sometimes wishes can't come true
you have to awake to a new point of view
imagine a world where what you want is clear
and clouds can't obstruct what you hold dear
dreams seem to be a constant thought
creating my own world where it follows my plot
i'm sure i'm not the only one who wishes to escape
and dream a world with my preferred traits
yet reality can be hard to see
so i prefer to live in a dream
ignoring all the bells and whistles
it's easier to sink in to my own vessels
digging deeper into what would be perfect
i sometimes think it isn't worth it
a boat labeled imagination
leading me to my own creation
that carry my mind to a fantasy i wish to be
while my body remains chained to this eternity
of going through the motions
one step at a time
Wake, work, eat, sleep again and again
constantly thinking of my past and memories within
the way the brain works is a beautiful thing
but how mine is shaped haunts my dreams
nightmares piled up of what I wish to be true
and the stories i tell to darken my view
i hate the way i can't trust
but how could you imagine a world without lust
maybe that is the best way to summarize how i feel
maybe i don't know how to love or heal
therapy wouldn't be a bad option
so why do I avoid it and proceed life with caution?
disassociation is my poison
quickly killing my emotions
as i ignore everything i hold dear
and slip steadily into despair