I just looked throught this book again...

Holy crap have I always been this weak? I mean, c'mon, that's just stupid.

Why did I post pictures of my scratches? (Almost gone, I promise! I haven't scratched or cut in so long that I lost count of the days! :3)

Why did I feel the need to post every little pityful thing?

I mean, look, I could do that right now. Right damn now, but I won't cause I'm over it.

I dunno why, but I feel a whole lot better.

Even though the funeral pulled me down, made me sad and what not, I almost feel happy now.

I mean, I miss him a lot but I realised, I'm much stronger than I thought I'd be.

Look at me, I'm still alive, still doing the same thing as a year ago, still an asshole that pretends to be nice, still using emoticons to look as happy as possible.

Though I wish I could go back to being a little cutie:

JUST LOOK AT HOW CUTE I WAS ONE AND A HALF YEAR AGO!

Oh god, remember the times where I was so unbelieveably proud to have been noticed that I had to point out every second chapter how many reads and votes the book had? Yeah...

Okay, back to the original theme!

I think I just wanna say... thanks, for sticking with me this long!

This book is kinda nearing its end, I dunno if I'll make another one.
Everyone is leaving me and I feel kinda lonely but that's okay cause I still have a use! ^^
I just dunno if art really is that fun anymore.
I kinda get picked on for it at school cause I can't draw that well and it kinda makes me loose the faith that I'll eventually get better.

We'll see.

Well, if you guys didn't lie then you'll supposedly stick with me even if there's no art for you, right? Jk, you don't have to stay at all, I'm not expecting you to.

Anyway, I just wanted to say sorry for being such an ungrateful bastard towards you guys...

Yeah...

Also, because I know that I'll never finish it, here's what I have of the christmas gifts, it's not much and it's old as fuck but it's something:

Okay I forgot which ones were for who but I'm pretty sure you'll recognise whatevre you wished for. I'm also pretty sure I did at least presents for everyone who gifted me something in return... not 100% sure about that tho.

It's only nine of like 20 pieces...
I'm sorry that I said I'd do something that I didn't end up doing in the end...

Ehhh..... apology chapters are the worst! I hate to have to apologize cause it means I did something wrong. And still, I keep saying sorry over and over again. Still.... I'm sorry...

Hope you have a wonderful easter! know that I'm all well and that me and my brother didn't have a fight yet :3
(He even let me on his Minecraft server, and although I don't play it that much anymore, I'll start playing it twice as much so that I can match his expectations! ^^)

I love you guys, I'll do whatever you want me to do, you know that, right?

Bye :3