Stella could not fall back asleep after having seen her mom and dad die, and it being mostly her fault. and yes drake was the reason Stella was out there but her mom told her to stay away from him, so there was no on to blame but herself for they deaths. then when Stella reached for her necklace for conferred like she always did after a nightmare but found it wasn't they and after a moment of panic, she found it under her pillow. chain broke in half. great.

Stella doesn't quite know how, but her screams didn't walk any one else in the house up. so as silently as she could Stella put on her slippers and headed down stairs and out on to the pouch letting the screen door close as quietly as the squeaky rusty  old hinges would allow, and just stood they looking out over the blackened landscape that was just as breathing taking hidden in the moonlight as it was in full daylight.

beautiful. isn't it. the voice scared Stella so much that she jumped about two feet in the air. turning to her left , Stella hissed at the figure siting in the dark on the pouch swing. and at Stellas hiss laugh. 

didn't mean to scare you stell. but that cut little hiss made it worth it to me. terence said a small laugh still in his voice. A. my hissing is not cute. B. I didn't even know I could hiss like that. Stella finished by sticking her tongue out at him, and she didn't care even in the slittiest how childish it was. and made her way over to sit next to terence. 

hate to be the one to tell you this stel. but almost everything you do is cut on some leave. and your a nightshade, and nightshades hiss a lot. when they are mad, scared, and purr when you feel happy or safe. and were was something about terence saying that this was all normal made her feel better. but the fact that he though that she was cut did not. she didn't want him to think that she was cut, she wanted him to think that she was hot sexy. but no he though she-was-cute. 

way are you awake anyways.  you only went to sleep like two hours ago. terence asked with a small head tilt, which always made Stella melt a little. turning her head to face back to look out over the land, debating if she should tell the truth or not. what a deep breathe she said. I had a nightmare. only it was real. of the night my parents died. and... and it was my fault. and dam it now she was crying aging. hey terence said in a low soft voice poling Stella into his chest, she went willingly, arm around her shoulder one hand rubbing small circles on her upper back the other hand in her hair grounding her. 

they sat there for what felt like hours but was probably only minutes in silence. Stella stopped crying at some point, terence only letting go enough for her to turn in his arms, so that now her upper back and shoulders were lying against his chest, and it just felt so right, it always felt right with terence. and that realization my something in Stellas stomach twist, because they could never be, and fuck if that didn't  hurt like hell, because now Stella was thinking that all the small touches, fluting when know one was looking was something, something that could never happen. and terence had always known that, is that why he always stopped it before it started? probably.

I like you terence. I always have. Stella didn't know why she said that, and the way terence stiffened and little behind her she knew it was the wrong thing to say. i.. um.. just mean that you've always been nice..and..um.. yeah. terence drew in a deep breath then he said. Stella. we both know what you meant, and I've tried for years to let you know that I didn't feel the same, and I'm not going to lie to you I think w feel the same, but. "fuck there was always a but"  it is agents the law to be together. and I won't risk you getting into trouble because I couldn't say no. so I'm saying no, for the last time. and with that he slipped out from behind me and went back into the house, without even looking back.

stunned. that's what Stella was. who the fuck does he think he is. he just acted like Stella had know say in the matter what so ever. and she could understand if he didn't feel the same, but he did. but fine if that's what he wanted then that's what he was going to get.

the next morning Stella came downstair still in PJs hair messed up, to the dinning room and sat down next to Doris, drakes wife. yes wife. most don't even know that he's married, let alone has two kids. twins that make the devil look like bing bong from inside out. but luck was on her side for once they where away for the summer, seeings how they are one of the reason she moved out. not that drake knew that she had never told him or Doris that they children where monsters.

Stella dear. Doris said as she wrapped Stella in on of her mom hugs. she hadn't been at the house when they broth Stella in, so this was the first she was seeing Stella, and Stella knew that she looked like crap. when drake told me what happened I and your new bodyguard go and pick up some of your things. she let go of Stella and sat back down in her own chair. 

the table was full of food but the only food Stella had eyes for was the blueberry pancakes. fishing two one to her own pleat. they had all just finished eating what her new bodyguard showed up with  three bags of Stellas things. drake. who had now joined them, and when he ask how her night was. and she had told him the truth. rose from his seat to great the man. and damn, she might have just been turned down by the guy she's been in love with since she was sixteen, didn't mean say would became a none. 

dalton my friend. drake said with a hand shake. this is Stella. the nightshade you will be looking after, Stella this is dalton your new bodyguard. drake stated  gesturing to the both of them. and Stella thought she would die right on the spot. she was in her PJs and was in desperate need of a hairbrush, and there was no way in hell that they couldn't see how on fire her face was because that's just how it felt. he was six feet something, of pure muscle, dark brown hair in a crew cut, and a well kept beard, tan, and like the rest of the werewolves had gold/brown eyes.

Stella was staring and she knew it. but it was hard not to, and who could blame her. he looked the he just walked out of one of those want sex? click here adds. Stella had he own G.I Joe bodyguard

miss starlight I believe that those are yours. dalton said handing Stella her bags of clothing and toiletries and she really didn't know what, didn't care because dalton just get even sexier when he spoke, with a deep voice that made heat pole in between her leg, and hell did she hope it wasn't advise. and when she took her bags from him and there hand touched it was like someone had zapped her, in all the best ways possible. then terence came in and the moment was gone.

"Stella didn't look at Terence as she left, nor did he look at her going up the stairs."

