( super short chapter! next one will be longer, i promise! )

"What do you wanna watch beautiful?" I asked Milana as she sucked on her paci. Her head rested on my chest as I scrolled through my laptop and I hummed. "Yeah, I was thinking a Harry Potter marathon too." I laughed and set my hand on her back, gently rubbing it with my thumb.

"I'm talking to a baby," I sighed and she looked up at me. "I need to get out more. Or get more sleep. Both seems like an unreachable dream and of now." I yawned and my movie was paused as I got a skype call from my mom.

I answered it and smiled into the camera as Milana played with Leo. "Hi mom, dad, Aaliyah." I waved and Milana copied my as she giggled.

"She's so cute, who's is she?" My mum gushed and I widened my eyes slightly. They didn't know about Milana. They knew Avery, but not her daughter.

"Oh uh... this is Milana Marie, she's a friend of mine's daughter. She's at the store right now buying diapers and stuff." I lied, feeling guilty as my dad told me not to kill the kid with my huge hands. "I'm trying not to. I didn't ask to be born this way father."

"But you were." He laughed and Aaliyah asked when I was coming home.

"Soon. I get a break soon and I'm flying right back home. I miss you guys so much. It's crazy." I admitted and hummed.

"We miss you too baby," my mom told me and I smiled sadly as Milana's hand cupped my cheek, giggling as she slapped me lightly. "Careful love, the baby is abusive."

"Don't let her cut herself on your jawline." Aaliyah teased and I rolled my eyes as MiMi giggled, sitting up as she held Leo close to her with one arm.

"You have jokes huh Liyah?" I asked and she smiled proudly, nodding her head in confirmation. "I can't wait to see you guys again."

"How's tour been?" My dad asked me and I shrugged.

"It's great. I've been a little more tired than usual but it's going great. I'm excited to play another venue tomorrow." I told him and they nodded. "I was just going to watch some movies and then hopefully knock out."

"We'll call again another time then Shawn. You get your rest, but make sure the baby is being watched whilst you do so." My mom instructed and I nodded. "We love you babe, sleep well."

"I will. Bye mom, dad, nerd." I said and Aaliyah stuck her tongue out at me. "I love you guys. Goodnight."

"Goodnight then Shawn." My dad said and they ended the call. I went back to the movie and then looked at Milana.

Syllables babbled out of her mouth and I smiled softly as she wrapped her hand around my index finger. "If only your mama was here to see you."

She yawned and I let out a breath of relief. "You tired love?" I asked and then picked her up. "Come on, into your swing then."

I laid her down on the swing and then buckled the few belts that was there. I handed her Leo and then a pacifier before turning the chair on, watching it rock back and forth as a lullaby played over her head.

"You are so lucky." I muttered and then put my laptop away. I laid down on the couch, my arm underneath my head as her eyes shut slowly.

I closed my own and then just my luck, my phone rang wildly, starting both me and Milana. I groaned quietly and then reached around for the device, ready to yell at whoever is on the other side - Mike.

Poor him.

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"Everyone knows about MiMi." I panicked to Geoff as I scrolled through Twitter, switching from that to Instagram, and then to Tumblr finally. It was insane. Everyone was talking about us.

"But do they know if she's your baby or not?" He asked me and I shook my head. "Then don't worry. Just don't confront the rumors. Leave them to kill themselves."

"My fans are gonna want an explanation!"

"Well, that doesn't mean they need one." He added and I sighed loudly as I ran my hands through my hair. "Calm down Shawn, it'll be alright. This is your personal life."

"I just don't want to cause any unnecessary drama or stress." I confessed. "I just don't need this right now. If I don't confront it myself, it'll be forced on to me sometime soon."

"Dodge it maybe? Answer it vaguely. Smile, laugh, and talk about someone or something else. It's that easy." He advised and I nodded my head, scratching the back of my neck lightly as I yawned. "Where is she anyways?"

"Asleep on the bus-"

"You left her alone?" He gasped in disbelief and I nodded again. Did I do something wrong?

"She's asleep-"

"You don't leave babies alone!" He stood up and ran out of the room. I forced myself to stand and then I followed him outside to the bus, covering my eyes from the flashing lights and screaming fans.

"I'm sorry! I thought it would be okay because she's asleep!" I told him after the door shut and he saw Milana laying in her swing quiet. "She's fine Geoff."

"You're lucky she is! Babies aren't supposed to be left alone without a baby moniter! Something could have happend." He scolded me and I sighed.

"Look, I'm new at this okay?" I tried to defend myself as I rubbed my eyes. "I'm tired. I'm scared. I don't know what the hell I'm doing Geoff!"

"I know Shawn. You're doing extremely well, absolutely amazing. I'm just telling you. You can't leave babies by themselves." He told me and I nodded as I crossed my arms, looking down at the baby.

"I can't keep doing this. I'm so freaking tired. I haven't slept more than three hours the past few weeks." I whispered and he pulled me into a hug.

"I know." He sighed. I couldn't sleep right now. I had a rehearsals in a bit, then after my concert was an interview and then studio time. That meant I wasn't able to rest until sometime after midnight, which meant I would have been up a full twenty-four hours.

"It'll be alright." He promised and I nodded as I yawned into his shirt. "Just hang in there. Soon enough you'll have a day off and you can kick it in a hotel room all day."

"I'm so ready for it. I'm going to sleep in the entire day." I confessed and he laughed as he rubbed my back. "I need it."

"Take care of yourself Mendes. Don't burn yourself out." He reminded me and I nodded, telling him that I was going to as soon as I had a day off.