"So, how long have you known each other?"

Jin hyung asked as he looked at the two of us.

"Well, we've been bestfriends since last year! Right Tae?"

I nodded my head before I took a sip of my strawberry shake. Me, Jimin, Jin hyung, Namjoon hyung and Yoongi hyung are now in a cafe. Jimin pestered me to go with them.

I didn't know that when he said 'hang out with us soon' it meant that if I couldn't hangout with them awhile ago, during lunch, then I better hangout with them after their classes.

"Well, we've been classmates for one year in our past university before Jimin transfered in your university."

I continued and they hummed in response.

"I had to move because of my father's job but we continued to contact each other and Taetae surprised me when he transfered to our university in the middle of school year and I am super happy now!"

Jimin exclaimed and I chuckled. He's really cheerful and I like his bright personality.

"Be thankful to my dad. This is his decision."

"Oh yeah! Hahah I'd go hug your dad!"

"Well, you can't. He's currently in America, working on another project. So, wait for a few more months."

I said while playfully wiggling my eyebrows and grinning.

"Oohhh...I see. So your dad is doing great now!"

Jin hyung blurted out and Joonie hyung nudged his arms while giving him a warning look.

"Hmm? Do you guys know each other already?"

Jimin asked and I froze and gulped as I felt my heart beat's getting faster.

"Uhmm..he..knows a little about Taehyung since their fathers are both in the same field of business."

Namjoon hyung lied and we all fell silent for a moment and thankfully, Jimin looked convinced and just smiled.

Well, it's not really a lie. My father was a small time mechanic or inventor. I'm not really sure but I know that he's really good in computers and any machines.

He had great ideas and creations that would even compare to the creator of apple but none of the business companies accepted his concepts and inventions since he never got into university until Jin hyung's dad noticed my father's creations.

Their company bought my dad's works, earning us a great deal of a million dollar-worth of contract, plus, they hired him that's why he has the money to transfer me to a better university and better house.

"Guuuuysssss!!"

We were all startled at someone suddenly screaming. We looked at the entrance of a cafe and I felt my hand shaking and my breath becoming short and shallow. I bit my lip and clenched my hands, trying to calm myself down and I looked back at my strawberry shake.

"Waaaah!! Finally our classes are over!"

"You're so noisy horse."

"I am just always cheerful!"

"You mean loud."

"Oh shut up turtle!"

Yoongi and Hobi hyung bickered at each other as Hobi hyung sat beside me.

"Babe~"

Jimin squealed and I regret turning my head as I saw him stood up and hugged his boyfriend while giving him a peck on his lips.

"How's my baby boy?"

His boyfriend asked and Jimin giggled when his boyfriend wrapped his arms around his waist and brushed their noses together.

I felt a pang in my chest and I wanted to look away but my body disobeys. I can't take my eyes off of them. No...I don't want to see this. Stop. I can't breathe.

I felt Hobi hyung's hand squeezed mine and that calmed me down a bit.

"Hey! Why don't you two love birds sit down first?"

Hobi hyung exclaimed and the couple looked at him.

"Sorry hyung but we have plans this afternoon, right baby?"

"Yeah..me and Jungkook have a date!"

Jimin happily announced and both of them had a wide smile plastered on their faces.

"So, bye hyungs! See you tomorrow! And Tae, sorry but I had to leave you to your new friends! Byeeee~"

They bid goodbye and exited the cafe, holding each other's hands with fingers intertwined.

As soon as they stepped out, I felt the lump in my throat.

"Tae...Taebear?"

Jin hyung softly said and I looked at them. They all had their eyes on me and I can clearly see the guilt and pity looks they were giving me.

"I'm okay hyung."

I said and smiled at them and looked down before continuing.

"Everyone, I'm sorry. You all had to lie because of me."

"Tae, we know why we all had to do this. You don't have to worry about us. We're not mad and we definitely don't blame you but it's killing us to see you like this."

Jin hyung explained and I bit my lip, feeling my tears welling up at the corner of my eyes.

"I told you to lean on us more. Keep that in your stupid lemon head."

Yoongi hyung added.

"Taehyung-ah, we're here okay? You've been suffering alone but we are here now and it hurts us too. We've seen everything. We were there."

Namjoon hyung assured and stated in concern.

"I'd give you my eternal hope our Taetae and we missed you!!"

Hobi hyung exclaimed, slightly brightening the mood as he pulled me into a tight hug.

"Everyone..thank you."

I mumbled and smiled...a genuine smile. I've never felt at ease for a long time. I'm really thankful having them as my friends. Even when I decided to just suddenly leave them...I missed them so much.

It's been almost two years when I cut ties with them. I don't want to do that but I had to...I have no choice.

"Yah..Tae, are you crying!?" Hobi hyung shouted while shaking me a little. "Well you should cry! How could you just leave your high school best buddies!! Huh!? Cry you brat!!"

"Hahah noooo~"

I exclaimed, playfully punching Hobi hyung's arms and wiping my obvious tears while laughing a little.

"Guys...again...S-sorry if we had to pretend like we just met."

My tone got a little serious as I hanged my head low, feeling the guilt because I know I had to drag them to my messed up world of lies...again.

"No Tae, like we said, we understand...but..are you sure about this?"

Jin hyung asked and I felt sadness in his voice.

I took a deep breath before looking at him in the eyes and nodded my head.

"Listen, when you make a decision, promise yourself to never regret anything, okay?"

Namjoon hyung adviced and honestly, I don't know what to do or what to feel anymore...because he suddenly, without warning, in the most unexpected set up...he appeared again in my life, shaking my resolve.

I sat there frozen thinking of Namjoon's hyung advice and mentally arguing with myself.

Yah! Kim Taehyung! You have decided a long time ago and there's no turning back! It's for him right? If it's for him then you have to endure everything.

"Hyung...seeing him happy like that." I gave them a soft but a sincere smile.

"I don't regret anything."

Seeing you smile...even if those smiles are not for me anymore.

As long as you're happy...even though I am not the one you're sharing your happiness with.

Yeah. That's right.

My own happiness doesn't matter.

I already gave that up when I gave you up.

But what can I do?

What can I do when I just love you so much?

I love you.

Even though you don't love me anymore.

Even if you already love someone else.

It's painful watching you love him but I'll keep loving you from afar.

And it's enough. You just have to be happy and I'll be the one to keep all the secrets...

all the promises,

the moments,

all the pain,

even the love.

I'll keep them all.

I'll treasure everything.

It's all in my heart,

the memories....

....that you have forgotten.

Pictures I’m living through for now
Trying to remember all the good times
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind
I hate this part paper hearts
And I’ll hold a piece of yours
Don’t think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won't forget

Paper Hearts|Tori Kelly (Jk)