I sighed, kneeling down in front of Gee.

"I've gotta go away for a little bit, Princess," I said.

"You're leaving me?" He asked sadly.

"No, I love you," I said. "I just have to go away for a little bit. I promise I'll talk to you on Foldy Evan."

He sniffled, his eyes watering.

"I love you," I said. "I promise I'm gonna be back soon."

"I love you too, Daddy," he said. "Here, Take Seb Seb with you, he's gonna protect you and keep you not lonely."

"Baby, it's okay, you can keep Sebastian," I said.

Gee shook his head, handing me his favorite stuffie. I kissed his cheek and stood up. I took Miles from Jamia, giving him a kiss.

"I love you, Baby Boy, I love you so much," I said. "I'm sorry I'm leaving you, I really don't want to. Mia is gonna keep you nice and safe."

I turned to Jamia next as I cried quietly.

"I love you," I whispered.

"I love you too," she said.

I gave her a soft kiss, gently wiping the tears off her face

"I'm gonna miss you so much," I mumbled.

Jamia wrapped her arms around me, hugging me tight. I handed her Miles, sniffling quietly.

"I should go," I said softly. "If I don't get on that bus now then I don't think I ever will."

Jamia nodded and I got on the bus, sighing quietly. I looked out the window and saw everyone saying their goodbyes to Jamia and Gee.

"Where did Daddy go?" I heard Gee ask.

"He went on the bus," Jamia said.

"Where's he going?" Gee asked.

"He's gonna go play music for some people," Jamia said.

"He's leaving me for other people?" Gee asked.

"He isn't leaving you, he's gonna come back," Jamia said.

"Mommy, I miss him," Gee cried.

It shattered my heart my heart as I watched him sob and Jamia held him close. I sat on the couch, crying quietly as I pulled my knees up to my chest. Everyone got on and the bus started driving away. I waved goodbye, tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Frank, it's gonna be okay," Evan said, patting my back.

"How could I do this?" I asked. "I'm a shitty parent, I'm leaving my kids behind. And Miles is only a baby? He's three months old!"

"You aren't a bad dad, Frank," he denied, sitting next to me. "You love your kids. You're going on tour because it is your job, you're living your dream as a musician. You aren't just ditching them, you're gonna come back in just a little bit."

"Two months," I whispered. "I-I get upset when I don't even see them for two hours!"

"Frank, you're gonna be okay," he said. "You're gonna be home soon."

I sniffled and nodded, wiping my eyes. I sighed as I curled up, looking out the window. The others all talked excitedly but I just wasn't in the mood. I sat quietly and looked down at my phone background. It was Gee holding Miles while they both smiled.

"Frank, staring at pictures of them isn't going to make it any easier," Matt said. "We know it hurts, none of us have kids of our own but we can imagine what it's like to leave your children behind. They're gonna be fine, they're in good hands and yeah they might miss you but when you get home you'll get to just cuddle them all day long."

"I know that it's my dream to make music and travel the world but honestly, now I wouldn't mind giving up the dream so much just to be able to stay home with my kids. I love them more than anything, they're my whole life."

I sniffled, looking down at my phone again.

"You wanna call them already?" Alex guessed and I nodded. "Do it, you should."

I nodded, calling Jamia on my phone. I went to the back of the bus, sitting in the separate room in the back with the door closed.

"Frank, what is it?" She asked.

"I-I missed you," I whimpered. "I don't think I can do this, maybe I should just ask them to pull over so I can get off and walk back home."

"Baby, Frnkiero andthe Cellabration can't be Frnkiero andthe Cellabration without Frank Iero," Jamia said.

"I know but I just don't know if I can leave you and my kids behind," I said softly. "You're my family and I love you."

"We love you too, Frank, and we all want you to do this," she said. "And maybe once Miles is a little bit bigger we can all join you on tour, how's that sound?"

"Really good," I mumbled. "I don't know if I would be able to leave you guys again."

