Just to let everyone know this book was made way before Demi changed pronouns  and I will continue doing what I have been working on so please DO NOT attack me over it!  & this book is 100% fictional and has nothing to do anyone's real life!
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(Demi's pov)
Yesterday was stressful for me because after all  I have to take care of two kids  by myself and bring them to school  then go to work at the studio. All I got to say I'm so close to finishing my greatest hits of life album. Thank God.

I miss Darryl so much I know he's been gone for four days now but when the baby comes out  he told me he may stop being a cop for  a while and help me with the kids.

In the next few days I'll be finding out  if Darryl and I are having a boy or a girl and I'm just so excited to find out and I wish Darryl was here to experience it with me because this baby that's growing inside me is our last baby.

I love Darryl so much and  I hope he liked that picture I sent him. I only took that picture because I felt beautiful and I know how much he loved that pj set.

Everyday since he left he's always on mind and I can't stop thinking about him for example I would driving the kids to school and then all of a sudden Darryl pops up in my mind.

I know I worry about him a lot but  I know he's a strong man and  everything but I don't want to see the day that Liv comes over and tells me Darryl isn't alive.  I would have no idea on how I'm going to deal with that.

Speaking of the devil Darryl is calling me right now I wonder what he wants.

(PHONE CALL )

"Hello." I said as put my phone up to my ear.

"Hey beautiful." Darryl replied lovingly.

"How are you ?" I asked.

"I'm doing okay; I miss you so much." Darryl answered.

"I miss you too and I can't stop thinking about you." I cried.

"I can't stop thinking about you  either  it's just I'll be doing something and you're always on my mind." Darryl explained.

"You going to Boston reminds me of having a long distanced relationship and we both know how those turned out." I cried some more.

"Trust me I know how they work but honey I know it has been a difficult few days  and we both have to stay strong no matter how many days or months until Liv and I could finally solve this case." Darryl said with a calmful voice me while trying to calm me down.

"I - I love you  so much  no wonder I'm crying." I replied  as I tried to make my tears go away.

"I will always love you no matter what." Darryl contended.

"If you were home I would kiss you so passionately and  we never wanted to let go of  each other." I said lovingly.

"You're  just so beautiful and when we kiss each other it just feel like the first time we kissed." Darryl admired with a lovingly tone in his voice.

"Damn it Darryl you're making me cry." I cried.

"It's true  you are so beautiful and  you'll always be the love of my life." Darryl said.

"Man, I really want to kiss you so badly and  never stop." I responded while wiping my tears away.

"I have good news!" Darryl exclaimed.

"What is it ?" I asked.

"I'm coming home for a few days because the  Boston Captain said in a few days  we could go home and see your families for a few days  but sadly we have to go back that Monday."  Darryl explained.

"That never happens when you're gone  outside of LA  for work! I squealed.

"I guess this police captain has a heart." Darryl laughed,

"Maybe you'll hear the heart beat!" I exclaimed.

"I don't think so babe; I'm coming  home Friday night  and leaving Monday morning." Darryl began with a sigh.

"The day after your back in Boston I'm going go to the hospital and see our babies heartbeat and gender." I said with a serious tone in my voice.

"I really want to be there so badly damn it and I know you'll have your mom record the heartbeat for me but I would love to see the reaction on your face." Darryl  responded.

"I wish you could  be  there." I sighed.

"Dido." Darryl said.

"I'd love to talk to for hours on end but I got to go now." I replied with a sigh.

"I got to go too and I love you so much." Darryl said as he was about to get off the phone.

"I love you too and I can't wait too see you." I responded lovingly.

"I can't wait either; bye beautiful." Darryl continued.

"Good bye." I said as I got off the phone.

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As I got off the phone with Darryl  I walked over to my closet and grabbed a white t shirt and a grey cardigan with a pair of leggings.

When I was done changing my clothes I combed my hair and put my hair up in a ponytail  and  started walking out of the room.

While I walked into the living room the girls were watching tv with their grandma.

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"Good morning everyone." I said with  a smile.

"Good morning mommy." Leah and Alyssa repsonded together as they looked over at me.

"Thanks again mom for staying over  helping me with kids." I smiled as I grabbed a Apple out of the fruit bowl in the kitchen and started eating it.

"No problem Demi; I'm always here for you." My mom contented as she walked over to me.

"You're the best mom in the world." I said as I hugged her.

