//Warning:prepare for a mental break down of Peter due to him bottling up so many emotions. So sorry if I sound like a dick,but Spider-Man is that one character who holds in alot of emotions and never releases them,so i wanted to make a chapter where he actually does.

I try so hard to be perfect,but can't....I'm just a screw up,a freak, a sad little orphan boy, and I can't change that! I have depression,I don't see things like others do, I wasn't born to be normal!!!*shows scares on arms*I WAS BORN TO BE A FUCKING WEAPON!!! MY OWN GODDAMN BIRTH FATHER FUCKING EXPERIMENTED ON ME WHEN I WAS ONLY A GODDAMN BABY!!!! I NEVER GOT TO BE FUCKING NORMAL!!!! I DEALT WITH ALL THE SHIT OF WHAT MY BRITH FATHER DID AND I GET THE FUCKING BLAME FOR IT!!! I FUCKING TRY TO HELP PEOPLE ,BUT EVEN THAT SHIT BACKFIRES!!! I GO THROUGH SHIT THAT OTHER TEENS MY AGE ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO GO THROUGH!!! I FUCKING BEEN STABBED,SHOT AT,AND HELL I'VE EVEN DIED AND CAME BACK TO LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE WHEN I DIDN'T WANT TO!!!*throws things around the room*

I'M NO ONE IMPORTANT!!! I'M JUST A FUCKING LITTLE ORPHAN BOY WHO HAS TO FUCKING PAY THE PRICE FOR SHIT THAT I DIDN'T EVEN DO!!!IT ALWAYS OH PETER YOUR BIRTH FATHER WAS TERRIBLE!!! PAY THE FUCKING PRICE AND STAY STILL SO I CAN FUCKING BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU UNTIL YOUR BREATHING STOPS!! I NEVER ASKED FOR THAT SHIT!! FUCKING KIDS WOULD BEAT ME UNTIL I WAS UNCONSCIOUS!!! IT WAS LIKE THAT TO THE FUCKING POINT WHERE I WANTED TO KILL MYSELF AT FUCKING ELEVEN YEARS OLD!! FUCKING ELEVEN!!! HELL NOW THAT I LOOK BACK AT IT,WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T I DO!!! I MEAN FUCKING LOOK AT ME!!! I FUCKING BOTTLE ALL MY FUCKING EMOTIONS AND SAY I'M FUCKING FINE WHEN IN REALITY I'M FUCKED UP!!!! I FUCKING PUT A FUCKING FAKE SMILE ON AND SAY I'M FINE SO I DON'T CAUSE A FUCKING PROBLEM FOR OTHERS!!! I DON'T WHY THE JUVENILES LOOK AT ME AS A FUCKING LEADER!! I DONT KNOW WHY THE AVENGERS LET ME JOIN THE TEAM!!! I'M JUST A FUCKING MESS!!!*looks at reflection in mirror before smashing the mirror into pieces as hand gets cut and blood spills everywhere*I'M A FUCKING MESS!!*keeps smashing the mirror as hand gets bloody*WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE EVEN CARE ABOUT ME!!!???!!! WHY DO THEY CARE ABOUT A PERSON WHO CAN'T BE FUCKING HAPPY!!!??!!

-Parker Romanoff Signing off