Astrid's P.O.V

I went home, feeling so relieved and thrilled that high school is over. This is exciting for me.

"I'm home!"I said, cheerfully.

"Hello dear! I'm guessing high school is done?!"Mom laughs proudly.

"Yep! Finally thank Thor for helping"I exclaimed, crashing out on the couch. I pull out my phone and send a text to Hiccup.

Astrid: hey :)

10 minutes later no response yet, perhaps Hiccup is extremely busy.

Hours had passed something is not right.

I've decided to go check up on Him, just had this uneasy feeling I don't know why though. I knock on the door couple of times and then Stoick Haddock answered it.

"Ah Astrid, what brings you here?"He smiled.

"Hey Mr Haddock, Is Hiccup here?"I ask, concerning.

"No. I have no idea where he is, I thought he would be with his friends or with You, but it doesn't seem so"He exclaimed until Toothless barks.

"Hey Toothless"I squat down and pet him.

"Why don't you come inside"Stoick insists, as I enter in.

"Now that I know Hiccup isn't with you nor his friends"He said.

"Well earlier he told me that he and you are having a son and father bond activity, which I believe"I explain.

"Hmm, I was gonna later this week but what you've told me. I believe he was lying to you"He sighs.

I stand up"Hiccup wouldn't lie to me!".

"I'm sorry Lass, I know you and Hiccup have become closer everyday, I see that. Reminds me and my deceased wife"He said in a sorrow voice.

"Hiccup mentioned that his Mother died while he was young and felt depressed about it"

"Has he? Well, as I told him about his Mother, He wanted to see Her but he can't. He was only a infant at the time when it started".

"I wanna know"I said.

"Ugh, I've told this to Him and I shall tell you as well"Stoick said, sitting down on his chair.

Flashback

It was a lovely evening

The wind was fine, birds were chirping

Me and....Valka the mother of Hiccup, had overjoyed our time together in our lovely home

Our family was perfect, it was the last thing that happened to us until...

A badly storm hit us, the lightening has stuck our beloved tree just as Loki has done it

The fire had spread our home, I was the only

I made it out of alive until I wanted to go back in and save my family

"I have to go back!"I struggle of fireman holding me down.

"Stoick!"Gobber arrives with his axe.

"Gobber! My family is still in there!"I cried.

Gobber nods and ran up to a wall of our house, he rapidly smash the wall and finally create a hole for me to enter

I then use my strength to get free from the firemen and sprint inside to find me family

I ran up the staircase search and search until this room was locked tight

"Valka!"I cried, crashing through the door until I found them in the closet.

"Stoick thank Thor!"Valka sighs of relief and holding our son.

"Val! Let's get going the fire is spreading quick!"I yelled as I grab her hand and guide her out.

Suddenly as we made it to the hole that Gobber have created, Valka looks up and saw wood collapsing above us. So this unforgivable thing she did was that She stopped me, give Hiccup to me and hardly push me out of the way until I reached outside safety with Him.

The wood above us was coming fast, it wasn't enough time to get all of us out, Hiccup would've not survived

"Valka!"I yelled, standing up.

"Stoick!"the last word of my Wife had said before the house exploded.

"Valka..."I was shock and couldn't felt guilt that this has happened.

The only that was shocking, Hiccupwas crying and saw the blazing fire upon us, we've watched.

Ended Flashback

"I wish that didn't happened, things would've been different from now on"He stared down and hold up his wedding ring"it's hard to not let go".

"But it's hard to hold things that hurt you, Valka is very proud of Hiccup graduating. And someone that care for Him"I smiled.

"I'm glad you came to Hiccup's life"He slightly smile"I was worried if he has friends to hang out with".

"I've been wanting to tell you and you have the right to know. Hiccup has been thinking committing Suisse over the last several months. I've stopped Him from doing that, I was worried and concern of him ending his life"I explain and Stoick was shock to hear.

"I have this uneasy feeling at that moment that Hiccup isn't with you, isn't with me but.......I believe he's in danger"I exclaimed, giving my worried look.

Stoick stand up and reach his phone"I'm making sure if he's not".

Until we heard a ring from the kitchen, I flinch and walk casual o the kitchen and found a IPhone top of the refrigerator and it was Hiccup's phone.

"Mr Haddock!"I quickly ran up to him and gave Hiccup's phone.

"Hiccup would not go out without his phone"He assured me.

"His life is in danger!"I cried.

Stoick nods and called the police.

An hour had passed my parents, Gobber and Spitelout and other neighbours gather around at Stoick's house. We begin announcing them at the front of the house.

"Now listen up, my Son has run away and his life might be endanger".

