Cookie: Someone suggested that Sean Faris can play Cedric's brother John since he's hot and they kind of look alike lol sooooo, I decided yes, John wil be played by Sean...pic on the side!!-->

Songlink is "Too little too late" by JoJo. Fitting for Kai and John's relationship right now :/

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"You say you dream of my face, but you don't like me, you just like the chase to be real it doesn't matter anyways. You know it's just too little too late "-JoJo

*+Kai's POV+*

Cedric was late. Again.

       I sat on the kitchen chair and stared at the food I prepared. It had grown cold from sitting out too long. I glance at the clock hanging on the wall. What could be keeping him? His friends again?

       I crossed my arms with a sigh. Maybe I should just put this all away...or maybe I should just give in and call him to demand what's taking him so long. But that's it. It would be too childish to ask him if those girls were more important to him then I was.

       I leaned against the chair with a frown at my thoughts. In all honesty I don't even know where I stand with that boy. We're lovers...but is that all? Did he still think that he was a replacement for John? We've never actually talked about it since our affair began. What does Cedric really think of me? Of our relationship?

       The door bell rang, breaking me out of my thoughts, very dangerous thoughts. I was grateful for the interruption because when left alone my mind would go into dangerous territory. I shouldn't expect more from Cedric. He was just a child.

       "And that's probably him now," I said aloud, making my way to the front door. "Ced," I opened the door with a small smile, excited to see him despite myself. "What took you so long..." I cut off, eyes going wide when I realized just who was standing in front of my door.

       "Hi," John smiled at me. "Long time no see."

       I stared at him, not quite knowing how to react to his presence. It actually surprised me to see him standing there, hands in his blue jean pockets, white polo shirt as white as his smile. He had that sheepish look on his face, one that told me that he knew that I was shocked to see him.

       "I thought you were still on your Honeymoon," I said, not knowing what else to say at this point. My heart did a little flip flop at the sight of him like it always did. No matter how much of a bastard he's been, John would always hold a place in my heart.

       "I was," he nodded, "but we decided to come back early."

       "A week early?"

       John's smile dimmed. "There were...complications."

       Trouble in paradise already? I didn't voice that thought out. Instead I continued to stare at him, waiting for him to say something else. To make the next move. What was he doing here?

        John cleared his throat, looking a little unnerved by my stare. "Uh, can I come in? Or am I not welcome anymore?"

       I blinked at him. Let him in? But why? I thought he said he was never coming back to my apartment. When he had left me three months ago, he had taken everything with him. So why was he here now?

        "Kai?" John titled his head to the side, suddenly looking concerned. "You okay?"

        "I..." I shook my head and stepped back. "Come in."

        "Thanks." He brushed past me and took off his shoes. He knew my policy on shoes inside the house. "The place looks different," he commented, shoving his hands back in his pocket as he looked around my home.

       "I re-decorated," I said, closing the door. "John, why are you here?"

        John took his time before answering. He strolled the the Chinese painting of a waterfall against my wall and studied it. "This is new."

       "Yeah." I stayed behind him, watching his back carefully. " I got it after you left."

        John studied the painting a little longer before turning to face me. He paused at the sight of me and tilted his head to the side, looking thoughtful. "You've changed."

       "Have I?"

        "You look more...refreshed."

       I crossed my arms. "I've made some changes in my life."

       "Like?"

       "I got a new lover." And he's your brother.

        John lifted his brows up in surprise. "A new lover? I see..." He ran hand through his dark hair, making my heart ache at the striking resemblance between him and Cedric. "Guess I'm too late, huh?"

       That caught my attention.

       "What?" I straightened in full attention and uncrossed my arms. "What did you say?"

        "I missed you."

        My mouth went dry at his words, heart picking up speed. How long have I waited to hear those words after he had left me? Hearing them now...I didn't know what to think.

        "My life hasn't been the same without you," he admitted with a sigh. "It hasn't been right at all for months now."

       "And you're telling me this now because...?"

        John fixed me with a solemn stare. "Because I want to pick up where we left off."

        "What?" I gaped incredulously at him. Was I hearing things? He couldn't possibly mean...

        John walked up to me and grabbed my shoulder firmly. He leaned his face closer to mine, blue eyes intense. "I want you back, Kai. I want things the way it used to be."

        I stared at him, completely thrown off guard. Was he serious? He wanted me back now? NOW?

        "You're married," I blurted out.

       John smiled crookedly, that familiar crooked smile that used to drive me crazy. Now...now it just put an ache in my heart. "It's not working out between Julia and I."

        "John, you've only been married for a week!"

        "Yeah, but we've been having problems for months now, ever since we got engaged." He paused as if searching for the right words to say. "We don't ....we don't agree on certain things."

       "So what? Now you want me back?"

       "Julia isn't you, Kai. You understand me."

       I shrugged his hands off my shoulder and stepped back. "It's too late between us."

       "But we can continue as we were before," he insisted.

        "Do you know what you're saying, John?" I shook my head at him. "You're asking me to help you commit infidelity!"

        John closed his eyes and rubbed his temple, as if he too was tortured by the idea. "I know, Kai, I know but...I can't live without you." He looked at me with tormented eyes. "Being with Julia made me realize that. I made a mistake."

       "I can't enter a relationship with you again, " I told him firmly. "It's too late."

       "But I love you."

