"Some things are better untold, for they don't heal, no matter how old."
~ DabVreha (Vri)

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"You are worthless and weak."

"It's okay. No one is perfect."

"I think I am perfect when I am with you."

"You think that? I guess you are always perfect even without me. Because you are you."

"I love You. Will you marry me?"

"I think, my only mistake in life was accepting you. You don't deserve me."

"No! It's not a mistake. Accepting me was your choice, not a mistake," Nidhaan murmured wiping his eyes, his honey-brown orbs filled with tears.

He ran his hand through his raven black hair and shifted his legs to put his hands on his thigh on which he kept his face.

After some time, he gazed at the gleaming stars and chuckled sadly as he remembered her memories. He wasn't weak from the start but with time he changed. He changed just like everyone around him did. Letting people take place in his fragile heart and then crush it, forced him to change. Yet, here he is again thrown back by the person he trusted the most, weeping his eyes out remembering 'her' who taught him the meaning of love. 

Nidhaan was quiet boy as a teenager, when she entered his life. His mates, usually were busy running for games while he used to run for beaches. When they used to spend their time throwing parties, he used to devour himself in the non-ending world of books.

And today is nothing distinct too. When other men of his age are harming their lives by drinking alcohol to conceal their agonizing hearts, he is gazing at the stars sitting on a solitary bench near the beach.

Nidhaan averted his gaze towards the sea, which looked him more attractive than the software he daily checks. Water from the sea flowed and deprived continuously because of the long waves distracting him to the core.

"Why does it make me remember my life?" Nidhaan noticed and stood up from the bench.

He started to walk towards the sea thinking to get some stability. The same peace which this place gives him whenever he visits here with sadness or confusion.

Just today neither he wasn't sad or confused, he was numb, the feeling which even  if tried then also can't be described in words.

Nidhaan stood in front of the part where the water from the sea forcefully kisses the land and sweeps away some sand with itself while going.

"Can you help me today?" He asked softly as if he was talking to his younger brother, who is just a step away to delete his work.

The water kissed his feet sharply as if they were asking what had happened to him. Nidhaan smiled seeing the care of mother nature, if only she had taken consideration of him in such a way.

"Today again, I am feeling as if I have failed in life. I remember, the last time I said this to you was a month back when my business went into loss. This time it's not business, it's my first love who has abandoned me," Nidhaan let out as some drops of tears made their way out from his eyes.

"You might remember her, she was the one I told you about six months ago, a month before I married her. And it was yesterday I came to know that she was the reason why I was going in loss and today she left me throwing some erroneous reasons," He whispered opening up all his sorrows to sea, the one he finds his solace in.

Nidhaan closed his eyes and wiped the tears as he felt gentle cool breezing touching his face.

He felt as if someone was with him, sharing his pains and sorrows which he couldn't build up himself to tell anyone, not even his family or friends.

He slowly came out from the water and started walking towards the bench, where he was sitting before.

Each step he took, made him remember the moments he had spent with her, making it difficult for him to take the next step. Sometimes, it happens when the brain and the heart contrast each other and the same was happening with him.

His brain was begging him to move on and never remember her while his heart was advising him to talk with her and know why she deceived him.

Nidhaan with much difficulty reached up to the bench and took some deep breath, not believing what happened to him suddenly.

He never was like this, weak or confused. As said by others he was the epitome of ideal from looks to brain which he wasn't either. He just never showed his imperfections to others, blame this to his introverted self and insecurities for that.

A loud bell echoed from the nearby church, making Nidhaan frown. He thought he was sitting here, for an hour not knowing the fact he has spent almost three hours all alone in silence.

Sighing in dismay, as he was late from regular sleeping time, Nidhaan went towards his car.

He started it and drove from the lanes where he had spent his childhood. The greenery of the familiar streets of Mangalore calling him to look at them again.

He took a U-turn after a drive of twenty minutes and the familiar yet boring buildings of his neighbours came into his view.

He didn't understand why no one in his house annoyed him today even if they have a habit of provoking him and suddenly his lips stretched up into a small smile thinking about his-not-so-yet crazy family's attempts.

Nidhaan parked his car inside the garage. After coming from it, he looked at his house which his father had built up with many hopes, strength, pain and love.

He smiled knowing she could take up his everything but not his supportive family, who stood up for him even after listening, the blames she put on him. And also she can never take away his talent, by which he will again make up his empire.

This time she might have broken him, his trust and even his faith in love but she can't break the talent he owns.

Nidhaan silently opened the door of his house which was filled with silence today and not with laughter. He walked towards his room slowly and sat on his bed.

"Even if I have to give myself the worst pain, I will do it. But I won't let the happiness and name of my family taper away," He muttered and laid on his bed.

Closing his eyes, he made the vow to himself that he will never trust someone so much that could shatter him and he will never think about the agony she had given to him.

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