"I must tell you all that Hiccup is a suicidal individual, I I was the one and others that know about this. He didn't want to tell you all or you Mr Haddock about ending his life! Hiccup is a good person I don't want anything happening to Him, please find him!".

Every person and respond with agreement, it's rare for people goes missing so this is kinda new to them.

"It's alright Lass, we'll find him"Stoick assured me.

Unexpectedly my friends came by to comfort me.

Elsa got out of the car with Jack, Anna, and Punzie.

"Astrid he'll be okay, he's strong"Elsa gave me a hug.

"Like me"Jack smirks.

"Yeah thanks for coming by Elsa, sorry for ruining your party though"I sigh.

"Oh don't worry, us friends gotta stick together"She smiled.

"Yeah Stick Together"Jack chuckles, winking at Elsa.

"Umm did I ruined a moment earlier?"I said, covering my mouth pretending to be shock.

"Out of statement!"Elsa snapped.

"I know my cousin slightly, but he's family"Scott said.

"I've came as soon as I could!"Heather arrived with some of her family members.

"I'm assuming your crazy Brother is here?"I tease, looking over.

"Ha ha very funny and no he's at the police department currently working but since it's a missing person report he might help"Heather exclaimed.

"Looks like Hiccstrid story is still going...maybe"Anna smiled.

Then suddenly Andrea came, with a sad look walking up to us.

"Angie! Hey have you seen Hiccup?!"I ask, I'm super worried.

"Yes....earlier after we talked, I heard what's going on. And I know what's the situation"She exclaimed.

"Tell me?".

"He was talking about...killing himself...I did my best to change his mind, which I thought I convinced him not to. But until now, he broken a promise which we agreed on"She tear up and Heather comfort her.

"Hiccup"I mutter, looking down at a flower that is dead.

Hours had passed and everyone has spread out to search for Hiccup, I'm extremely worried and know he's still out there alone. Why he did this.

"Mr Haddock?-"

"Please just call me Stoick, and what is it?"He ask.

"I was wondering if I can go to Hiccup's room maybe I can find anything that can help?"I insisted.

"Alright, its top floor on your right"He said.

I nod and went inside the Haddock residence, Toothless then followed me and whimper meaning he's sad like me.

"Toothless I'm sorry, we'll find him. Wait can you track his smell?"I ask, hoping he does.

He wag his tail rapidly  and bark

"His room, maybe you can track one of his shirts"I smiled and went upstairs quickly to find his room.

I then found and went inside Hiccup's room and was surprise of all the artwork that he'd done over the years.

"Wow he's very talented with his art huh"I mutter, continuing scanning the room.

Something that caught my attention on the desk, I walk over pick it up and notice it was a letter from Hiccup I then start reading..

Hiccup's P.O.V

"Hello to whoever, if you're reading this letter that means I may be at the edge of the world by now, things have been hard for me, I couldn't explain what I feel for people and what should I really feel to the love ones. I couldn't take it anymore, people doesn't know that I wanted to be alone, but until this wonderful person that came into my life and stopped the things that I do normally, She was brave, funny, sassy, smart, fearful and caring. These feelings what makes me who I'am but it is also holding me back, I can't be here, so I run off and maybe just maybe have done it and left this world but I can't tell you what actually happened. You know there is a saying like where some brave hero decides to give their life to save the day, and because of their sacrifice the good guys win, the survivors all cheer, and everybody lives happily ever after. But the hero... never gets to see that ending. ...They'll never know if their sacrifice actually made a difference. They'll never know if the day was really saved. In the end, they just have to have faith...."

I stare at the tree with a rope upon my grasp and walk towards the Hanging Tree...

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Hiccstrid:
THE FORGOTTEN OUTCAST
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I've spent way too much time moving on
Tried a couple of therapists
Even got rid off some stuff
It's like my mind got a mind of its own
'Cause I've been busy getting over
Getting over someone

It's not like my brain's not in a rush and every time you get too close
It's not like I can't imagine losing myself in your arms
It's not like my skin isn't longing after the weight of your touch
It's what if I mess this up

So just take it slow
'Cause I'm scare to let go
And my heart is struggling
Not to get hurt again
Just take it slow

So I left me with a broken heart
That I've passed on to someone
And broke a new one apart
Things can be good and I'm still not here enough
And that's why I'm terrified
Having you by my side

It's not like my brain's not in a rush and every time you get too close
It's not like I can't imagine losing myself in your arms
It's not like it ain't a habit thinking "But what if?" too much
Like what if I mess this up?

So just take it slow
'Cause I'm scare to let go
And my heart is struggling
Not to get hurt again
Just take it slow

2/23/18