"It's gonna be okay, Frank, you're gonna go onstage and you're gonna get that same adrenaline rush and you're gonna love every second of it," she said.

"Yeah, I guess you're right," I mumbled.

"I know I am," she said and I could practically hear the smirk on her face. " Now what are you doing talking to me? Go have fun! I promise we're okay and you're not a bad dad."

"Okay, thank you, Mia," I mumbled. "I love you."

"I love you too, Baby," she said before hanging up.

I went out to where everyone was sitting on the couches.

"I can't believe we're actually doing this," Matt said. "We're gonna be in huge arenas with thousands of people."

I smiled softly at the thought of all those people there, performing with all my heart. I knew it would be amazing and one of the best things to ever happen to me but another part of me would just be aching from how much I missed my family.

"This is what we always dreamed of," Evan mumbled, his eyes watering.

I squeezed his shoulder, giving him a soft smile.

"We're finally doing this," I said.

Everyone was silent for a moment as we took it in.

"Alright, how long until the next show?" I asked.

"We're heading down to Florida so not for a little while," Matt said. "We have a bit of time to kill. Please tell me you guys brought bus entertainment things."

"I knew there was gonna be a tv so I brought my Xbox along with a bunch of games to play and movies to watch," Evan said.

"Oh good," Alex said. "I brought some cards and books."

"I-I didn't bring anything," I said. "I was so busy worrying to make sure the kids had everything they would need while I was away that I didn't even think about it. I've got my phone and my laptop but that's it."

"I think we'll be able to manage entertaining ourselves with the things we have," Alex said. "And we can always just pick up more books and movies and things like that while we're traveling."

"Or we can just play eye spy the entire time," Evan said.

I chuckled, shaking head. I looked down at Sebastian that sat on my lap and I felt my heart shatter. Maybe I would get used to the idea of being away from my kids, as much as I really didn't want to. But they would be okay, I know they would. They're with Jamia and she would take care of them with all her heart.

"Do we have snacks?" I asked.

"Yeah, Mia got some, they're in the cupboards and there's some drinks in the fridge," he said.

I smiled and grabbed a bag of chips before I sat back down. One of them turned on a movie and I sighed, eating my chips. I sat on twitter on my phone, scrolling through the tweets where people mentioned me in their tweets. I got a reminder on my phone and sighed.

"Fuck, Gee's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow, I've gotta go tell Jamia," I said. "I completely forgot about it."

I called Jamia, going back to the back room as the bus rumbled lightly.

"Hey, Mia, I completely forgot but Gee has a doctor's appointment," I said. "It's tomorrow at eleven."

"Am I able to take him?" Jamia asked. "I'm not his mom, I didn't adopt him like you did."

"No, it's okay, Gee is a special case," I said. "I left all his information with you so you'll have everything. He is in the pediatrician's office. If you need help talk to the nurses, his doctor is Dr. Williams. The nurses and doctors there know him because he's always there and they all think he is adorable so they will help you with anything you want."

"Is it gonna just be a normal check up?" She asked.

"Yes, but he's gonna need some vaccinations so he isn't going to like that," I said. "Usually I don't tell him beforehand or else he'll throw a fit about going. Sorry you have to take him, I know it's just a hassle and he can be really difficult at times."

"I'm sure we'll be fine," Jamia said."Is there anything else I need to know about the appointment?"

"Um, I don't know," I said. "His doctor will probably talk to you about other things and ask about how he's doing and how he's adjusting. You should spend enough time with him to know the answers but if you need me to talk to her at all you can just call me because I won't be in a show at that time."

"Thanks, Frank," she said. "Are you feeling a little bit better now?"

"Yeah, I guess," I said. "I know that you're gonna be okay and the kids are gonna be okay but I'm just gonna miss you a lot. But this is really my dream and I do want to be with my kids but I also just love music and performing."

"You aren't gonna be gone for long, soon enough you'll be home again," she said. "But you're really gonna do this, you're gonna make your dream come true and you don't have to worry about us missing you too much because we are all so proud of you, we love you."