He's back at it with his red cheeks. Damn, I never saw a boy blushing that much because of me.

Or maybe he's just hot. I retreat and get back on a more correct position to not let any of my curves get in contact with his tough shapes.

"I have to do it again..." he glances away and rubs his neck while biting his lower lip.

"I'm sorry," I apologize believing that it happened because of me. "Hm?" he gave a shy glance at me. "It's not your fault....don't worry."

He grabs another new sheet of paper and makes the same portrait again but I mention that he's not as calm as before. I'm going to leave him alone and let this boy finish his drawing while I color my hearts with red.

"Here," he slides the work onto the table and places it right under Daehan's nose.

"Thank you Jungkook!" he joyfully tells him with a large and bright beam on his face. The man smiled, surely proud and glad that he made the young boy happy and he looked away not knowing how to react.

--

"Goodnight my little bean," I press my lips on his forehead and brush his cheek.

I straighten up and walk back to the living room where Jungkook is watching TV. I continue my way to the kitchen side and wash the dishes in my quiet corner. "Y/N...?"

I turn around at the soothing voice pronouncing my name in a low volume. "Yes?"

"Can I ask you a question?" he peeks at me but quickly glance away to look down and fiddle with the material of the sofa. "You just did."

He raises his head up, surprised by my answer as he must have expected a "yes" to come.

"I'm joking, go ahead Jungkook," I smile to him, noticing how nervous he is lately I should be kind with this boy. "Did I do something bad?"

"Uh?" I confusedly let out.

"Yeah uhm...I don't know...did I touch you while I was sleeping? Or maybe you saw something or heard...? Or else..." he interrogates me with some stress perceivable in his voice. "You seems to avoid me...or act different."

"No...I just kept my distance with you after what happened this morning...I thought you wanted me to leave you alone..."

"Really? That's the reason why you're not as close as yesterday?" he seems shocked by my confession as if he didn't see that possible. "Yes, that's why," I nod, thinking it was obvious which in the end, is not.

"You're totally wrong to think that. I swear I don't ever want you to be distant, what happened this morning was just...I was a bit stressed for whatever reason and I acted like an idiot but seriously don't think that I would want you to give me space," he relieves me and put an end to my fears and worries. That's so good to know that I wasn't being clingy and that I was stupid.

"Jeez...I'm happy to hear it because I couldn't stop cogitating all day long about this, thinking you could have lost your feelings or el-"

"Never," he cuts me off to give me his words very sincerely. "I love you Y/N and that will be for the rest of my life, you can be sure of this."

"This is the same for me.." I smile like a dumb girl, touched by what he just stated without hesitating for a second.

Silence now remains between us. We don't really know what to say more but just smile shyly. I turn back to my work and end what I started to put all the dishes back at their proper place.

"Where are you going to sleep tonight?" he finally breaks this annoying quietness.

I close the furniture in which I just put the last plate. "I don't know, why? Do you want to have the sofa for you?"

"No..." he passes his hand on the back of his neck slowly. "I want to be with y-" he stops but cough and moves nervously on his spot. "I mean...I was just wondering..."

I laugh very lightly at how cute he is when he mixes up all his words and keep on wandering his eyes around the room without looking at me for more than one second. "You want to be with me?"

"Would you mind?" he bites his lower lip and finally lay his eyes on me.

"I would spend the night with you with pleasure," I smile to him and doesn't even restrain myself to tell him the truth. What kind of human would refuse to sleep in his arms, close to him? Not a normal one.

"So...You sleep with me?" he asks once more to be sure. "You know what I mean...right...? Sleeping but...just dozing off..."

"Yes I know, don't worry," I chuckle but go walk inside of the bedroom to put on my pajamas and get back to the living room where the timid man is waiting for me. "I took a bl-"

I stop right at the exact moment that my eyes fall upon the male built on the couch, doing something suspicious in his pants.

