I opened my bleary eyes slowly, looking around the room. What... happenned? Then it all clicked, and I jumped up. Well, I tried to jump up. In reality, I kind of rolled over to go back to sleep... Then I remembered something else, and my eyes shot open. I'm going to kill Sakura!

I looked around the room to see everyone watching me in amusement as I struggle to wake up. "Haha!" Naruto laughed, pointing, "Even Kakashi-sensei woke up before you!" I turned to see Kakashi looking at me with serious eyes... eye. 

I looked away. Wow, this is incredibly awkward... Of curse, Naruto was the first to break the silence. "So, how did you get all those cuts on your arm? I don't remember Tora doing it..." I snort. Only that idiot would think a cat had done it to me.

Sakura punches him on the head. Sasuke shakes his his head, "They were self inflicted, dobe. Right, Keira-san?" I look away from him.

"Is that right, Keira-chan?" Kakashi asks. I slowly, almost painfully nod my head. What gives them the right to know? They haven't earned my trust, they haven't done anything for me! I hear them gasp as I nod my head.

"B-but why?" Sakura asks. I give her a patronizing glare and scoff slightly. "What?" 

"Why? Why?" I stormed. "You should know well why! After all, you're part of the reason, aren't you!?!" She gasps, not expecting that twist. Seriously, b*tch? "Aren't all of you "the reason"?" I question rhetorically.

Us? Sakura thought. Idiot.

I...I... I'm the reason to her pain? Naruto couldn't believe it.

Hn... She hides her pain so well... Sasuke contemplated.

How could I miss one of my own students being in so much pain? Kakashi blamed himself.

"Explain." Kakashi requests gently.

"All of you... two faced liars... treat me like scum, pretend to care about me... judge me by my past, which you don't know half of of it. It sickens me. But it makes me hat myself. Every time you call me a murderer, monster, freak, outsider... it makes me believe it a little more. And there is so much pain in my heart, it's so hard to explain. Almost a physical throbbing, but I know that nothings wrong. And so, to drown out that pain I cut myself. You inflicted these wounds on me... Indirectly, yes, but you still caused them. But these wounds will heal... not so the ones you inflicted on my heart. And you have the nerve to call me your teammate."

I didn't look at them through my entire speech. I actually wanted to hide under the covers like a little kid, ignore my problems for a little while. 

"Well, how were we supposed to know?" Sakura whined. She's whining when I'm the one with the actual problems here?!? How does that work?

"Her song..." Sasuke whispered. "The second part... "No one talks to her, she feels so alone.""

Naruto, Sakura, and Sasuke all wince as they think about the song. 

I've been the villain if anything, not a hero. Sakura thought. Yes, yes you are a villain.

I'm gonna be a hero! Save Keira from herself! I should've never given up on her! Naruto thought. I had pushed him away so many years ago... but I had needed more time.

She knows the pain of loneliness... of not being good enough. The entire village judged her for being an outsider, she was never good enough in their eyes. Sasuke realized.

Poor girl. I should've been there as her sensei.

"I don't want you to cut anymore," Kakashi said. I sighed. It wasn't that simple. "Come to us if you feel the need to." I nod, not really planning on doing as he says.

I sigh slightly, then my stomach growls. I blink in surprise. How long has it been? "Don't worry, sensei just woke up himself! He was about to say something about the masked kid, right sensei?" Naruto explained.

A woman came in, and I learned she was called Tsunami. I quickly cleared the breakfast in front of me, done in record time as I listened to Kakashi. So some masked kid rescued Zabuza. Great, more work for me.

"I can train you even though I can't move!" Kakashi smiled.

"Hold up, a little last minute training won't help us fight Zabuza! You could barely defeat him, even with your sharingan! We have to be reasonable about this!" Sakura complained. What, are you tryning to get us killed? Cha!

"Sakura, why was I able to stop Zabuza?" Kakashi questioned. "Because, you all helped me." He answered himself. "You've grown, especially you, Naruto."

