i've always known
how i felt and towards who.
it's nothing new to me;
only new to you.
i've always known how i looked at magazines
but i thought everyone did so
until the year i turned thirteen,
that's how i know.

i've always had a different air;
"all the little boys are attracted to her!"
and i thought i was attracted to them
because my sexual education was a blur
(actually, it didn't exist at all).

i "liked" boys but i didn't know i could like girls.
i look back and notice
how it seems that society created those
crushes.
how you, my family, created them too.
but now i know i can like girls just as much as boys,
something i wish i always knew.

(dedicated to the preteen me who didn't know a thing.)