"So are you too my beautiful grand daughters." My mom smiled as she hugged me back.

"I got to go to work now and I'm so happy the kids has no school today." I said while putting my flip flops on.

"We'll  see you when you come back  and  we love you." My mom replied as she opened the door for me.

"Bye everyone." I said as I stepped outside,

After I left the house and started walking over to the car I noticed the girls waving goodbye to me.

Before getting inside the car I called Sirah  to see if she can babysit the girls while I'm at the studio and luckily she said yes.

I'm just so happy to have Sirah as a great friend!

I looked over at them and waved back at them while smiling then I opened the car door and got inside.

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When  I got into the car I put my seatbelt on and shoved my phone in the glove compartment so I wouldn't get distracted by a certain number that has been bugging and making me think that Darryl has been cheating on me.

To get my mind off that anonymous low life loser I started to drive away from the house and started heading straight to the studio.

I can't wait to see Darryl again and he's staying for a few days then when those days are over sadly he has to go back to Boston.

I still miss Darryl so much and since he left to go to  Boston  he's been on my mind a lot. I know when he comes home I'm going to kiss him  until his lips can't even touch anything.

About a few minutes past and I finally got to the studio. This time I wasn't late what a miracle. So I parked my car next to Matthew and took my seatbelt off  then started walking inside the  studio.

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Good morning Demi." Matthew greeted as he gave me a hug.

"Good morning," I replied  as I hugged him back.

"I hope today isn't so stressful for you  as it was yesterday." Matthew said.

"Me either; I don't even know if I can't anything yesterday." I sighed.

"You sang  the spongebob squarepants  theme song and the funny thing is your kids haven't watched a single epsiode of it." Matthew laughs.

"That's weird of me to sing  that song  at ten in the morning; did I get hit by a huge rock to make me sing that ?" I asked with a confused look on my face.

"You weren't hit by anything; you were just so exhausted that you just started singing a random kids theme song." Matthew answered trying to keep a straight face without laughing.

"Today I'm going to sing two songs to make up for my unprofessionalism  yesterday." I said.

"I may or may not recorded you singing the spongebob squarepants theme song." Matthew replied awkwardly.

"Please tell me you didn't?" I asked as my cheeks grew red from embarrassment.

"Yes I did and don't worry I'm not going to post it on YouTube also your manager wasn't there when  you did it." Matthew explained.

"Also I wouldn't ruin your career that quickly because I know how important your career and repuation is for you." Matthew added as he put his phone in his pocket.

"Thank God and if that video of me singing the spongebob squarepants theme song ever goes on the internet my career and my reputation will be ruined in seconds." I sighed with relief.

"Then  I wouldn't be known as the Grammy awarded singer anymore I would be the woman who sang the spongebob squarepants theme song  and no one will take me seriously." I added.

"I'll keep it for good memories that's it." Matthew smiled.

I just smiled at him and  walked over to the sound booth.

When I got in the booth  I started doing my breathing exercises and some voice warm ups. So my voice won't get sore after singing.

As I started to figure out what song to sing my manager came into the office of the sound booth which was blocked by a glass wall.

After a few minutes of thinking I finally thought of a song to sing.

"What song are you going to  sing Demi ?" Matthew asked,

"I'm going to sing sorry not sorry."  I answered.

"Great; let's hear it." My manager  implied as I started to  put my headphones on.

While I was singing  the song I kept thinking about my fans because they would always scream the verse " payback is a bad bitch and baby I'm the baddest."  When I performed it on tour.

Touring was so much fun performing for my fans, traveling the world and  doing meet and greets  at certain parts of the world. Some of them would say that by listening to my music it helped them through a dark path in their lives.

When my fans say that I get emotional and start to hug them because I didn't know my songs could be insprational to others who are going through tough times in their lives  but I'm really happy that my music helps them.

As I finished the last verse of sorry not sorry  I walked over to my table and grabbed my water bottle and started drinking some  water.

"Wow; Demi that was so good." My manager said with an amazed look on his face.

"Thank you sir." I smiled,

"Are you  going to  sing anymore songs ?" My manager asked.

"Yes I am." I answered as I put the bottle down.

"Ready whenever you are." My manager said.

I just gave him a  thumbs up.

"The next sing I'm going to sing is world of chances. I said with a smile.

"I love that song." Matthew replied.

I just smiled at them.

World of chances was a really special song to me because before I was in a relationship with  Darryl  and Nick left I would sing the song to Leah  as a lullaby when she was a baby and that song  helped her fall asleep.

