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I went home straight afterward and marched upstairs to get those boxes down. I remembered now. I had put everything that was related to Leo in those boxes after he left and put them up to the attic. I should have thrown them away, but I just couldn't do it at the time. They were too precious to me, the tokens of us being together.

Opening another box, I found stacks of photo albums there. It was amazing how many photos we have taken for the mere seven months we were together. I flicked through the albums, some of them were taken on our dates, some were at school and there was even an entire album dedicated to Spring Formal.

I went through the rest of the boxes and picked out a few special items and photographs. And finally, I found what I was looking for. My diary.

I was never consistent enough to keep a diary properly, but when I started dating Leo, I felt compelled to write everything down, so I could look back at this and know that it wasn't just a dream.

Taking a deep breath I flipped the diary to its last entry. The day that Leo left. I closed my eyes and let my memories washed over me.

I woke up today and saw that it was a brilliant day outside. Cloudless with the sun shining brightly; I stayed at my window staring outside for a full minute, I didn't know why, but I was in such a good mood.

I left my phone in my room while I helped my mum with the chores in the morning. When I got back to my room and checked my phone I had a text. I was feeling happy. It was probably Leo, wanting to go out for a walk in the Park or something. I picked up my phone and frowned. It was from Ryan. I had a bad feeling in my stomach as I clicked the text open.

Come now, Leo is leaving in an hour. He is going to go to Hollywood. You don’t want to miss the chance to wish him luck!

My heart sank as I took the words in. Leo. Hollywood. He had been talking about this major deal with this movie company for a month now, telling me that his agent was setting up this deal for him and this might be his big breaks. But there were also a lot of competition and he wasn't sure if he would make it.

Of course, I had no doubt that he would make it. I knew that he was bond to leave, but I thought it wouldn't be until the end of school year and I tried not to think about it. Because it would mean that he was leaving me. I wasn't an idiot, I knew the chances of he and I still being together after high school was practically nil, that's why I had been trying so hard not to think about it and enjoyed the time we still had. Which was all about to be cut short.

I checked the time, it was sent half an hour ago, that means I only had thirty minutes left to get to the airport.

My heart beating wildly I quickly put on my shoes, grabbed my keys and ran out the door without even telling my mum where I was going. I had finally got my own car on my birthday and I hopped in and was on my way to the airport in no time.

And it seemed like luck was on my side. There was almost no traffic on the road. It was a Sunday morning after all. I bet everyone must be sleeping or having brunch. My whole body was buzzing in desperation to get to the airport, longing for one thing. To see Leo. Even if it is for the last time. I was on edge, this was probably the last time I will ever see him, the last time that I will see him as his girlfriend and not that girl from high school.

I speed my way to the airport and quickly parked my car on the side, not caring if it was a non-parking zone or not. My entire mind was focus on finding Leo before he leaves. I couldn't believe he didn't tell me. But inside, I knew why. Just because I never dated before Leo didn't mean that I was stupid, or naïve.

I hopped off the car and ignoring all the stares that I got and ran towards departures. It was relatively empty at this time of the day so I didn't encounter too many people, I could feel the adrenaline in my body keeping my senses heightened. I stopped every now and then to look around trying to spot Leo and Ryan.

“Ashley?” I heard Leo's voice called out and I whipped my head towards the direction his voice came from. And there he was, standing with a small suitcase and looking devastatingly handsome in dark skinny jeans and black leather jacket.

“Leo.” I said, running towards him and jumped into his arms. He gave out a sound of surprised but returned my hug.

“What are you doing here babe?” He asked after I had finally released him. I saw that Ryan had appeared and was standing behind Leo holding his passport and ticket and gave me a smile. He raised his eyebrow at me and looked at his watch, telling me that I had only just made it.

“Were you going to leave without saying good-bye to me?” I asked, wanting to sound light-hearted but it came out as a small whimper filled with hurt. I mentally slapped myself, way to sound like an insecure girlfriend.

