Astrid's P.O.V

As August 10 swings by so quick I figure if I take a little break. This is kind a get frustrated when waiting for someone to wake up. I'm extremely worried, what if he doesn't wake up forever, what if he somehow died natural, what if he lost his memory. But some thought going in my head, I cannot think the worst outcome for Hiccup, it's very ticking for me to stop worried so much.

I was currently in Haddocks house just to feel a little better. Stoick don't mind at, by the told em to watch over Toothless while he's gone at work something related to Hiccup's health.

"Hey Boy"I said, softly. Petting Toothless as he's lonely for his master, I tried feeding him but he won't eat at all.

"I know Boy, he'll be back. I'm sure for it"I rest my head on him and stand up to walk over Hiccup's bed.

Toothless was in Hiccup's room, waiting for Hiccup too, now this is seemingly sad to see. Luckily it wasn't a different story.

I somehow just collapse on Hiccup's bed, it hasn't been touched since that day. And unfortunately I'm dying inside, without Hiccup around. What I'm suppose to do without him, he clearly loves me and I love him so much.

I sigh, turn over my side and suddenly I saw his drawer pry open, I randomly just open it to see what's in it as I stumbled upon a book, I then decide to look over it until I see the title 13 Reasons.

I didn't know Hiccup write books, but this is probably his journal.

Reason 1

Firstly I couldn't take anymore of how I'm supposed to succeed as my Father doesn't wanna date anyone, because he was so I attach to my Mother, which I barely know. But I was happy as my Father describes it. I couldn't stop thinking of how my life would be if she was around

Reason 2

Normally I wanna make Friends but on age of ten I stopped and focus on my schooling but until the bullying starts. I just couldn't make friends because how lonely I was before.

Reason 3

I've been use multiple times now for homework, and it won't stop. Like I just simply write down the answers or doing the math questions. Just to give them As in classes. I wanted to stop helping them but I was forcefully abuse or even bribe but as for one Her was very most important.

Reason 4

Sometimes my Cousin doesn't give a crap about me but when something serious happens once awhile Scott stops up for me but not in front of people of course.

Reason 5

Self Harming have been my worst habit that is, normally I self harm once a month each cut is from something or someone that effects my feelings.

Reason 6

My Bully Andrea Hayden constantly bullies me in Berk High or in public, but for reasons I was known the Forgotten Outcast as people would describe me.

Reason 7

My Dad constantly leaves home for work or other things what a mayor would do, we haven't even bond yet as I was just invisible. But sometimes he asked ow is my day and stuff.

Reason 8

Astrid interferes my usually routine as she is trying to convince me to be a friend. I fall for it and somehow developed a feeling for her.

Reason 9

People are always rude and selfish about themselves, I cannot imagine what would it be without me around.

Reason 10

Even though I self harm often I cannot not die, even by falling off a bridge and still survived form that devastated storm. That lightening should've aim for me instead. I would've been happy but as Astrid shows affection for me. I play the waiting game for the right moment.

Reason 11

As Graduation approaches I knew I have to fake this out for people to know I'm fine and well, I think this day is so significant in my entire life.

Reason 12

As this Day has finally come, I will succeed on my goal to overcome everything I've been through but now I figure out my plan. But what will Astrid think of this. Will she ever forgive me if I did his selfish act, I hope she knows, that I love her so much. Milady.

Reason 13

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End

As I read this book I couldn't take it anymore that what words have Hiccup put, My eyes begin to start watering as I felt so emotional that Hiccup wrote a journal of his feelings and reasons to live or die.

"Oh Hiccup"I cried, collapsing on his bed and snuggle his pillow.

I can even smell his scent, so yummy kind of smell. Sorry I can't help it but, I really do miss him and I hope one day he'll wake up early.

As I open the book again I stumble another thing, I found a photograph of me and him in our graduation gowns.

I wipe off my tears and somehow put a small calm smile that Hiccup really loves me.

"Oh Hiccup"I whisper, holding the photograph and stare at our such a wonderful moment to graduate in high school.

As I almost fell asleep I went downstairs to their family and suddenly stumble upon family photos, and saw Hiccups Mother photo right by Hiccup's graduation photo.

It was nice and how will Hiccups will look like, I see semblance. I wonder what will she be like if that fire hasn't started, it'll be a whole different story with Hiccup now. Heck it'll be just a crush if we met at first sight.

Just some thoughts on how Hiccups life will be like.

All of sudden I got a phone call from Stoick.

"Hello?"I mutter, wondering what's with the phone call.

"It's about Hiccup"He sighs, heavily through the phone.

I gasp and drop my phone. Is he dead?