Stella took a nice hot bath, get dressed and headed back down stairs.  looking out one of the stairway windows seeing as her new teacher arrived. she was about he same age as drake, blond hair not much taller then Stella was but skinner, and had the same eyes as she did. guess it was the same as werewolves. all the nightshades had the same eye color. so fucking weird.

she was just reaching for the door handle, when a big well tanned hand grabbed it first. it was dalton. and without saying anything open the door for Stella to walk out.

drake was already talking to the women, but when she looked up over his shoulder gasped.oh my god. tears coming to her eyes hand over her mouth, pushing past drake she ran up to Stella and without a moments hesitations she wrapped Stella in a hug, and Stella froze. she did not like being hugged. at all. and what the hell was the hot ass bodyguard for if he was just going to let strangers come up and hug her. and the look on his perfect face said that he found this o-so-funny. after a moment or two the lady let go and she was crying openly.  hands still on Stellas shoulders. I'm sorry for hugging you like that but when I saw you I saw your mom, and for a minuet it was like she had never died. she explained though the tears.

they made they way back into the house Stellas teacher. who's name turned out to be Alex. still holding on to her arm asking Stella how many times she's shafted. which was two. and was very concerned that Stella couldn't remember anything when she did.

they where all now in the massive cabin style living room. they being drake, Stella, Alex, Doris, and terence.dalton was off somewhere. talking about Stellas parents and what they where going to do about the hole can't remember thing. well Alex  started. the facet that not only don't you remember when you shift but don't remember your life before the age of ten is deeply upsetting. she said with a deep frown on her face. the only thing that would cause a thing like this to happen would be a cursed objet. something you always have with you, at the last part terence jumped forward and just about out of the arm chair that he was siting in and and said one word. "necklace."

your not wearing any necklace right now. Alex point out. that's because the chain broke last night. Stella replied.

well were is it then. terence ask. looking like he was a rocket ready for lunch. in my room. it came out as more of a question then a answer. and the moment the words left her mouth Terence  darted out of the room and up the stairs. and back aging in under two minutes. found it he stated holding up his prize, and then handing it over the weighting hand of Alex. 

Terence, the ever master of weighting, sat back in his chair and was silent for all of one second. before bombarding  Alex with questions.

well is it. can you fix it. is the memory lost fixable. is the.. be fucking quit terence. Alex said without even looking up from the necklace. stopping terence dead. and Stella found it funny, but se wouldn't mind if Alex answered some the question terence had just asked. 

after a few minuets or so of silents Alex put the necklace on the table and lend back on the couch . well which do you first? the good news. or the bad. she asked legs crossed at the knees, hands folded in her lap.

almost all at the same time the room said. "bad" even Stella. mine as well get it out of the way now.

well the bad news is that I have know idea if you can or will ever get your memoirs back. at those words Stella felt as if some one had just sucker punched her in the gut. but she didn't have time to over think it because Alex started to talk agin. 

the good news is that now that you ant'i wearing the thing you should be safe to shift. Alex said with a big smile on her face.

what do you mean shift. I have know idea how to do it. the only time I ever shifted before was when I was I danger. and to be onsite I am afraid of shifting. be I didn't,t tell them that but it must have show on my face because the rest of they's softened a little. but it was drake who spoke. 

you have absolutely nothing to fear by shifting. and he looked Stella dead in the eyes when he said it. the last time you shifted you did not kill anyone. terence is the one who killed the wolf at your home." so that's what happened to the fucker" you just started right by the wall and then you past out and my brother broth you here. we'll I took care of your friend. but that was last time. Stella said. we both know that I killed mister Carson. drake fell silent for a moment. and after giving it some thought said. if hadn't killed him he would have raped you, and then you would have shifted and then he would have killed you.

FLASHBACK#

Stella had been living with the Carson's for three years now and things had been petty good. she liked the girls at the home and mister Carson was nice always buying things for her a spending time with just Stella. so when he said that he had a meeting and that he wanted Stella to came she did because that was they thing. but when they pulled up to a cheap hotel, waring bells sounded in the back of Stellas mind. but this was mister C she was talking about here. every thing would be fine.

 everything was not fine Stella realized to late. mister Carson thew Stella in one of the rooms and locked the door then the rest is kind of a blur. one minuet Stella was on the bed mister Carson over her the next. she was naked in the corner of the room, mister Carson's body one the floor torn apart. bleed everywhere and a man standing in the doorway  looking at the body as thou it was nothing. and walked over to the scared Childe and rapped her in his suit jacket and without warning or fight for the girl. carried her out and took care of her as if she were his own.

END#

why would he have killed me. Stella asked. because he was a leader of the rogue pack. and as soon as he knew that your are a nightshade. you would be dead.

Stella had know idea what to say to that. so she stayed quiet and she had almost forgot that there was anyone else was in the room. until Doris started to Clear everyone out of the room everyone left. but terence. who moved from his chair to sit next to Stella on the loveseat. and it kinda pissed her off. he didn't want to date her but here he was. what are you thinking stell. terence asked in almost a whisper. what I'm thinking is nun of your business. Stella stood up quickly and went to leave the room when terence hand on her wrist stopped her. don't do this. he almost begged. and it just pissed her off more.

ripping  her wrist from his had Stella left without a wold. or tried to terence flounder. Stella. he called after her. but she didn't stop. she was going to find Alex and learn how to shift. Stella where are you going. to find Alex. so that I can be a nightshade and do what every it is I'm so-post to do with my life now. so fuck off. terence didn't listen, he jumped in front of Stella and stopped her. he didn't tell you did he. Terence asked looking general confuse. who didn't tell me what. Stella asked just as confused. drake didn't tell you that  since your parents died there hasn't been a high pride leader. drake wants for you to take that place. and bring the prides back together. and then once you do have the nightshades help fight the rouge pack.

he was lying he had to be. but Stella knew that he wasn't. all this just so drake could fight with the rouges just didn't make sense. 

why did life hate her.

NOTE: this is the most I have ever wrote in one go there will be spelling mistakes but it is what it is . plush I did the side chapter so that's it.