“It was just a short trip to LA to talk about the movie deal, I might not even get the role, and I will be back on Wednesday. I was going to surprise you with the news.” He said; sincerity in his blue eyes. That was always the trouble with Leo. He always had good intentions, but always ends up hurting people.

I looked at him. And he looked back at me. I let him see what I was feeling. Hurt, that he didn't tell me he was leaving. Scared, that he was going to leave me behind and forget me. Love, the love that I felt for him. And most of all, disbelieve at his words. I knew deep in my heart that he was going to get the role, and when he did, he wasn't going to come back. He was going to leave me behind. This wasn't a sappy romance novel where the guy will love the girl forever.

“Ashley. Look at me.” Leo must have seen what I wanted him to, because he bended down to my eye level and put his hand next to my head holding my gaze at him.  “I am not going to leave you; I am going to come back. You and I are not finished. Not this easily.”

Tears started welling up in my eyes and I nodded. I wanted to believe him so desperately, but I knew better. This is the real world. Who in the right mind would come back to this small town once they have their one-way ticket to Hollywood? Even if he wanted to continue his relationships with me, his manager wouldn't hear of it. A superstar with a high school girlfriend? That wouldn't get him any fans.

“Ssh.” Leo said and hugged me to his chest kissing the top of my head. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to enjoy the last few moments I had with him.

“I will come back for you. I promise.” He whispered, I tightened my arms around him, trying to remember every second of this. The sound of his heartbeat, the smell of his cologne mixed with leather of the jacket. The feel of his chin resting on top of my head. The comforting sound of his breathing. My heart aches just imagining the future without him. It was screaming at me to believe him, believe that he wouldn't just forget me, that he will come back. But I knew better.

Breaking out of the hug I quickly whipped the tears off my face and put on a brave smile. I wasn't going to ruin this, the last moments we have together. It will be a shame to look back and only remember my tears.

“Good luck, I am sure you are going to get the role.” I said; putting on a brave front, although my voice was still husky from crying. “I just want you to remember that you are a star. You have always been to me. No matter what.”

Leo smiled at me uncertainly and pulled me close and leaned in for a kiss. It was soft, gentle, and sweet. Bitter sweet. Tinged with the taste of my tears. And the sadness of saying goodbye. For a moment I forgot about where I was and that he was leaving. There were just us. And the kiss. Our last kiss.

“I will be back.” Leo said, taking the passport and ticket from Ryan and walked off to the departure area. I held back the tears and waved goodbye at him as he went through the gate, mentally imprinting his back into my memory.

“I just wanted you to come and wish him luck, he will come back.” Ryan said, coming up beside me with a frown. I laughed and turned to him.

“I know him. He wouldn't.” I said, 'He will just forget me. Forget us. And moved on to his new life.'

“You don't know that.” Ryan said defensively, now scowling at me. I knew that I shouldn't say that, but I was too sad to care.

“Yes, I know.” I whispered. Ryan shook his head and walked off angrily. I watched as he walked away with a sad smile and headed out to my car.

I stepped outside the airport and noticed the wet ground. The pavement smelled fresh from the rain and the sun shined high up the sky. Everything felt fresh, and new. Everything seemed to be good. Everything but me.

I walked over to my car and luckily it wasn't pounded nor had a ticket on it. Probably the only good thing that had happened to me today. I climbed into the car and whipped off the fresh set of tears rolling off my eyes and drove home.

I cried all the way home. I cried all afternoon and evening in my room. I just couldn't believe it was over like that. There was still a glimmer of hope in my heart, telling me that he will come back. He will come back for me.

And yet, for the next few days, I received no text or call from him. No messages from him from Ryan. Nothing. And on the third day, I saw on the news that he was selected for the movie. The movie that he became famous for.

And just like that. My first love was gone.

Sighing, I opened my eyes and put the diary carefully into the box and started to put the rest back into boxes as well. I hefted them all back to the attic into a corner. I still couldn't bring myself to throw them away. Maybe one day I will. But for now, I couldn't.