"Babe? Are you okay?"

Jimin asked when he noticed Jungkook's death glare.

"Babe?!"

"Oh...yes?"

Jungkook snapped out and divert his attention from the two who went in the middle of the dance floor to his boyfriend.

"Let's dance?"

Jimin suggested, trying to make the mood brighter and hugged Jungkook, burrying his face on his boyfriend's broad chest while Jungkook naturally wrapped his arms around Jimin as they made slight sways, matching the slow love song.

They quietly enjoyed the moment of the sweet dance...or maybe one of them isn't really enjoying.

Although his arms were tightly wrapped around his boyfriend's smaller frame, Jungkook's eyes never left the two who were sweetly dancing at the middle. Fortunately, Jimin's face was burried on his chest so he cannot see his boyfriend's death glare on a certain someone.

"Dammit."

Jungkook growled when he saw Taehyung hugged Bogum.

"B-babe?"

Jimin said as he looked up only to see his boyfriend looking so pissed.

"Let's go."

Jungkook said and pulled Jimin going towards the couch in the corner.

"Babe...are you..."

Jimin wanted to ask why his boyfriend was acting strange but he was too afraid on making Jungkook even more pissed so he kept his mouth shut and just observed his boyfriend gulping down a bottle of beer for the sixth time but he didn't noticed how Jungkook take a glance at Taehyung and Bogum, who were sitting at the bar counter, every time he raises his bottle of beer.

"Babe...uhmm..I think you're drinking too much already."

"Fuck!"

Jungkook hissed, his knuckles turning white as he suddenly stood up, looking at the bar counter where the two seemed to be kissing, while Jimin jolted in surprise.

"Wh-what's wrong Jung-"

Jimin was cut off when Jungkook suddenly grabbed his wrist and dragged him away.

"Babe-ah wait! Wait! You're hurting me...Jungkook!"

Jimin tried to protest but Jungkook continued dragging him as if he doesn't hear anything anymore and he didn't let go of Jimin's wrist until they were in front of a room.

He slammed Jimin on the door and suddenly kissed him hungrily while Jimin was taken aback by his boyfriend's actions but soon, he tried to push Jungkook away.

He could've wanted the kiss if only Jungkook wasn't acting like that...like his mind was somewhere else instead of his boyfriend and he didn't like how rough and violent the kisses he received.

It's not Jungkook...he's not his boyfriend that loved and cared for him the most.

With that thought, he tried his best, struggling to get out of Jungkook's grip. Jungkook finally released his lips but he suddenly went to attack Jimin's neck.

"Stop! Jung-ah stop!! I said sto-"

He was cut off when he heard a loud thud and the next thing he saw was Jungkook grunting in pain while trying to stand up.

"He said stop you asshole."

"Y-yoongi hyung."

Yoongi turned his head to a very surprised Jimin and suddenly, he held his hand and dragged him away, leaving the confused, pissed off Jungkook who remained to blankly stare at the floor.

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"One more!"

"Yah...stop!"

Taehyung took another shot of vodka despite Bogum's protests.

"Yah! I know you can't drink so stop this already!"

"Gummie hyuuuuuungg~"

Taehyung's eyes were half lidded and his cheeks were red as he cupped Bogum's face.

"You're drunk!"

"Noooooooooooo! I am not!"

Taehyung said and pouted cutely but atfter a moment, his pout turned into a wide smile as he pulled Bogum's cheeks.

"Aishhh! Stop! you drunkard!"

Bogum yelled as he tried to remove Taehyung's hands off his face and it resulted to him, pulling Taehyung's arms, making the younger's body lean on his.

He stopped and hugged Taehyung while he started petting the younger's head that was resting on his chest.

"Hyung...I saw them...why? Why is it like this?"

Taehyung said in a soft tone as he felt the sharp heavy pain in his chest when images of Jungkook hungrily kissing Jimin unwantedly flashed in his mind while Bogum suddenly felt warm drops on his chest.

"It hurts, hyung... I thought that wanting him to be happy was enough...I thought that's what I want...but...but I am such a bad person...I should be happy for him...for them...but it hurts."

"Tae, tell me what you trully feel."

Although Bogum has no clue what really happened, he still wanted to comfort Taehyung and from what he saw, he only knew one thing....

Taehyung still loves Jungkook.

Taehyung stayed quiet for a moment as he realized that all this time, his friends, especially Yoongi, had told him the same thing over and over...that they just want him to admit to himself what his heart really feels and that he doesn't need to lie to himself.

He took a deep breath and he cluthed Bogum's shirt.

