NO POV

Stella could not rap her head  around the face that drake and her mom were in love, and she was some freak cat shape shifter thing called a nightshade. and now she was having another panic attack and couldn't breath, and things where spinning, and oh fuck the burning sensation in her bones was back. fuck. fuck. fuck

Stella. drake's voice was somewhere in the back of  sound of blood rushing in her ears, trying to bring her back down.

Stella. drake tried aging. louder this time. and it worked. sort of. because she opened her eyes. and when she look across the room at Terence his eyes were glowing, and when she looked back at drake and, so-were-his. 

come on kitten you have to calm down. he stated placing his hand on her cheek, like he would always do when she was a kid, when every she would have a nightmare, and he'd come in from being woken by her screams for help. and he'd stay awake and comfort her till she would fall back asleep in his arms. If you don't calm down you will shift, and until we find out why you can't remember anything when you're in you cat form, it's probably best to not shift unless you have to. understand. 

"and she did, because that's what scared her the most, was the not knowing"

so Stella shook her head, and started to try and slow her breathing down and after a little bit it worked. the burning started to ease off a little and it no longer hurt to breath.

"now that she was calmer, Stella wanted to know more."

drake, she started. can I ask you something. unbowing her head a little to look you at him. 

" of course you can baby girl. he answers now holding Stella's hands in his."

why couldn't you and my mom get married, and what is  she like. her and my dad, what are they like. 

of course I can. but i... I should... um...they died Stella. they died the night that what happens in your nightmares happened. I'm so. so sorry kitten. and  Stella could tell that he was, but some part of her always knew that. but some how it didn't hurt as much as one would think it would. so Stella went on. what was her name she asked. Molly. her name was Molly.

this time drake didn't weight for Stella to ask anything and just went on.  she was a lot like you are when she was your age. but she was blond and her had more curves then you do. and boy oh boy did she have a temper. I truly did love her, and her me. but it is against the law for nightshades the meat with werewolves. and when we tried to run away your father hunted us down and almost killed me, and dragged your mom back with him. and by the time I was well enough to try and get her back it as to late. they where already married and Molly was pageant. it sounds like to me that my dad wasn't a very nice man. was he? Stella asked in a low voice.

at that question drake seemed to give his answer some thought before answering.

"he was good to your mom and you and that's all that matters."

which meant no.  which as much as that should bother her it didn't. 

what little energy Stella did have was waning, and fast. so Stella instead of asking more of the past she asked this.

what happens now. now that I know what I know, what am I suppose to do.

well drake started. I can't teach you how to control your shifting, so I have a friend coming by in the mourning to start our training. he said it like it was so simple.

she was your moms best friend  so I know that we can trust her. 

will I ever be able to go back to work. my home? you are not being held here Stella. you may go where and do as you pleas. but. it would probably be best if you didn't go back home. they know where you live now and will just try and kill you aging. but work is safe because they wouldn't ever think of trying anything there, but don't go alone I'll have one of the pack be your new bodyguard. I think you'll get along well with dalton,  at the mention of that name terence made a disapproving noise, but drake ether didn't hear or care, and the fact that he was a wolf made number two more likely, and went on. he big strong and will keep you nice and safe.                      and I'm guessing I have no say on me having a bodyguard, do i.  nope. and he popped the P.

there wasn't much taking after that just things like what she would be doing over the next few weeks then they said they good nights and left a very tired and confused Stella to get some sleep.

nightmare/flashback:

ten year old Stella was in the backyard playing one her swing set weighting  for her new friend to show up so they could play. new friend being a big fluffy dog that look a lot like a wolf had showed up in her back yard about a week ago, when she had told her mom about the dog, she had told if the dog came back to run in the house and tell her right away. but Stella didn't they was just something about him that didn't seem like he should feared, he'd even let her ride him the last time.

but now as the daylight was slowly fading  Stella was starting to think that he wasn't coming, and in this then five minutes her dad and mom would call her in for dinner. 

Stella time for dinner.  her mom called out to her, so with a sigh Stella slid off of the swing and started to head in for dinner, but about half way to the house when she heard a whimper from some were in the woods at the wayback of the yard. she must have been taking to long to come because mom came out to get her. Stella baby girl it's time to come in. she said to take Stella in, but she heard to wimper aging and sella took off like a rocket, already at in the woods when she heard her mom scream for her to come back, and then for her Dad when she realized that Stella wasn't coming back.

Stella could hear her parents run behind her and that made her run all the faster. she could hear the whimpering getting closer, and then she was right on top of it.

in the middle of a small clearing was her new friend. he was coved in blood and looked like his front leg was broken, but even from here she could see that he was breathing so at least he alive and with her parents right behind her they could help Stella get him to a vet.

Stella what do you think your do... her mom never finished, because  eyes had landed on the answer. drake. her mom breathed, hand coming up to her mouth tears starting to run down her face. she was crying. then Stella's dad cam to a stop next to them.

Stella, Molly. what the hell are you two doing. her dad panted out of breath from running. one look at his wife's face told hime all he needed to know.  

near the egad of the clearing Stella could hear what sounded like growling, then out of the darkness came a Hugh gray and black wolf. and all hell broke louse. 

RUN. her dad yelled out to Stella and her mom. and they did. they ran like they had never ran before, and Stella thought her legs just might fall off. her lungs burned and she had know idea where her and her mom were going or where her dad was. he should have been right behind then, so when Stella heard someone running behind them she looked over her shoulder expiating to see her dad, instead she saw the wolf, and because of not looking were she is going she tripped and fell hard. cutting her hands up. her mom saw her fall and came back to pick up her daughter. but it was to late the wolf was over Stella long sharp claws thinking into the ground on both sides of her head. and she closed her eyes she did not want to see her own death in the beast eyes. 

but it never came her. instead out the pain she thought was coming, it was the wolf that was in pain. her mom, now in cat form was fighting the massive beast. her mom had him pinned to the ground and looked at Stella, and Stella knew what that look meant. run. so she did and as munch as she didn't want to she knew that she had to.                                         

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Stella woke screaming and crying. she wished that what she had juts seen wasn't really but it was. she had just seen her parents deaths. and it was all her fault. and that just made her cry harder. she was the reason her parents died she had killed them.

NOTES:

I know it's kinda short but I want what is coming to be the start of the next part so🤷🏻‍♀️