"Purple hyacinth means sorrow.

I'm so sorry Hoseok. I should've known that my words wouldn't affect you. I should've known my limits, I should've known that you wouldn't even read these insignificant notes.

I'm sorry Hoseok, for not being able to influence others to love you more, for not helping others to realise what an amazing person you are. I'm sorry Hoseok, for not being enough. I'm sorry that you have to go through this."

"No no no!" Hoseok groans in frustration. He bites his lips as he thinks about replying her. He weighs the consequences in his mind, but it's quite obvious which answer his heart is pushing him towards.