He does seem stronger, and more confident, but... Sakura doubted.

"So you've noticed, Kakashi-sensei! Now things are going to get better, believe it!" Naruto celebrated.

Suddenly, some kid came in. "I don't believe it, and nothing is going to be good!" 

"Who are you!?!" Naruto yelled.

"Ah, Inari, where have you been?" Tazuna questioned, opening his arms for a hug.

"Welcome back grandpa!" Inari greeted, hugging his grandfather.

"Inari, that was very rude," Tsunami scolded. "These ninja helped your grandpa and brought him here safely!"

"It's okay, it's okay, I'm rude to them too!" Tazuna laughed. I sweatdrop. You verbally abused us.

"Mom, don't you see, these people are goingto die! Gato and his men will come back and find them and wipe them out!" Inari whined. Well, someone's pessimistic.

"What did you say, brat?!?" Naruto yelled. "Listen up, do you know what a super ninja is?" No. "Well that's me, only a lot better! I'm gonna be Hokage. This Gato or Blato is no match for a real hero like me!"

"Huh." Inari scoffed, "There's no such thing as a hero. You're just full of stupid ideas!"

"What did you say!?! AhhhhhhHH!" Naruto shouted, Sakura holding him back.

"If you want to stay alive, you should go back where you came from," Inari mocked, leaving the room.

"Sorry about that." Tazuna apologized. Naruto stormed out, muttering to himself. I looked up at the ceiling, down to the bed covers, pretty much anywhere except my teammates. 

"Keira-m-- Keira-chan, I... I apologize." Sakura murmurs. I nod slowly, not fully forgiving her but taking the comment in. "I.. well, I was wondering... would you sing us another song? It doesn't have to be special, like the other one. Just a song."

I laugh lightly. "Sakura-san, all the songs I write are special." I reply. She nods. "But I'll sing you  guys one." I agree. I pull out my notebook, flipping through it.

"Are all those songs?" Sakura gasps. I chuckle again and nod. "Wow." She breathes. I finally arrive at one and open my mouth to sing. I wrote this song when I decided to change, and make myself someone people need. A friend. To accept the good and bad emotions, but not allow them to control me.

Dear pain, oh, it's been a long time
Remember when you were holding me tight
I would stay awake with you all night
Dear shame, I was safe in your arms
You were there when it all fell apart
I would get so lost in your beautiful lies
I let you go
But you're still chasing

Go ahead
You're never gonna take me
You can bend
But you're never gonna break me
I was yours
I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

Dear hate, I know you're not far
You would wait at the door of my heart
I was amazed at the passion in your cries
Dear anger, you made me so high
You were faithful to show up on time
Such a flame that was burning in your eyes
I let you go
But you're still chasing

Go ahead
You're never gonna take me
You can bend
But you're never gonna break me
I was yours
But I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

Go ahead
Put a target on my forehead
You can fire
But you've got no bullet
I was yours
But I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

You tempted me to look back
But everything that we had together was a lie

Go ahead
You're never gonna take me
You can bend
But you're never gonna break me
I was yours
But I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

Go ahead
Put a target on my forehead
You can fire
But you've got no bullet
I was yours
But I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

Go ahead
Put a target on my forehead
You can fire
But you've got no bullet
I was yours
But I'm not yours anymore
Oh, you don't own me

After I was finished, it was silent. No one was talking when Naruto walked back into the room. "Huh?" He stopped. "Why is everything so quiet?" He asked.

"Keira-san sang a song for us." Sakura said quietly.

"Whaaaaaat?" He whined, "And I missed it? I leave the room for five minutes and that's when Keira decides to sing a song for us? Oh, c'mon Keira, sing it again for me, please, please?" I hide a smile and shake my head. I don't sing songs twice; they seem to fit into one occasion. If you sing it again it ruins it.

Kakashi got crutches and we went down to the forest to train, which I was very excited about. Naruto complained the whole way.

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Chapter Nineteen! Almost in the twenties, guys!

They found out about her self harm. Poor Keira.

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