28th of November 2006

Yesterday night I couldn't sleep. Something was all in my head causing me headaches. I can't go to school today. My head hurts so bad and I can't stop thinking about Ed. Is he really dead? If he is, I don't want to live anymore.

That's right, I know him for almost a week and I would die for him. Pathetic. Said a voice in my head. What was that? I have heard of people with voices in their minds but I never knew that it would happen to me. Stop being stupid. The voice in my mind said.

Tears were starting to form on my eyes but I tried to keep them away but blinking my eyes too fast. It always worked. But this time...it didn't. And it was hard too. I started sobbing.I couldn't keep back the pain, I knew Ed was dead for sure.

On the other hand, I'm a werewolf. How could I like a vampire? Ed was so sweet to me and I yet can't control my pain. My life would stop in a second for him. I no longer think god loves me. He didn't let Ed live because vampires are demons workers.

God, I know what- no, who, Ed is. He's a vampire but he should be blessed. He's nice. Sweet. No human could reach his sweetness. I'm also sad about Eds' parents and brother. He's gonna chase me and kill me. I'm willing to die but I'm afraid. I don't want to die with a bite. It's gonna be painful.

And I'm going to do this.

I got out if bed to go to school. No, I'm not moving on, I'm going to find Eds' brother. Tell him what my sister did. And, tell him it was my fault. I shouldn't have asked Ed to come. Your fault. Said the voice in my head.

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I knew Eds' brother hang out in the woods. But the woods are big. I can't search all the area. "Mr. Ginger, can I please go to the bathroom?"I asked the teacher. Even the teachers surname reminded me of Ed. "Well, the bell is gonna ring in 5 minutes, but... ok."He said and I was relieved. "Thank you."I said and headed towards Eds' brother class.

From my information I knew he was 18, so he was definitely in 12th grade. I headed towards the 12th grade hallway and I waited till the bell rung. I saw a sad looking ginger guy get out of a class and I instantly it was Eds' brother. I ran to him so I wouldn't lose him.

"Hello."I said. "Ugh, another girl that wants to ask me my brothers number. I don't know where he is."He said. "Umm, I'm actually not here to ask for Eds' number. I wanna talk."I said."Listen, I'm kinda busy right now so..."He said."Heading to the woods? It's about Ed."I said and he sighed. "Fine."He said and grabbed my arm to push me to the woods.

When we were alone in the woods were no one could see anything. He pushed me to a tree licking his lips. He was gonna bite me. "Food."He said and went to bite my neck but I stopped him. "I know what Ed is, I know what you are, I know what I am. But most importantly, I know what happened to Ed."I said and Matt (Eds' brother) backed away

"Tell me."He said. "You and Ed are vampires. I'm a werewolf and... Ed is.... Um.... dead."I said and he pushed me to the tree harder. "What'd you do to him!?!"He screamed at me. "Nothing." I said and swallowed hard.

"But it's my fault he's dead."I said.