Then when Aly was a baby I did the same thing to her but Darryl was in the room with me when I sang it and when I was doing singing the song Alyssa would fall asleep and Darryl would be blown away by my singing like usual.

After I was done singing world of chances  I started to drink more water again then I took my headphones off and started to take a break then walked out of the sound booth.

As I walked out of the booth I walked over to a red leather  couch that Matthew was sitting on and then  I took a blueberry muffin  from the table.

"Those muffins look good." Matthew said as he sat down next to me and took a muffin off the table.

"They even smell good too." I replied trying not to drool.

"Your singing is amazing." Matthew smiled as he started to take the paper off the muffin.

"Thanks but I only got one more song  left to sing today and I'm hopefully done for the day because my voice is slowly starting to  kill me." I explained with a sigh.

"Enjoy your muffin; Do you want me to get your water bottle  for you ?" Matthew asked.

"Yes please." I answered as I started taking the paper off the muffin.

"Here's your water; I'm not trying to be nosey but your phone started blinking like mad when I grabbed the water bottle off  the table and I thought you might be wanted to answer it." Matthew explained as he handed me my phone and water bottle.

"Thanks Matt; I'll deal with my phone later." I answered.

"Okay." Matthew noted as he started to get something to drink.

As Matthew was getting something to drink I checked my phone really quickly before he came back.

On my phone had 5 missed messages from unknown number and no messages from no one else  of course the unknown number  has to text me at work.

What the hell does it want to threaten today ? 

Let's see my marriage ?

My career ?

Possibly threaten to kidnap my children?

Maybe just want to hunt down Darryl  and kill him ?

I don't know if this would happen but whoever this is  could possibly

Kill  my mom and Darryl's parents and  maybe my sister's?

Before I could read I quickly turned off my phone and shoved it in my pocket.

Then when Matthew sat down with his muffin and cup of coffee  I just smiled at him.

He smiled back and then we started eating our muffins in silence.

After a few minutes past I  grabbed my water bottle and got off the couch then I threw the paper from the muffin  in the garbage bin  then I walked back over to the booth.

When I was in the booth I grabbed the headphones and put them over my ears and started doing more warm ups.

"Are you ready to sing  another song ?" My manager asked.

"Yes I am." I replied.

"What song are you planning on singing ?" My manager questioned.

"I'm going to sing confident." I answered,

"I love that song so much." Matthew said with a smile.

I just smiled at him.

As I started to sing the song I never noticed how high those high notes are and I haven't sang that song since I use to tour with Nick  but it was before Nick and I ever wanted our relationship to get serious.

Confident has helped many of my fans and people build their confidence back the song also help  me personally as well because I have good days and bad days. So does  everyone else on this planet.

While I was finishing the last high note  the song was over  then I quickly took my headphones off because if  I sing one more song my vocal cords can be destroyed.

"Good work everybody  I'll see you all in two days time." My manger said smiling.

"Thank you sir." I answered as I heard my voice crack.

"Thanks sir." Matthew replied as we quickly got out of the studio.

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After all of that singing I started to walk over to my  car before I opened the door Matthew walked over to my car.

"I hope you have a good  rest of your day Dems; if you need me to help you with anything feel free to text me." Matthew said as he started to give me a hug.

"Thanks Matt." I whispered because I could feel my voice starting to go."

"No problem." Matthew replied as he let go of me then he waved goodbye.

I waved goodbye to him as I opened the car door then he walked back over to his vehicle.

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When I put my seatbelt  on  I waited for Matthew to leave the parking lot so I could check my phone  for the messages I missed from the unknown number.

I opened them up.

One of the messages was a gif of flames
Second was another gif of a burning house slowly catching on fire
Third  message was a gif of a house catching on fire with everything inside.

Fourth message was:  SINCE YOU'RE  HUSBAND IS GONE UNTIL  WHENEVER  HE'S  DONE HIS JOB  I KNOW YOU'LL  BE LONELY AND DESPERATE  FOR ATTENTION  (LIKE YOU ALWAYS HAVE)  GO  BREAK YOUR HUSBAND'S  HEART BEFORE HE BREAKS YOURS BECAUSE YOU KNOW HOW MEN  CAN BE WITHOUT  HAVING SEX FOR MONTHS ON  END !   🤷‍♀️

The last message was : IF YOU DON'T  DO THE FOLLOWING INSTRUCTION😠🤷‍♀️  I WILL DO EXACTLY WHAT THOSE THREE MESSAGES  DID! -ANON

After I looked through the messages I turned my phone off and threw it in the backseat angrily then I started to drive away from the studio as fast as I can.