       Damn him! Why!? Why now? Why did he have to come to me and say that just when I was starting to get over him...just when I thought I was moving on. How could he do this to me? I felt my eyes burning with tears, tears of hatred for him, tears of weakness because I was swayed by his words.

        I love you. I've been waiting for him to say those words for a very long time. So very long...

        "Kai." John reached out and cupped my face between his hands. "Kai, let's start over."

       My stomach churned at his words. Start over...

       "You know me," he whispered, "and I know you. I made a mistake in getting married but don't let that mistake come in between us. I was a fool to let you go in the first place, I admit that, but don't turn us down. Let's start over. I love you."

        I grasped the hands on my face. "I can't..."

       "You can." John kissed my forehead. "We can."

        I swallowed, so tempted by his words because they were the same ones I've longed for him to say the minute he told me he was getting married. I had kept waiting for him to come back to me, waiting for him to come back to his senses and realize that it was me that he wanted. That it was with me where his happiness lies.

      "Are you divorcing her?"

       John stiffened.

       I lifted my eyes up and looked at him. "Are you saying that you'll leave her for me?"

       "It's not that easy."

       I knew it. My heart burned. I knew he wouldn't leave her. Not for me.

       "You need to leave," I said softly and stepped out of his reach. "Just leave, John."

       "Kai." He grabbed my arm desperately, possibly sensing that I was drifting away from him. "It's not that easy! I can't just divorce her."

       "And why not?" I shot back angrily. "If you want to be with me, you would leave her!"

       "Her father could crush my career," he stressed. "He could destroy my chances-"

      I jerked my arm back from him, completely disgusted by him. "Get out."

       "Kai."

        I walked to the door and opened it. "Leave, John. We're through here."

        John moved but didn't walk out the door. Instead he planted himself in front of me. "I don't want to leave you."

       I looked away from his pleading stare. "You're already gone."

       "But I love you."

       "You love yourself, you selfish bastard."

        But John wasn't buying it. He grabbed my arms again and shook me. "We can make this work! Just have faith in me. In us."

       "There is no 'us', John. Can't you see that? There hasn't been an 'us' for a long time since before you told me you were marrying, Julia. There was just a 'you'. Just you and your precious paintings."

       "Tell me you don't love me," he barked, looking angry now, "tell me that you don't love me anymore. I dare you to lie and say it. Do it without looking like you're going to cry and I'll leave. I'll give up." He shook me harder. "Tell me you don't think about me. Tell me you don't love me, Kai. Go ahead and say it!"

        I opened my mouth to tell him that I haven't thought about him since he got married, that I didn't love him anymore but one look into his eyes and I knew that hed know that I was lying. The truth is that I have been thinking about him. Always comparing him to Cedric, always wondering what could have been...

       My eyes widened. Oh god, Cedric. I had completely forgotten about him! He could come any minute and see us like this. He'd misunderstand...

       "John," I said, trying to release his hold on me. "John let me go. You have to leave. Now."

        "Not until you tell me that you don't love me anymore."

       "John!" Struggling against his hold, we stumbled out my apartment and out into the open. "John, let go!"

        His lips connected with mine and I stiffened. He pressed his lips against mine, urging me to return his kiss but I remained frozen, heart swaying between reason, between good judgment and bad. A part of me wanted to shove him away but at the same time another part wanted to surrender to this, to him.

       It would just be so easy to.

       Then I heard a girlish gasp followed a snappy "What the hell!?"

        John and I broke apart, turning to our intruders. My heart fell when I saw that it was Cedric standing in front of the stairs with two girls a step below him. The girls eyes were wide with surprise while Cedric...he just stood there staring at us, completely silent.

       "Ced?" John frowned. "What are you doing here?"

       "Cedric," I whispered, knowing that the scene he had just witnessed looked incriminating. "Ced, it's not what you think. I..."

       "Isn't that your older brother, Cedric?" The girl with the red hair asked, shooting us a disgusted look. The smaller one, the one with gold curls just clutched onto Cedric's hand, eyes darting between me and him.

       "Shouldn't you be at home?" John asked his younger brother. "Why are you here?"

       I closed my eyes and groaned. This couldn't possibly turn out well. I told John that I had a new lover earlier but I never intended for him to find out that it was Cedric. Not this way.

        And Cedric, he stared at me as if waiting for an explanation...but what do I tell him? That I hadn't meant to kiss John? And if I hadn't meant to then why didn't I push him away? How could I tell Ced that I had been torn with indecision without looking like I had wanted it to happen?

       "Let's go," Cedric finally spoke up after several seconds of suffocating silence. He turned and started down the stairs. "I'll take you two home."

       "No," I found myself saying. "Cedric, wait!" I couldn't let him leave like this! Couldn't have him think...think what!? He had stepped into this relationship convinced that he was a replacement for John so why would seeing us together affect him?

       Still...still, I didn't want him to leave just like that. It seemed like if I let him go now, I'd never see him again. And that very thought frightened me.

       "Wait!" I grabbed his arm and dragged him back to the top of the stairs. "I said wait! We need to talk!"

       "Hey!" Both the girls cried out as I continued to drag Cedric back with me. I ignored them and forced Cedric back with me to my door, walking right past John who stared confusedly at us.

       "Sorry," I told the two girls who rushed towards us. "But this is a private discussion."

       I sent John a look and slammed the door close on their surprised faces.

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