Niall finally looked up at me, walked over to me took my hand, kissed it and said, "Renea, I'm the one who should be sorry. I shouldn't have done what I did. I'm just...just so jealous of these lads. They are so handsome. Good-looking. That's something I struggle with." said Niall (something we both had in common).

"Niall, you are all very good-looking. Five of the best looking guys in the world. You're my man. My man. You are very handsome. No need to be jealous of Harry. Nothing to be jealous about. " I said. "You okay?"

"Yeah. I fucked up first. It will never happen again." He said as I went with Louis

"Are we good?" asked Harry

"We...we have to work on it, first you kiss my girl, then you fuck her. Get over her." said Niall

"I was over her. She did it." said Harry

"But you didn't stop it. Over her my ass." said Niall

"True. I didn't stop it, but when was I ever going to be with someone as amazing as her again. Never. So I took advantage of the situation." said Harry. "I know she's into you anyways"

"How do you know?" asked Niall

"Just the was her eyes shine bright when you walk into the room. When someone says your name." He said

"Really?" asked Niall

"If you didn't noticed, why did you ask her to marry you then?" asked Harry

"I can't picture my life without her in it. She's always on my mind. I can't concentrate when shes away. I love her. I can't wait until shes my wife. I can't wait until next year. It too far away." said Niall

Me and the other guys came in the room with Niall, Harry and Liam.

"Everything okay? Harry's not dead and he's not hiding his body right?" asked Louis

"We're okay I here." I asked

"We're okay. We have to work on our friendship, yet again ." said Niall

"Can we leave now? I'm tired" asked Zayn

"Yeah you can leave now." I said as I hugged each of them and thanked them. Harry whispered in my ear, "Well, we were really best friends now."

"Shut up." I said "Good night everyone"

I locked the door behind them and said goodnight to Niall. Went to my bed, layed down and cried. I knew he forgave me, but I still fucked up. Why did I do what i did? It was good though. Wait, what? Why did I just think that? I had only been with a handful of guys, and I'd have to say Niall and Harry are definitely top two, I won't say who was better. I just lay there pretending to be sleeping when Niall comes in. I didn't know what to do. Should I say something. He then wrapped his arms around me, kissed the back of my neck.

"I love you more than you will ever know." He whispered.

I felt tears wanting to escape my eyes. I had a lump in my throat. I swallowed hard.

"You awake?" He asked

"Uh huh." I said

He sat up and rolled me over, layed back down and just stared in my swollen eyes. I couldn't even look into his beautiful baby blues. Tears fell down my red face. I couldn't help it. I hurt him, yeah he hurt me. My heart was used to it. Nialls heart is different. I never wanted to hurt him. I did the one thing I always said I would never do. I hated myself for it. He pushed my chin up gently to look into my eyes.

"I can't . I can't look at you knowing I hurt you. I always said I'd never do it. I'm so sorry. I know that word means nothing. I don't know what else to say. I can't promise you anything. Yes, I'm hurt by your actions, but I'm used to getting hurt. I'd never thought you would be the one to hurt me. I can't do this Niall." I said as i took my pillow and slept on the couch. I cried myself to sleep.

The next morning, I woke up with a blanket on me. I went up stairs to find Niall. He wasn't there. I found a note in the kitchen

My beautiful love,
I left early. I'm going to give you some space. So....Ummm....I'll give you a break. Just until things blow over. We leave to Florida today. I got a headstart. The guys will say their goodbyes.
I hate to do this, but I fucked up which made you fuck up. I couldn't stand to see you cry over a mistake of mine. I love you and that's why I'm doing this. I'll be back in December. Hopefully everything is good by then.
Love,
Niall

What he did made it worse. Why would he do that? I curl up on the couch just thinking. About an hour later the boys came by.

"What's wrong? Where's Niall?" asked Zayn

"He didn't tell you?" I asked. "He is on his way to Florida already." as I hand them the note.

"Why the hell would he do that for?" asked Harry

"It is what it is." said Lou

"Just let him have the space." said Liam. "Hang in there."

"Hang in there? Really Liam?" asked Louis. " Why would you say that?"

"It's okay guys. Maybe it's for the better. I'll be okay." I said

"Are you sure?" asked Harry

"We can cancel the rest of..." said Zayn

"Guys. You can't do that to the fans. They are the reason you are where you are. I'll be fine. Go." I said

"Okay." said Harry

"I love you guys. Thanks for being here for me." I said

"Some more than others." said Louis

"Shut up Lou." said Harry as he socked Louis in the arm.

"Not called for Louis." Said Liam

"It's okay. I deserve that." I said

"You don't deserve any of it." said Zayn

"Awe, your sweet Zayn, but I really do. I'm okay. You guys can leave now. Go!" I said

I gave them hugs and kissed their cheek, even Harrys. I was on a break. Man did I hate it. It sucked. I love Niall with everything I am, and we were on a break. I can feel my heart breaking. He picked up the pieces, and here they were. Breaking. Making me broken, yet again. I hated these feelings of heartache. The worse feeling: Hatred. Hatred towards myself. I've lost my one and only. It wasn't completely my fault, but I'll take the blame.

I get a text from Harry.

'Listen Renea, you and Niall will be together. It will work out, you'll see.', 'Thanks Harry. This is why we are best friends. I just want to say, I don't regret what we did, it was a mistake and I'm sorry for it. It shouldn't have happened and now Nialls mad at you', 'It's okay babe. He'll get over it. It will take awhile, but be will live.', ' I hope you're right.'

A month passed and I still hadn't heard from Niall. Not even a text. Nothing. Oh how I missed him. He hated me. I just want to hear his voice. See his face. A tear fell from my eyes. I get a new text. I got excited. Could it be Niall?

"Hey babe. Sorry it's been a while since we've talked. We've been busy with our new album, getting it ready. It comes out next month. We can't wait for you to hear it. You're going love it." said Louis

It wasn't Niall. "Yeah. I can't wait to hear it. I know you guys are proud of it and I miss you guys."

"We miss you. El is sorry about you and Niall. She misses you."

"I miss her and you. Thanks for texting me Lou. I love you."

"No problem. See you soon."

Two months later there was knock at the door.

"HEY HARRY!" I yelled in excitement as I hugged him."I missed you."

"I missed you too. I need you to get that beautiful sapphire blue dress Niall got you and the shoes, get them on and do your hair nice." He said

"Why? Where we going ?" I asked

"Just do it please and come with me." he said