I dress in a black, lace dress getting ready for the funeral. Ryanne Smith's funeral. I found her dead and that broke me.

Luckily none of the other girls or royal family members got hurt. When I had found her dead I layer on the ground and cried. I guess I fell asleep too, so when the royal family and the rest of the girls came up they found me passed out with tear stained cheeks laying beside the dead girl.

A couple of the other girls cried a few tears, but got over it. Me on the other hand. I wasn't going to get over it.

As my maid does my makeup I give her a weak smile. "Thank you for everything," I say.

Penny smiles and finishes my makeup before sending me to the gardens where the funeral was being held.

I'm able to stand now I just need a little help, so I now have a cane instead of a wheel chair.

As I arrive at the funeral I break down in tears again at the family. The family was staying strong. They were trying to act like it didn't matter, but it did.

Before going to see the family of Ryanne Smith I change my mind. I turn myself around before going to sit at the last row of seats that are set up.

I sit there and I don't realize when the Queen walks up to me and sits beside me.

"How are you feeling?" The Queen asks.

I look quickly at her before managing a soft smile. "Not well," I answer honestly.

"Funerals not your thing?" She ask.

"Nope," I answer.

"Mine either," the Queen says before getting up a hugging me.

I quite enjoy the hug until I start thinking about my mother and how much a I miss her. Suddenly I'm crying and I can't stop.