Gather up the courage Chae and confess!
I'm scared I'll get rejected again,but I'll never know if I don't give it a try.I took a deep breath.After an hour of me trying to gather up the courage to confess,I texted you in private.

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Don't hate me after this
Pleaae
*Please
And I need you to let me finish
Read 23:43 pm

Lisa
No omg why would i
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I'm so nervous my hands are shaking.I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart is gonna pop out of my chest any minute now.

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And then text me baxk
*back
Read 23:43 pm

Lisa
Okay
Imma talk with my best friend on face time
And ill come back when youre finished
❤
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I've been straight for as long as I've known,but...
I like you and you're the first girl I've ever had a crush on.Can you blame me?
You're so perfect you'd make any straight girl gay or bi and any gay guy straight or bi.
And I just have to say I love you,I love you so much it hurts.It fucking hurt when you told me you had a crush on Irene because I was hoping to get a chance with you,but you loved her.I tried to convince myself it's just admiration I feel,because you're going away soon and I didn't want this to happen,but it did.I can't help,but fall in love with you.I love you Lalisa Manoban.
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I am so sorry
I tried not to
But I ended up...
I'm sorry
And I still have that one side
That tells me
It's just admiration
😂😂
I'm sorry
I really am
You can go ahead and hate me
Read 23:59 pm

Lisa
I don't hate you
I have no reason to
I just hate myself a bit now :(
Listen
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Don't please
It's okay
I'll just
Ugh
Forget about it I guess...
I'm sorry
I really tried not to fall for you
Bc you're leaving soon and it wouldn't matter
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Lisa
Chae I honestly have no words except that I feel so bad for making you feel like this I don't know what to say because honestly I don't know what to tell you to make the situation better you deserve the best of this world because you're perfect and I'm not lying when I say that I love you so much and I just know that if I ask you to forgive me for 700 years - they wouldn't be enough because you don't deserve what I've made you feel.You're one of the best,caring,fair,sweet and amazing that I've ever known in my life and I'm so sorry.If I had control over my feelings I would've chosen you and not Irene or idk who,but unfortunately we can't control our heart,because the heart wants what it wants,but still my heart is full of love for you and I'm pretty sure that you'll get over this soon you'll find someone way better than me who deserves you and loves you with all of their heart just like you deserve to be loved but like seriously I don't know what else to say except that I feel like a piece of shit and idk what to say because idk how words can make this situation any better just know that i'm endlessly sorry
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What hurt me the most wasn't the fact that you rejected me.It was the fact that you thought I'd get over it soon..

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I love you too❤
Just
Forget about it
And you're forgiven ^^
Just
Forget about it😂
And let's pretend this didn't happen
And go back to normal
Sounds good?
It's just as you said
You can't control your heart
And thank you❤❤
Um anyways
Moving on
What are up to rn?
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Lisa
If that's what you want okay :(❤
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There's nothing you can do😂😂❤❤
I love you tho
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Lisa
Nothing much
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Thank you for at least trying to make me feel better❤
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Lisa
Wby
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Just reading fan fictions on my phone
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Lisa
Chae I seriously feel like shit you drop a bomb like that and then say moving on I endlessly love you and idk what to do I'm sorry
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I'm sorry
I shouldn't have said that
Things will probably be awkward now..
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Lisa
I'll try not to make them awkward i really dont want to lose your friendship it's so precious to me
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Same
I'm...again I'm really sorry
❤❤
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Lisa
Please don't apologize
If there's someone who should be apologizing its me
For like
A couple of billion years in a row
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So..
I watched this new kdrama today
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My heart just shattered.No matter how much you tried to gather up those pieces and try to glue them temporarily until someone else came and fixed it,they still fell apart.

Why does love hurt so much?

Tears rolled down my cheeks as I wiped them,trying to be strong,but it didn't take long before they rolled down my cheeks once again.

My chest hurts so bad and it feels empty.It feels like I've been stabbed.It feels like dying.