"Oh, I..." he jerks his head up with a shook expression and removes his hand from where it was. "I just...I was just putting on my clean jogger I swear."

"Let's just act as if I didn't see anything, that's better" I walk closer to him with the long fluffy blanket and sit before lying down in front of this boy.

"Do you want to be in the back? I'm scared that you could fall..." he suggests kindly to me which I accept to do, feeling better in the tiny space between his strong and robust body and the sofa, but...I have to pass over his body...

Let's just do this the most natural way and act cool even if I'm brushing past those terribly tough shapes. I quickly get on the cushions and lie down on my left side to face Jungkook.

He takes care of covering my body with the blanket and grab a pillow to put it under my head and use it for him as well.

He places one hand on my waist and put the other arm under the pillow but slightly snaked under my neck.

"Goodnight, I love you," he speaks in a shivering whisper and presses his lips on my forehead. "Goodnight, I love you too," I raise my head up and without thinking twice, kiss his lips tenderly.

We both gazed into each other's eyes for long seconds but he recreated the same contact before smiling very softly. I snuggle closer to his chest and wrap one arm around him as his heartbeat is giving tingles to mine just from hearing it racing inside of him. He enveloped my figure even more and we both ended up being squeezed against one another to share our warmth and fall asleep.

--

My eyes are slowly opening by themselves as the light seems very dim.

Oh okay. I know why.

I'm buried into Jungkook's arms, tightly pressed against his robust chest with his head on mine and I still even have my arm around his thin waist, but unfortunately, I'm going to have to wake him up because today, Daehan gets back to school.

However, that feeling of being like a baby into his arms is so pleasant that I don't want to move away from here, it's the best thing ever gosh...

Let's just enjoy five more minutes that are going to surely be better than what it would be in heaven and then I get up.

Ten minutes later...

"CUDDLE!" the loud voice shaken up my heart violently to wake me up and make the boy holding me jump out of surprise.

He scared the hell out of my life.

I sit up as Jungkook did too. I check the clock, panicking just to know that he came up to us while screaming.

"WE'RE GOING TO BE LATE!" my little brother runs to the bathroom to get ready on its own and I stand up to rush to my bedroom in order to get new clothes. Thank god, I already packed the little boy's bag and I just have to put his lunch box into it.

Once I had my clothes I went to the kitchen side and took some cake out of it with a banana and chocolate milk, his breakfast is ready like that.

He finally gets out of the bathroom.

"My little baby, your meal is here," I mention to him before getting towards the space which is finally empty to have my usual routine in a bit more hasted way.

After short minutes, I was brushing my teeth when I heard Jungkook knocking on the door. "Y/N! Can I come in please?!"

I open the door and let him enter the room, finishing my stuff. We only have five minutes left to not be late.

"I...Uhm...Can I take my shower while you're busy?" he asks very nervously, looking at my reflection into the mirror.

"I close my eyes hurry," I tell him and allow him to do what he has to. This is making me a bit stressed just to know what he's doing in my back and I'm imagining it which is very bad!

I should not think about him now.

I open my eyes once I heard the water tapping against the floor of the shower, giving me the signal that I can look at my surroundings. Holy freaking god.

Why did I not keep my eyes closed?! I fell upon his reflection in the mirror but...He was testing the temperature of the water, leaned over the inside of the small space with his arm gripping the rim of the shower. He wasn't in the cubicle! He's naked. My eyes...

He steps inside but dammit I don't know why I didn't glance away. My holy bible...where is it?

Whatever that's too late, I saw the side of his body naked and now I'm blessed till the end of my life. I won't ever forget that image.

I suddenly think about the moment that we will have our first time. Just to think about that body and what we will do or more specifically, what He will do...Holy sh*t I'm going way too far into my thoughts I need to stop.

I leave the room and go grab the clothes of Daehan, to make him wear them and I put his coat over him while he's enjoying his chocolate milk with his eyes on the television playing his favorite show.

