Chapter fourteen

Katherine's POV

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I heard a sharp knock on my door as I sat facing the dressing mirror in my room. I can't believe am actually going through with this party of a thing.

Hell

Dressed in a knee length sliver gown. I looked presentable for a celebrant. My hair was pulled into a bun in the middle of my head even though a few strand had found their way out of the band holding them.

I only applied a little mascara on my lashes and lined my water line with a dark eye liner and finished my touch with a little brush of pink blushes on my cheeks as I was looking alot paler than usual.

I'm nervous

My lips holds a shade of pink color as the lip glow had added life to it. I have been seating here for nearly an hour now. Aunt Nene was here earlier to inform me about the arrival of my friends but I was still reluctant to show my face at my own party.

How brave of me to hide away

I took a deep breath as I allowed my thoughts to wonder away; what would have happened if mom was to be here. Would I be where I am right now? Here in Nigeria and seating in this room and in front of this mirror dreading the very thought of my own birthday? And to think that the only answers to my own questions are gone with the wind cos no matter how many times I ask! I will never get to find out what my life would have been if she didn't die that faithful day..

And if I was to go back in time. What would I have done so differently? Probably hold on to her so tightly that even death would have been too weak to snatch her from me but I was too weak to even keep her awake when those eyes had looked at me for the last time before falling into a deeper slumber

To even think that I heard her whisper something to me that night was almost like a dream. It was raining so hard right after she suddenly became sick again and we thought; finally the medication she had been placed on was finally working magic and she was going to be okay! But little did we realize that mom was faking it. She just wanted us to see her strong and happy again cos after she was diagnosed, happiness went right out the door.

Dad worked tirelessly to make sure she could survive it. He consulted with every specialist he could find and took every chance he was given no matter how slim or little but none of that was enough to cure her.

The chemotherapy hurt her even more. Her smiles became even weaker each passing day and our family was obviously falling apart. How could it stand when our whole lives revolved around her and suddenly we were been faced with the possibility of living that same life without her.

More hell

Being happy was nearly impossible after she passed and right after we moved here. The closest I have gotten to being happy is with aunt Nene and Lavi and slowly, he is being ripped out of my chest as well.

How cruel can this life get...

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I didn't realized someone was standing right behind me until I felt a pair of arms wrapped around me in a hug. I didn't know who it was cos my vision was pretty clouded from my own tears but I hugged back anyways.

"It's okay kitty...I'm right here sweetie"

Dad!

I held on even tighter crying some more as the stream of tears seem to be flowing freely.

"You have to stop crying baby or you're gonna ruin all your pretty make up" he whispered

He pulled away slightly to look at my messed up face.

Stupid mascara!

"You looked so pretty a while ago sweetie. What happened to you? Why are you crying?" Tilting my chin to look at him.

I ducked my head away instead as I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.

I look horrible as hell...

"You miss her isn't it?"

I gave a weak nod.

He sigh in deeply as he hugged me again.

"I miss her too kitty. So much more than you can imagine but you are all I have got now and I will do anything to see you happy and smiling. All I ask is for you to give happiness a shot"

As his words echoed in my ears. I knew he was right. Mom always wanted us to be happy. That was her motto. For everyone to be happy.

"You know the day mom passed. She told me to be happy but I guess I didn't know how to be happy without her" I admitted as I looked at him.

"Me too sweetie..your mom is not someone we can forget so easily because she was always so sweet and kind that after she left us,we became confused but I guess we can always follow in her foot steps right?"

"Yeah I guess?"

"Well then how about we start right now and you go ahead and fix yourself back up and come down and see what this day has in store for you. Who knows?you might find a little laughter or even better; a happily ever after" he teased.

"Okay! I will be right out" giving him a small smile.

He took a glance at me and walked out. I took a deep breath as I turned towards the mirror again

It's now or never!

A/N

Just for the record. In case anyone of you was wondering if I have somehow lost a relative or a family member in a similar way? The answer is no. This is purely fictional but that doesn't mean similar situations are not happening all around us cos they are even if we don't see it. People are dying everyday from this deadly diseases that keep snatching people away from their love ones and leaving them behind to cry and mourn for them in ways unimaginable.

Well all am tryna say is this; Katherine case could be the same as anyone out there... This sort of grief could be real so let show love more often and appreciate our love ones as much as we can cos no one knows how much someone out there are wishing for theirs to stay with them even if it's just for another second. Let love lead

With love and kindness
Xoxo Agnesomalia