[ Like every other night,
I am longing for you by my side.
I pretend you are here for me.

All this suffering will soon come to end
and I promise you a happiness and freedom from a cage
I keep you in.

This ugly and torn down face
of mine will not be
within your sight and your wish
 for me to disappear I will grant
as your happiness is my top priority.

Disgust may fill you up as you read this horrid confession of mine,
but trust me this is sincere from my heart.

Your laughter as you take my feelings
for granted and a joke
would forever wound me but I have say
what I want to say.

All I ask is a sincere and a happy smile
only for me.
I want to hear you call out
my name lovingly.
Let me pretend you are in love with me.
And keep in it inside my my memory ]

Oikawa clench on the crumble paper for nth time as tears stream down his face. Regrets fill him up when he finds out the person who he deny their love is no longer with him. Guilty creep into him when he remembers all those times when he humiliates their feelings and take it for a joke.

"[Name], I'm so sorry!" he cry out, fill with pain and agony.

"I love you, I love you, I love you," he voice out three special words for the person who has been longing for it to hear.

He hug their school sweater tighter to him, intoxicate in their sweet scent that he remembers every time they walk pass by. His eyes are brimming with tears and slowly it close, with their laughter and shy smile in his mind.

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asjshds blame Day6 and VIXX

I'm emo from listening to Love Letter and Let Go.