Lydia's P.O.V.

"Dia, please let me come in," Cassie begged, "Please,"

It has been two hours since I found out...two hours ago I was told the biggest nightmare...for the past two hours I have been staring at the wall across from my bed. I didn't feel anything, I didn't feel sad, I didn't feel happy, I just felt nothing. 

"Dia," Cassie whimpered, "They were my parents too...they basically took me in. I know how you are feeling...please Dia, let me in."

Cassie had been sitting outside my door for the past two hours too, but I didn't want to see anyone, I didn't want to hear anything, I just wanted to be alone. 

"Cassie," I whisper hoping she would hear through the door, "Please, I just want to be alone,"

"Dia..."

"Please, I'll talk to you tomorrow okay?" I say trying to hold my tears back, "I know you loved them too, I know you are hurt too, but I just need some time alone."

"You promise you will be okay?" She asked quietly

No, "I promise,"

I heard her get up, "I love you, Dia, please hold on to that."

Wiping my tears away, "I love you too Cassie,"

Hearing her footsteps slowly become faint I break down again, I hug my tummy as tight as I can, Hunter will never be able to meet his grandma or grandpa, and it's all Flynn's fault. Everything is his fault! If he had left me alone that night, none of this would have happened, if he wasn't the Alpha none of this would have happened.  If he had just stayed away my parents would still be alive!

Hours went by, I hadn't eaten anything since lunch and now it's almost 3 in the morning...my stomach kept growling and I felt very weak too. Struggling to get up I open my door holding on to different things so I could make it downstairs safely, walking into the kitchen I open the fridge looking for something to eat. 

Pasta, pulling it out of the fridge I warm it up but as soon as I sat down to eat it my appetite went away...I remembered the last time I actually had a proper dinner with Mom and Dad. Mom's famous steak and mashed potatoes, Dad's lame jokes...Cassie and I... our little family. 

Pushing it away I went to leave the kitchen but someone pushed me back down on the chair, "Eat it," Flynn. 

He made his way to stand in front of me shirtless, looking away from him I glared at the plate, "I'm not hungry,"

"Lydia, you have to eat something. It isn't healthy for you or the baby."

"Since when did you start giving a shit about either of us?" I snapped at him, "I still remember what you did to me when you left, and don't think that I will forgive you for what happened with my parents either. Leave me the fuck alone,"

Flynn sighed, "If you're done acting like a brat-"

"What the fuck did you call me?" I raise my voice a little, "A brat? What have I done other than cooperate with you for the past couple of months? What have I done other than being trapped in this stupid house huh?"

"Lydia-"

"Shut up!" I said frustratedly, "Shut up! I hate you! You ruined my fucking life. If you had just stayed the fuck away from me none of this would have happened! My parents would be alive, my life would be normal, I wouldn't be pregnant with a child YOU don't even want. Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I even put up with your shit Flynn," I say sharply, "But then I look down at my stomach and think that I will never EVER let Hunter become a monster like you."

He clenched his jaw, "I went into the warehouse for you...I needed-"

"You went to save them because you HAD to." I cut him off, "So thank you, Flynn, thank you for risking your life for my family but instead of saving them you got my only family killed."

Flynn grabbed my arm roughly pulling me towards him, "We busted our ass to save your parents, Lydia, Stefan's arms got burnt, Brazens leg broke, Harlow's arm broke and My ribs got fractured do you really think that I went in there for a personal motive?"

"Get off me," I spat at him, "Flynn," But he didn't budge, "Why were they there in the first fucking place? Because of you. I told you I felt like something wasn't going to go right, I told you don't go and fucking poke the bear but what did you do? You poked the fucking bear and the bear attacked back. Taking the two most important people in my life."

Tightening his grip on me he leaned closer, "I did what was right for my reputation, Alphas don't care about other people,"

"Why? Why can't they care? Is it really that bad to care about other people?"

Inhaling sharply he shoved me back, "I already tried caring about people all you get is betrayal and pain. I needed to imbed fear into Arlo and failed, that's why he tried this shit. Look, I know you are hurting right now but you need to realize that you have the Heir of the Knight's growing in your stomach. Eat something."

My blood began to boil, "Fuck you," I snapped at him, "My parents died almost 5 hours ago and you want me to move on? No, I'm sorry I'm not heartless like you. Go away, Flynn."

I turned to leave but he grabbed me again pulling me back towards him roughly, "Watch your tone with me, Lydia. I have been really patient with you for the past couple of months but you can't talk to me like that again."

"Or else what? You'll kill me too." I taunt him, "Do it, put me out of my fucking misery."

Grabbing my neck just like he did earlier he pushed me against the wall, "Don't test me,"

"I dare you," I pushed him, he wasn't applying any pressure, his hand was just there as a warning, "What's wrong? Does the Big Bad Alpha have cold feet all of a sudden? Do it, it didn't stop you before."

Flynn clenched his jaw applying slight pressure on my neck his eyes dropped to my lips there was so much tension between us, sexual and nonsexual tension. I knew this was wrong, the killer of my parents was standing right in front of me, I wanted to kill him but at the same time jump his bones. Maybe it was the pregnancy hormones... Flynn leaned in closer as I bit down on my lip harshly, "Never disrespect me like that again Lydia..." He whispered in my ear sexily, "You are very...very easy to read and right now you may be truly angry with me but..." Flynn slid his other arm around my waist but it felt like he was touching every nerve, "Your eyes and body are saying something else." Kissing my neck he smirked as my body shivered in his arms, "Disrespect me like that again...then maybe...just maybe I'll let your desires come true."

This isn't supposed to happen, this isn't going to happen, not after what happened a mere five hours ago, "Get off," I whispered breathlessly causing him to chuckle, clearing my throat I push against his chest but he doesn't move, "Flynn," I say more firmly, "Get off of me."

Flynn pulled away catching a glimpse of my flustered face, "Don't touch me like that again. I hate you."

He smirked letting go of my body leaning against the island, "You should...I mean I am the reason why your parents are dead."

Is he rubbing it in my face?

Huffing I run upstairs, well at least my version of running into my room. Seriously my pregnancy hormones had to kick in at the wrong time. I am mad at him, I am extremely angry put his presence, it's always been so overwhelming for me, since the day we met. 

There was something there between us, it wasn't love, it was care, and it definitely wasn't hatred.  Sighing I sit down beside my window again, I won't be able to sleep alone grabbing my blanket I walk over to Cassie's room opening the door slightly I see she is sitting on the ledge of her window, "Hey," I whisper, "Can I sleep here tonight?"

Cassie turned around running towards me pulling me into a tight hug, "Dia," She whispered relieved, hugging her back I relaxed in her arms. We may be hurting right now...but I know that we will be okay.