Okay so... I dunno.

i drew this on computer and wanted to do an outline of it on paper to colour it with Copics but then it turned out like this:

And it's ugly and now I dunno which one I should colour... The messy computer sketch or the ugly traditional lineart?

Also:

I'm sorry ARC_Trooper_Fives !!!
Please talk to me, I'll never ever say anything to hurt you ever again!!! I'm sorry, just please talk to me...
I know I'm a really inconsiderate bastard sometimes - most of the time -  because, surprise, I'm selfish and actually can't really well with people. I dunno what they want and when i snap at someone, I often lose the friendship i had with them because when I snap, i seem to forget everything i learned about others' feelings. I'm sorry, okay? I really am...
Moments like these are the reasons i tell people to think twice if they really wanna get involved with me... Because most get too used to me being as nice as i can and they quickly forget how problematic i am, how hard it is for me not to snap and forget bout others' feelings and how many problems i have with telling how far i can go...
Please forgive me, I feel like I'm in the wrong here and I don't know how to fix the mess I made without your forgiveness. You don't have to put up with me anymore if you don't wanna, but at least tell me how to make you forgive me, because I really dunno what I did wrong but you seemed upset or sad so I definitely did something wrong. Please, I couldn't live with myself if you won't forgive me for whatever I did wrong (I'm guessing it's because i was being bitchy and snapped at you, but I'm not sure...)