walk around throughout the carnival asking anyone if they had seen Gia or knew where she was.

As they were walking around sawyer noticed Ashtray in the distance with his eyes glued to her. She smirked and waved, "Hi!" she shouted.

Ashtray did a what's up thing with his head.

"Rue, look it's AssTray!"Sawyer giggled at the nickname as she pointed to him but Rue could honestly care less.

"Does that look like Gia to you?" Rue pointed towards a girl that was sitting with some people in a what looked to be a parking lot. Sawyer looked through the fence and quickly shook her head yes.

Rue grabbed sawyer by the wrist and started charging towards them, "Gia! What the hell i've been calling you."

Gia coughed, "Rueee." she store up at her older sister.

"Are you stoned right now?" Rue asked as Gia quickly shook her head no and said no a whole bunch of times but Rue could see right through her bullshit.

"We just chillin." Tory nonchalantly stated.

"Yeah that's my sisters." Gia admitted.

"Yo roy. this Rues lil sis."Troy pointed, not even acknowledging Sawyer.

"Oh I knew that by the way she was hitting the weed." Roy chuckled along with everyone else, "That's me." Gia stated.

"Alright G get up let's go."

After that sawyer zoned completely out. Just being in Troys presence and seeing him act so carelessly pissed her off. She couldn't believe he was laying next to the girl he had cheated on her with on a car just smoking acting like he had no cares in the world.

"Yo for real when'd you become such a bitch." Troy called out to Rue. That grabbed sawyer's attention because she quickly walked over to him.

Sawyer grabbed him by his shirt forcing him to sit up right, "I know your cheatin ass isn't talking. You are in no position to call anyone anything when you can't even keep it in your pants." she began.

"And come on if you're- you're gonna fuckin cheat at least make sure she's badder than me. I'm not one to put girls down but she fucking knew about me so I have no respect for her. If you're gonna cheat do it right, not some off brand cunt that gets passed around. I've heard shit about you Ashley and I know the stories about the behind the bleachers and shit. So you two are pretty much made for each other, you're both dirty." Sawyer stammered out not even realizing what she was saying. It was clear to everyone that she was on something.

"Alright sawyer enough." Ashtray tried to grab her arm but she pulled away and shoved him back. "When the fuck did you even get here, god!" she shouted but quickly shifted her attention back to Troy.

"How are you not embarrassed right now? I mean look at you. First off your dressed like a whore and your makeup looks like shit. Two your still trippin on me and making a big sense in front of everyone. Go take your druggie asses else where." Troy shook his head as sawyer store dead at him before turning around and starting to speed walk away, "Oh and don't turn into your dad! We all know how that turned out!"

Sawyer froze in her tracks. She quickly turned around and just glared at Tory in disbelief. She couldn't even hold back her tears at this point. She just broke down. Gia quickly ran over to her and pulled her into a hug as she whispered things trying to make her feel better.

"Let's go. Now." Rue narrowed her eyes at her sisters. Rue knew where this would be going.

Ashtray snickered to himself in disbelief as she shook his head. He walked up to Tory, with no words Ashtray grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, lifting his upper body up from where he was laying and started punching his face repeatedly not stopping. He went fucking crazy.

Sawyer watched in horror got herself out of Gias grip, running over to them. she screamed for everyone to help her as she tried to get Ashtray off but everyone was in shock and no one wanted to fuck with Ashtray when he was like this.

"Ashtray. Please." Sawyer's voice broke. Ashtray stopped and started panting trying to catch his breath as he got off of Troy.

"fuckin pussy, barley fought back." Sawyer couldnt help but notice that Ashtray had a crazy look his eyes that she hadn't seen before, "if you wanna talk shit make sure you can back it up." He added.

Ashtray turned to look at Sawyer. He just scoffed and angrily walked away, while she was frozen shocked at the whole situation.

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