Now I really really want to punch a wall so badly right now because I'm so pissed off and I want to scream.

About a few minutes past  I finally got to the house, thankfully Sirah is at the house right now.

When I got to the house I got  out of  the car and just kept my phone in the car because I don't even want to look at it and if I do I just want to throw it until it breaks.  Then I walked into the house.

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"Hey mommy." Leah said as she looked over at me.

"Hi." I responded as I put my car keys out on the table and started boiling the kettle.

"How was your day at the studio ?" Leah asked.

"It was good." I answered with a whisper.

"What's wrong with your voice?" Leah  wondered wuth confusion.

"Here's a career tip for you; never become a singer  unless you want your voice to sound like this." I whispered as grabbed a tea bag,  lemon juice and honey.

"Noted." Leah said as she grabbed a mug off the cabinet for me.

I just smiled at her because I don't want to ruin my voice.

"Sirah and Alyssa are having a tea party in the room." Leah added.

"That's sweet." I whispered.

"I'm going to go back and watch tv."  Leah said smiling.

"Okay sweetie." I replied with a low tone in my voice.

After I said that she walked over to the  living room and watched her show.

As I was waiting for the kettle to finish boiling Sirah and Aly came out of her room.

"Your daughter makes delicious  brownies out of her easy bake oven." Sirah said.

"Did you eat one ?" I asked with a low tone in my voice  while putting hot water in the mug with the tea bag.

"Yes; but not the whole thing." Sirah mumbled.

"What's wrong with  mommy's voice?" Alyssa asked with a confused look on her face.

"Her voice is sore from singing." Leah answered.

"I hope your voice gets better." Sirah said.

"Thank you." I whispered as I started adding the lemon juice and the honey into the mug.

"I'm going to sleep over tonight because my apartment is doing renovations at the moment and I really don't want to go to Marissa's house." Sirah explained.

"You're welcome to stay here until your apartment is finished." I said with a low voice.

"Thanks Dems." Sirah smiled.

"But first I gotta run back to my apartment and grab some clothes." Sirah added.

"Okay see you when you get back." I whispered more.

Sirah just gave me a thumbs up then she took her car keys and ran out of the house.

After Sirah left the house I started to drink some of my honey lemon flavoured tea to help  with my throat and it's slowly helping with my voice.

When I was drinking some  more of the tea I started to make supper because it's almost 5pm and I'm starving.

So I  grabbed a box of burgers and started looking for the burger grill  then when I found it I plugged it in and waited for the light on the grill to go off.

As I was waiting I started to  drink some of my tea then Sirah came back with a bag of clothes.

"You can put the bag in the guest room." I whispered.

Sirah just gave me a thumbs up as she started to walk over to  the guest room which was upstairs.

The light went out in the  grill and then I placed two burgers at a time on the grill and started to cook them.

"You guys got a lot of beautiful pictures upstairs." Sirah said with amazed look on her face.

"Darryl would've put more pictures but there's no room on the walls down here or in the hallways." I explained with a whisper.

"I can't wait to see the new family pictures when the new baby comes out." Sirah smiled.

"Me too." I whispered.

"Your voice still sore?" Sirah asked.

"Yes." I answered a low sigh.

"Well you're drinking some of the wonder tea so it should help." Sirah comforted.

"Wonder tea ?" I questioned.

"I named it wonder tea because it works wonders and it usually helps with sore throats." Sirah explained.

"That makes sense." I agreed with a low tone in my voice.

Before Sirah could talk I put the patties on the plate and placed two more on the grill.

"Do you need help ?" Sirah asked.

"Yes I do." I answered.

"I'll grab some hamburger buns, cheese slices and ketchup." Sirah offered.

"Thanks." I whispered.

"I'm happy to help." Sirah beamed as she put everything that I needed for the hamburgers on the table.

"If you really really want to help I have something for you to do." I whispered with a serious tone in my voice.

"What is it ?" Sirah asked with a confused look on her face.

"Since I'm having a baby and it's the last one  i want you to plan my baby shower." I answered.

"I'd love to help but wouldn't you wait until you find out if you're having a girl or a boy because I don't want to go out to the store and end up buying boy decorations if it's a girl and vice versa." Sirah explained.

