"I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul."

-Pablo Neruda

Aiden's pov.

"Aiden," it's her voice. How can I face her? I slowly turn around to look at her, unsure of what would happen.

"What are you doing here?" my voice was stern and her eyes widen in surprise. She saved my fucking life just two days ago, and here I'm ready to break her heart.

"Aiden, you fucking disappeared for two days, and now you ask me why I'm here?" As much as I want her in my arms right now, it's time to let go.

"What do you want from me Bree?" I'm such an ass hole but what else can I do when my dad confessed about his disease and made me promise to let her go? I was going to confess my love to Bree on graduation day and look what I'm doing now.

"Why are you behaving like this?" she asks me softly and her voice was filled with fear as she rests her hand on my shoulder. It takes me a lot, but I shrug it off and she looks at me shocked. I can't even make eye contact with her.

"I can't do this anymore Bree. A relationship with you has been nothing but attraction," I say finding my voice. What surprised me is that she didn't say anything, her eyes that were filled with emotions are now blank, and she just froze in her place. I can feel the pain of my heart; it felt like being stabbed.

"Aiden what are you talking about?" she finally asks me, and her voice was breaking but her brown eyes didn't hold any emotions anymore just like the way she was when I first met her.

"I don't like you enough to stay with you. I don't want an emotional relationship where it's all about the pain we're going through," every single word I said was a lie, and she knew it. If anything, she's the only person I would want to spend the rest of my life with.

"You're a fucking lair Aiden. You're lying. I know you like me, and you promised me that you would never leave!" she yells at me and grabs me by my collar.

Am I that obvious? It's probably because she knows me too well. I felt drained out of my emotions. She's so close to me and all I wanted to do is the hug her, but I need to get done with this even if it's the hardest thing I need to do.

"I'm not Jared okay! I'm not the perfect guy you would want. I can't be in an emotional relationship like he would've if he was here. I don't like you Bree, why can't you get it?" I snap at her and my voice rises. She's breaking, and I can see that. The only way she would leave me is if I compare myself to Jared. I know she never compared me and loves me as I am, but I can't think of any other idea.

"Aiden why are you doing this to me?" everything around me is just crashing down. Exactly two days ago, she was talking in her sleep and told me something that I was longing to hear from her.

"I love you, Aiden."

"I'm not Jared to love you Bree," I repeat just to break her heart more than it already is. I know that I would not look upon my life the same way ever again and without her, I'm incomplete.

"I came here to tell you something important that I thought you would be longing for me to say..." she trails of with a dry laugh. I'm the biggest jerk ever. She was about to confess her love to me, and I'm leaving her broken before any of us could say the three words we've been longing to hear from each other.

"Maybe there isn't anything left to say after all," It's over. She's broken and so am I but there is something that's left to say which I can't anymore.

She steps closer to me and whispers, "You're not Jared and no matter what you say, I know you're lying for God knows what,"

"Good-bye Aiden," I look at her for one last time before she runs away from me. I feel dead.

~

"Aiden," I hear a familiar voice, and I look up to see who it is, Maria.

It's been an hour, and we're still waiting for the doctor to come out. Bree was driving alone today when she could let her driver fucking accompany her. She was driving fine when a fucking drunkard decided on driving in the wrong direction and crashing into her car.

"She'll be fine," Maria assures me with a sad smile. Nothing could make me feel better right now. The only thing I want is to see her and know that she's fine.

"I messed up Maria," I say shaking my head and blinking away the tears, forming in my eyes. I can't lose her again, and she doesn't get to choose about coming back.

"I'm not going to deny that Aiden, but maybe you can still make things right," Maria says and I look at her. She's right but right now, I need to know about Bree. My phone starts vibrating in my pocket, and I take it out. Mom.

"I'll be back," I tell Maria and get round the corner and pick the call. I've been ignoring her calls since morning, and I don't want her to irritate me anymore.

"What is it mom?" I hiss over the phone.

"Aiden, where are you?" She asks me worried.

"You wouldn't want to know that mom and stop calling me over and over again as if you really care about me," I hang up and return to Maria and the others.

Ricky sits down next to me, and he was equally worried. "Aiden..."

I wait for him to say something, and hopefully it's something about her. He opens and closes his mouth several times before finally speaking, "Don't let her go again,"

He hugs me immediately, and I hug him back. I got my best friend back, and I needed him right now.

"I can't lose her Ricky," I choke out, and he releases me from the hug.

"She's never going to leave you, Aiden," Ricky says reassuring me.

"Ricky, why is she hurting so much?" The words slip out of my mouth.

"I can't tell you what happened Aiden," he replies shaking his head.

"She made you promise, didn't she?" That's why he can't tell me what happened just like Jackson.

"Where do you think she was on graduation day?" He asks me out of nowhere.

I don't answer 'cause all along, I thought she was at school on graduation day, and that's when she would've noticed that I left. Am I wrong again? Ricky answers my question, "She was at the airport, and she saw you leave,"

I look at him in disbelief, and his expression is hard. If she was there, then why didn't she meet me?

I find my voice and finally ask him, "How did she know that I was leaving?"

"I told her and she knows why you left," of course, he did.

"Then why didn't she stop me? Why is she behaving like she doesn't know anything?" More questions start popping up.

"She blacked out and then; we came to know that she was..." he trails off as if he was going to tell me something that he shouldn't.

"Ricky tell me," I ask him with pleading eyes. I needed answers not more questions.

"It's not my place to tell you. Only Bree can answer your questions and she's just trying to keep the truth from you 'cause, she doesn't want you to hurt like she did," I groan in frustration. I need her, and I'm not going to let her go this time. She needs to know that I love her untill today, and that I'll love her till the end.

The doctor comes out of the operation theater and I stand up. Jackson gets to him first, and we wait for the doctor to speak up. My heart is beating faster than it ever did.

"I really don't know how she survived this accident, but she had a pretty serious head injury that we didn't think she would survive, but she did. She's in a coma, and we can't tell you that she's safe until the next twenty-four hours. She has two broken ribs and is going to need a ventilator for quite some time. Her left hand and leg are broken too," my vision is blurry by the end of the doctors' speech.

Blinking away the tears, I find my voice to speak, "can we see her?"

"Yes and only one at a time. And only one person can stay with her," the doctor finishes and leaves us.

Jackson enters first and he was in tears when he went inside the room. I try to get my breathing back to normal. Everyone went in before me and I'm still trying to build up the courage to walk in there and see her.

Ricky goes in last and comes out with a stern look. He was trying to be strong 'cause, I know he's Bree's best friend too just like he is to me. I walk past him and take a deep breath before walking in.

I walk closer to her, and tears start rolling down my face from the sight of her. She has machines all around her. Her face is full of cuts, and her head is bandaged. She looked almost lifeless and pale. I never even when my father died but looking at Bree like this is breaking me.

I sit down on the seat next to her and take her right hand into mine. The promise ring I gave her was still on and I kiss her hand.

"I love you, Bree"

~
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