It's amazing how simply changing your outfit can gain you significantly less hostile glares from the storm troopers.

They stare, but not as if they wanted to kill me. They look more... Scared.

They were scared of me.

Absolutely not. I'm sure it was just Kylo. His cold gaze alone was enough to give anyone chills.

"It's because you're with me now." I jumped when he spoke above me, but he just smirked down at me. I opened my mouth to scold him for prying in my mind again, but he cut me off impatiently. "Are you going to get your food or not?"

My mouth snapped shut as I nodded and blindly picked random food to put on a plate. I had no idea what most of it was, considering I was used to eating nothing but rations and other bland food.

I followed Ren out of the cafeteria and towards a padded room filled with dummies and targets.

"Beautiful spot to eat." I snipped sarcastically as I sat on a bench and began eating.

"Well I'm not eating that repulsive slime, but you can eat it if you want." As he spoke he was undoing his many layers of robe casually, until finally he was left only in a tight cut sleeve shirt that rose past his neckline. I had to tear my gaze away from his lean figure.

"We don't have all day. Hurry up." He growled impatiently.

I quickly shoveled some food in my mouth before standing and shedding a layer of my clothing so that I was left with only the wrap around my chest and slacks.

Of course I was probably just as fit as he was considering I had been forced to fend for myself and had been scavenging all my life. So I was not ashamed of my toned stomach or my prevalent biceps.

I felt his gaze roam over my torso, but I ignored him as he stood with a large cushion. 

"Show me what you got, scavenger scum." He smirked at me as he stood at the ready.

His insult didn't hurt as much as it sparked the anger I had been lacking towards him recently.

I quickly threw a few punches, to which Ren barely budged underneath.

"Come now. Is that the best you can do?" He taunted as he looked at me over the mat.

I sucked in a deep breath as I delivered a few more blows, and this time he actually stumbled slightly.

"Now that I have your attention, the real training can begin." He spoke gravely as he tossed the mat aside and used the force to bring both our lightsabers to him. Throwing mine to me the second it had touched his fingertips.

The moment it had settled in my palm he had activated his cross guard and was already advancing on me.

I immediately activated my duel blade and threw it up in front of my face to block his attack.

"Still say I cheated? Well now is your chance to prove it." He whispered as he kept our lightsabers poised above my face.

I clenched my teeth as I shoved him backward and crouched slightly, preparing for his next attack.

I saw him smirk slightly as he rushed towards me, but right as he swiped at my head I slid on the ground, under the beam, and hopped to my feet my feet, already bringing my saber towards his back.

Right before it could make contact though he had turned on me and knocked it out of the way with his own, engaging us in a back and forth saber fight.

I felt fatigue start to settle in after around 10 minutes of the even match. I could tell Ren felt the same as his moves were getting more sluggish along with mine.

"Tired?" He smirked as he jabbed at me, trying to take advantage of my languor.

I glared at him as I deflected a blow and kicked him in the gut.

"No way." I replied as I heard him grunt and hold his side. That's when I remembered the wound he had received from Chewie's blaster shot. My face fell and worry clouded my features.

He had dropped his guard and was still holding his side so I couldn't help but run to him, guilt burning my throat.

He was hunched over and had turned away so I touched his shoulder tenderly, but as soon as I did he had whipped around, knocking me to the ground, and had his lightsaber hovering above my throat.

"Never let your guard down." He smirked in triumph as I frowned and looked up at him, defeated and frustrated.

"Don't be down on yourself. I'm here to teach you, but I can't very well do that if you're already good at everything." He covered slightly guiltily.

I couldn't help but feel my heart flutter as he held out a hand to help me up.

I smiled slightly as I took it and he yanked me up, but he hadn't expected my light weight so I collided into his chest with a thud. He had caught me by the waist, but I was still pressed up against him.

I felt an apology bubble on my lips as I prepared  to pull away and dodge his anger, but he didn't move away. His hands stayed on my waist as I stared up at him with wide eyes and he looked down at me, almost matching my shock.

Despite the fact that he was taller than me, I felt as if the distance between our lips was minuscule and some force made me want to draw nearer.

I heard my lightsaber deactivate, my concentration no longer keeping it on. Ren's followed suit.

Finally I felt one of his hands lift from my waist, but only to touch my bottom lip delicately. I looked down at his chest, unable to meet his eyes, but I couldn't help but hold his arm as I felt a hand on my neck.

My heart was pounding in my chest now, I was almost positive he could hear it, but if he could he showed no sign of it.

I felt him pull my face up towards him as I allowed my eyes to flicker up at him, where his dark ones made my body freeze. I couldn't stop myself, and I knew I should.

Being near him created a feeling of wholeness.. like I had never truly been complete before this moment. I couldn't deny the aching to be near him anymore..

My head screamed at me to push him and run away, but for once I ignored it.

His lips were millimeters from mine, I could feel his breath on me and it gave me chills as my eyes fluttered shut.

Why is he effecting me so much!? This needs to stop. I don't know what's going on. This wasn't part of the plan!

My eyes snapped open wide as I realized what I was about to do. I gasped and pushed him away violently.

He looked at me in shock and somewhat shame. For a moment I thought he was going to come towards me, but he seemed to think better of it.

"Rey I-" he started, but I didn't want to hear it. I ran before I could hear anymore. If I listened to him I would have been right back in his arms.

Luckily my body was smarter than my mind as it carried me to my room and tears started to drip down my face.

As soon as I had reached my room I threw myself in the bed and pulled my knees to my chest.

This wasn't the plan. I'm ruining the plan. Why is this happening?

I couldn't tell for sure why I was crying, but my frustration had just brought me to tears.

He's a monster.

A cold blooded killer.

I should feel nothing for him....

But yet I do.