"I...regret everything that I did...all of m-my decisions. I thought I would be contented just to see him happy. I thought it's okay to hide everything and just watch him from afar. I thought that if he's with my best friend then I can be happy for them...but no...hyung, I guess I didn't know how selfish I am."

He paused to compose himself as he tried to breathe through his sobs.

"Pathetic, disgusting...I am such a bad friend...I thought I was happy for them but..but I am actually jealous... Because...hyung, I want him back...I still love him and I can't stop loving him. Tell me...what to do...What do I have to do? I want all of these to stop....hyung."

Taehyung's cries were burried under the loud music and his trembeling body was unnoticed in the sea of people enjoying the party.

"Taehyung..."

Bogum muttered after Taehyung slightly calmed down. He gently grabbed Taehyung's chin.

He slowly raised Taehyung's head and he was heart broken upon meeting the younger's puffed, teary eyes. He cupped Taehyung's face while his thumbs rubs the younger's red and wet cheeks .

"Tae, if you'd give me a chance....I'll help you."

He said in a low soft tone while Taehyung was slowly drowning in his hopeful eyes.

"Hyung...."

Taehyung uttered in a breathy voice and closed his eyes as he leaned closer while Bogum did the same and their lips crashed against each other.

Bogum led the kiss and Taehyung followed as they slowly forget the crowd around them who actually wouldn't care about a simple make out session.

But

Who thought one would be so affected. His eyes widen and his hands were balled into a fist and his lips were trembeling in pure anger. It's like something finally snapped inside of him and he lost control...he couldn't handle just watching them anymore.

Well, at least he managed to just glare at them for a couple of hours because he was actually watching them since the time he saw them together and for some reason, he felt his blood boiling and it made him uneasy, frustrated, angry, anxious and hella confused.

Maybe it's because of the alcohol or maybe it's because he just really doesn't like what's he feeling that's why he just went ahead and attacked.

People who saw Jungkook sending Bogum to the floor gasped while Taehyung's eyes widen in surprise.

"J-Jungk-"

He was cut off when Jungkook grabbed his arms harshly and dragged him somewhere leaving the surprised witnesses and the dizzy Bogum who was blinking a few times, trying to clear his vision.

Meanwhile, Jungkook quietly fast walked, dragging Taehyung who couldn't speak because he was too shocked and it's difficult for him to analyze what was happening because for him, everything doesn't make sense anymore so he lets Jungkook to just pull him.

He was finally snapped out of his thoughts when he heard the loud thud of the door shutting close behind him and when he looked around, he realized that they were already inside Jungkook's bedroom.

He looked at Jungkook who was glaring at him and it made him scared that each step Jungkook took towards him, he also stepped back.

"Jung-"

He was suddenly pushed on the bed and Jungkook hovered above him while still looking at him fiercely.

Have you ever experienced being so mad about something or just everything without any particular reason or for some cause that you can't exactly pin point? If you did, isn't it extremely frustrating that you'd also be mad at yourself?

Jungkook somewhat felt like that but maybe what he feels is a bit more painful and confusing since deep inside, his mind was keeping secrets that caused his emotional imbalance.

That's why probably he couldn't control himself anymore and finally went and settle everything on the person who he believes is the cause of everything he's feeling right now, the trigger point of his emotional swerve, Kim Taehyung.

The said man felt so nervous under Jungkook's intensed stare that he looked like a small prey praying for his life while trapped under his merciless predator.

Taehyung's breathing became fast and shallow as his heart started jumping off his chest while his hands clutched the bed sheets as he bit his trembeling lips.

On the other hand, Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows while he was still trying to look for reasons why he was doing what he is doing but it seemed that looking into Taehyung's doe eyes cleared his thought and confusion.

He grabbed Taehyung's neck and he suddenly kissed him passionately while Taehyung released muffled moans.

After a moment, Jungkook's eyes opened in surprise when he felt Taehyung's hands circled around his neck, pulling him closer as Taehyung kissed back.

That moment, all of his remaining rationality and guilt were melted by the rising heat coming from their ardent kiss. That moment, he just let himself go. That moment, he felt that what he was doing was right and at that moment, he felt relieved and happy.

...and maybe it is one of the moments when we could say that whatever the mind forgets, the heart will always remember.

I don’t care if it hurts, tie me up
So I can’t run away
Grab me tightly and shake me
So I can’t snap out of it
Kiss me on the lips lips,
Our own little secret
I wanna be addicted to your prison
So I can’t serve anyone that’s not you
Even though I know, I drink the poisonous Holy Grail
Blood Sweat and Tears|BTS