"This week I'm finding out what I'm having and then you're probably going to be still here and I'll tell you then  and also if Darryl's here it would be amazing." I gushed.

"Leave the baby shower party to me because since the last two baby showers I organized was so successful  you don't have any worries gurl." Sirah beamed with excitement.

"I'm so glad I can't count on you." I  whispered with a smile.

Before Sirah could speak I took the burgers out of the grill and places them on the plate and unplugged the grill and let it cool down before I could clean it out.

Sirah and I started placing the buns on the patties then  added the cheese and ketchup on top. When that was done Sirah put some French fries in a air fryer and let them cook.

Having just a plain cheese burger is just boring so I'm glad Sirah thought of the idea of having French fries with it and I know my stomach is going to hate me but I don't care right now I'm so hungry I could eat a horse.

About a few minutes past Sirah took the fries out of the air fryer and placed some of the fries on each plate.

Then we put the plates on the table and I started pouring some glasses of orange juice and then I put some orange juice in Alyssa's princess cup .

I poured Alyssa's orange juice  in her mug because I'm afraid she will accidentally drop the glass and it will shatter everywhere  so that's why I put it in her plastic princess cup.

After everything was ready Sirah went into the girls room and told them supper was ready and they automatically  stopped playing  ran towards the  kitchen table.

When everyone sat down  at the table with their food no one wanted to talk because everyone was hungry including myself. 

A couple hours past everyone was done eating; Sirah and  myself cleaned the dishes because I really didn't want to deal with it tomorrow.

"Have you spoken to  Darryl today ?" Sirah asked as she started putting a plate up in the cabinet.

"Yes I did." I whispered.

"That's great!" Sirah beamed.

"He told me that he might be home in a few days because the captain he's working for right now told him, Darryl's partner, the Boston police  that they could go see their families for a few days and Darryl and his partner needs to be back that Monday morning." I explained while whispering as I started putting the burger grill away.

"At least you too can spend sometime together." Sirah said as she put more plates in the cabinet.

"I wish it was longer than two and half days." I replied with a low sigh.

"You guys should go on a little date together the night before he leaves and don't worry about babysitting it's  covered with no charge." Sirah suggested.

"That's a great idea." I said with a low tone in my voice  while smiling.

"After all I know it's been four days since he left for Boston but you guys need to have at least one romantic date night together  and if you wanted the house to yourselves I don't think your mother would mind letting me and kids sleepover for that night." Sirah explained with a smile.

"You're  right because I have no idea when he will be able to  solve this case he's working  on with his partner and Darryl told me it can take months so I might as well take the shot and make this weekend special for myself and Darryl." I responded while whispering and closed the cabinet after Sirah put the last plate up.

"Thanks for  coming up with the idea." I added with a low tone in my voice.

"No problem; you too desereve all the  happiness in the world." Sirah gushed while smiling.

"I'm so happy to have you as my friend  who has and always will be there for me whenever I needed it." I said with a whispered.

After I said that  Sirah gave me a hug. Then I hugged her back.

"I'm always here for   you  Dems." Sirah said as she let go of me.

I just smiled at her.

"I'm so tired right now and I'm going get some sleep." I said as I started walking  over to the hallway.

"Me too." Sirah replied as she started to walk towards the  stairs.

"Goodnight Si." I said as I turned off the lights in the kitchen and the living room.

"Goodnight Demi." Sirah responded as she started to walk upstairs.

After Sirah went upstairs I walked towards the girl's bedroom I was going to tell them I was going to sleep but before I could tell them they fell asleep while watching  frozen II so I quietly turned their tv down and closed the door a little.

Then I walked into mine and Darryl's bedroom.

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When I walked in I took my clothes off accept for my undergarments then I walked over to my closet and threw on night gown.

Before I went to sleep I prayed to god for Darryl's safety then I kissed Darryl's picture on my nightstand and I turned off the lights then slowly went to sleep.

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Hey  guys I'm really sorry for the long chapter of for my broken heart  I had so many ideas for this chapter and tried to keep this chapter a little shorter than 6k words.

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter please tell your thoughts it means a lot  to Me! 

I can't believe that this book has 500 reads I'm just so happy  and I never thought I will ever see that number because I'm the worst updater in the world :(

But I'm really greatful for everyone  you guys are the best!

I hope you have a good day and please be safe through these crazy times!