I cant change how i feel. i hope she tries to understand that i love her. i have never been so weak,but i dont blame her. Victoria is prettier and smarter and understands her,im just her source of entertainment. Im just her friend,only her friend,her annoying little sister. Im there when she cries and she catches me when i fall. But no just friends,never lovers,never baes, ONLY,no, BARELY friends. So that feels like my heart just faceplanted."I mean we already look like it to other people" yeah right. She just csnt admit that i wiL just be a memory,not a huge part of her life, just a memory. So thanks for the memories Kat but PEACE!!!! yup, i can see that. I always feel left out and people only cared when i was hurt. Victoris said this,Victoria said that, Victoria,Victoria,Victoria. great. Talking to her is pointless. She doesnt know how it feels to be in love. How only one person could make you cry,to make you smile,to make you laugh genuinely not just fake. She is that person. but she doesnt know and never will! If only i could transfer my feelings to her. Show her my pain and sorrow my love and joy only when she is around,when i bear her voice!! Ugh WHY!!!!