Since we have to wait for Jungkook, I quickly feed myself with some strawberries. I'm thinking about him in his birth suit goddammit Jesus...why am I so sinful?

The boy I was daydreaming about finally joins us with his hair still wet and his clothes I washed last night.

We all go put our shoes on and walk out to reach Jungkook's car and let him drive us to the school of my little brother.

"Your seat belt baby..." he quietly remarks upon my oversight, keeping his hand on the steering wheel. I was daydreaming again.

I buckle it on and check in the back if Daehan did too. He's younger but more cautious than me.

"Cuddle, did you put a piece of the coconut cake in my lunch box?" his cute voice breaks the silent and instantly makes me smile for no reason. "Yes, I did."

"Thank you~"

"You're welcome my little bean" I turn my head to look at him with a grin on my face.

5 minutes later...

"We're here."

Daehan unfastens his seat belt and puts the straps of his schoolbag around his shoulders before leaning over me and pressing his lips on my cheek. "I love you cuddle, see you later."

"I love you too and enjoy your day with your friends," I peck his forehead and let him move aside.

"And me...?" Jungkook demands as the boy didn't kiss him or anything before heading towards the outside.

Daehan came back and gave him a peck on the cheek. "I love you Jungkook, see you later," he wrapped his arms around his neck to hug him tightly while receiving a kiss from the man.

"I love you too little boy," he smiles broadly and even shyly. Ah...Why is my heart tingling like that?

My brother gets out of the car and make sure to close the door correctly before walking up to the teacher waiting in front of the gate to make all the kids arrive.

My cute bean waved at us before entering the yard and me as well as Jungkook both sent the same gesture.

Good, this thing is done, but why isn't Jungkook starting the car?

I turn my head to peek at him. His eyes are still fixed on the entrance of the school, where a teacher is there to ascertain that all the kids are getting inside. "What are you doing?"

"I'm making sure that he's safe, I want to see the gate closing," he doesn't glance away with a gentle curve at the corners of his lips. "He's fine you know, they always close it once the last kid entered the place."

He's so caring about him, that's cute. "Yeah I know but...I want to see it with my own eyes. We're never too prudent."

I look in the same direction as him, finally what's making him relieved is happening. No kids or teachers in sight anymore, just some parents that are chatting together.

"We can go now," I speak to him.

He turned the key into the ignition and started the vehicle to get back to our house.

That's calm, too calm.

A red light stops us. Should I start a conversation? Why do I want to burst into laughter when I'm in those kind of situations?

Because I'm mentally ill.

Let's look outside the window and act as if I was interested in the world and the people walking in the streets.

Something warm suddenly skims my hand I was resting on my thighs. I involuntarily darted my eyes in that direction to check what it was. Even if I internally know what it is

Jungkook's fingers playing with mine and brushing my skin as if he was checking something. I looked at him but he seems to be concerned about something there. "Did you do something to your hands?"

"No...why this question?" I ask confused by this sudden action. "They're cold..." he entangles his fingers with mine and holds my hand tenderly. He keeps them intertwined and looks in front of him to get back on the road.

How could he have known that they were cold just by looking at them? That was just an excuse to take my hand in his for sure.

"Are you hungry? You haven't got any breakfast," he breaks the silence in a soothing voice. "I'm not used to taking any breakfast but yes I'm a bit hungry."

"Okay," he simply replies with a smile that I don't really trust. "Have you slept well? I wasn't too...clingy?"

"No don't worry, I had a good night but what about you? I can't sleep without hugging something or someone so..."

"I had a really good night as well," his thumb strokes the back of my hand softly. My heart is not going to be able to handle all those sweet touches and words.

He stops the car in front of some shops and Cafes. What are we doing here? From what I remember that's not my apartment.

"What is this?" I ask, not knowing what he's planning to do here. He unbuckles his seat belt. "Let's go eat something together."